Solo play... for now?

I’m not sure if this is going to be interesting to anybody but I feel a funny sort of ‘unburdening’ by writing this knowing that somebody else may read it. I’ll try and keep it interesting and if anybody else would like to try this, I’m happy to help out where I can.

Last night was the first real test for my time-lock safe. It’s a cheap electronic key safe and I’ve fitted it with a count-down timer so it will unlock only once the timer has run down to zero. The key pad still works but I’ve set the code to a random number so I can’t open it that way. This might allow different games in the future! The only other way to open it is with the override key and that’s inaccessible for some of the time.

I locked myself in my HoD Holy Trainer V2, put the key in the safe and set the timer for 11hours. I then came in from the shed, where I keep the safe hidden, joined this website and posted my first ‘intro’ post shortly after.

I’ve never worn it for long before, only a few hours so I was quite nerves. I also pulled my foreskin back before putting it on as when I’ve played it before I found I could masturbate by pushing something through the slit and rubbing myself. But I can’t then forget I’m wearing it! How do other people get around this? Will power? To me, the turn on and frustration is knowing I can’t. I bit like pretending to be tied up just is not the same as actually being tied up!

Going to sleep was tricky, not helped that I spent 10 mins watching some porn. I found myself getting really aroused and touching the cage which just made it worse. The sensation of rubbing vigorously the outside made things even worse and I wondered if I could make myself come. Fortunately sense got the better of me and I finally got off to sleep.

I woke up a few times with a ‘morning glory’ before getting up for work. Got changed and went into the shed. I had to wait for another 10mins for the safe to open so I could remove the cage and go to work feeling very horny.

Tonight, as I type this, I don’t think my wife is going to be interested in sex. I don’t blame her and I don’t put any pressure on her at all. I’ve promised myself that if she doesn’t I’ll spend another night in chastity. I think I’m more turned on by that than I am about having sex!

 

Quick update: I've just locked myself into chastity for the second consecutive night!

Feeling really frustrated but impressed with my self control for putting my cage on before succumbing to the desire to pleasure myself.


I’ve also bought a faux leather cage on a waist belt with a thong strap. Don’t think I can wear this overnight as its too obvious even under shorts. But I do have a fantasy brewing that I’ll put this on over my chastity cage one evening if my wife goes out… just need to buy some proper little padlocks and not the cheap luggage type one that it came with. That way I’ll be doubly secure.

 

The second night didn’t quite go as expected. I started thinking about actually being in chastity ‘properly’ with my wife as a key holder and being denied orgasms. I started to get into the ‘head space’ of it and understanding that it mustn’t be ‘dominating from the bottom’. I then started getting aroused. More aroused than I have in a very long time. My heart was pounding and I had a raging erection in my cage. I was desperate to come… but couldn’t. I actually wanted my wife to keep me locked up and pleasure her for a night, a number of days, a week… and have that control over me. Very powerful feelings that I’ve never known could exist in me.

I woke up twice and it took ages to get back to sleep. The second time around I ordered a copy of “Male Chastity: A Guide for Keyholders by Lucy Fairbourne” from the internet. Can’t wait to read it – should be here in two days! Really tied today. I’ve been trying even harder than normal to put her first today hoping we have sex tonight. But I never push for it or drop any hints. I will lock my cage on again tonight if we don’t.

 

Update from my phone so will keep text short...
Night number 3 when well, I got straigh to sleep and only woke a few times early in the morning. It's an understatement to say it's very arrousing feeling it hard and twitching and contained! May be because I was so tired I was able not to start thinking about it too much and get back off.

However there was slight hardwear malfunction with the time safe. I got dressed for work and went via my wife to kiss her 'good morning'. She had one brest hanging out of her night dress from feeding our baby an a erect nipple. I so so wanted to pleasure her: take her nipple in my mouth and run my fingers down to her mound but remain locked in chastity. My cock got really hard in the cage.

Back to the malfunction - the safe wasn't open. It took a further 20mins to unlock! I'm sure I didn't get the time wrong... Considered going to work caged but I don't want to ever cross work and play. Need to work out what went wrong ASAP.

 

Another update, didn’t get the time lock issue resolved but before going to bed on the night after my last post I got a sudden desire to do something about my ‘downstairs’ housekeeping. Or lack of it. I took my beard trimmer and hacked it back as close as I could to my balls and trimmed it up neatly at the top. Felt really good… until I went to bed and it then felt just short and prickly. Got up earlier and got out my wife’s Veet hair removal cream. Wow, coating my balls and base of my cock with the little spatula made me really horny. 5mins later I scraped it off in the shower and it felt amazing. Couldn’t stop admiring it in the mirror!

Next couple of days where about self-imposed chastity over night. My wife went out one whole day and I hid the keys in her car before she left. That was a fun.

I’d also written a letter to her to ask her to be my key holder for a trial. I’ll include it below… just haven’t had a courage to send it yet.

We also had sex last night for the first time in ages and for the last 24hours I lost all interest in chastity but the feelings have come back strongly now.

 

I’ve been wondering how to bring up this idea with you and thought it might be easier to write it down. This way I can get the words about right and give you time to think about it. How would you like to play a new ‘bed-room’ game with me? If I may say, I think you will really enjoy it! If you don’t want to play or you decide that you don’t like it after starting, then that is 100% OK. I’ve left a book for you to have a read through as I think it puts things really well, much better than I could. It’s small and white and at the very top right of the book shelf under the stairs.

The game would be; would you like to tell me to put on my ‘little padlock’ and only let me take it off when you allowed me to? This would continue for a period of time of your choice. It is completely undetectable under clothes, comfortable to wear even overnight and it would be completely your discretion as to when I was to wear it. I would give you the keys. Simply, with it locked on I can’t remove it, it doesn’t let me get erect and I can’t ‘O’. I would therefore be completely beholden to you for any sexual gratification.

If you like the idea may I propose that we played this game for something like two weeks so we can both see how we found it? Whilst we were playing I would not be allowed to ask for sex or ask to be allowed to ‘O’ with or without you. It would only ever be 100% your choice that, and if, I did. Again, and only if you wanted to, you can instruct me to pleasure you in any way with still no expectation for you to unlock me. If I did make an inappropriate sexual advances or attempted any sexual acts which you didn’t permit, you could set appropriate consequences.

I only have two conditions, all other control would be yours. I don’t wear it to work as it would go against the ‘role’ I have to fill. However you could, say, tell me to put it on after 7pm each day. You could then let me to take it off before leaving for work the following day. Secondly, and even more importantly, I don’t want the game to blur the line between a ‘the bed-room’ and real life even though the actual time would overlap. I.e. at all other times we would treat each other completely normally. This game is me submitting to you sexually when, where and if you desire, for a period of time of your choice, but all other aspects of our lives wouldn’t change. Although I’m sure I would be very attentive in the hope that you would reward me! This might also be a good opportunity to tell me about any fantasies you have…?

Of utmost importance to me is I don’t want you to feel any pressure to play, it may go completely against how you enjoy and see life. However if you decide you would like to play and after some time you, or I, or we both, may decide it’s not for us. From my side of our relationship any of these outcomes wouldn’t change a thing about us going forwards. But I feel it would have been worth exploring. Personally I’m looking at this as an extended bed-room game and not a long term life style choice - I’m hoping we both really enjoy it and decide it’s a game we may like to repeat at another time!

 

We're in different beds tonight as I've got work difficult day at work tomorow and the smallest is being especially demanding at night at the moment. (My wife does a fantastic job with them both and I do work hard so we can have a reasonably comfortable life)
I'd mentioned last night about having 'the snip' and sent a txt saying I was still serious. Cut a long story short, I've just sent another asking if she'd like to have a play with my 'little padlock' as she once called it. (I'd shown it to her weeks ago but it's been consined to out toy box since) Waited, could see she was typing... Waited some more and she said "may be tomorow night!" What a relief!! That could have gone so wrong! Thinking about sending my email above tomorow morning...

Ps please excuse any spelling mistakes, I'm typing this on my
Phone and due to personal reasons I normally *always* use a spellchecker.