went to the sex shop today...loked at all the shiny new toys. did my best to convince him to purchase some bondagey items and then my eye fell on this duckie vibrator!!! i squealed like a kid in a candy shop. i hugged the duckie to my chest and it took considerable effort on his part to pry it from my hands...(we were only window shopping. and i knew this, because he told me so well in advance that he only wanted to see what sort of things i might like)... i think i will start believing in god or santa again... i wonder how many hail marys i might have to utter before i am rewarded with this wonderful toy?! or how many times i must be naughty instead of nice....