Kind of frustrated!

you are among friends, who under stand you, don't be afraid to tell us your story and ask question.

 

dear sunny, you are far from alone and i easily understand the highs and the very lows you are going through and wish you all the very best.

i also often fall into occasional states of frustrated depression where i mistakenly and selfishly think i deserve something in return for my permanent sacrifice. but then i snap out of it and am grateful for the privilege and gift that i have been lovingly given. stay strong sunny.

"be careful what you wish for"

deep breaths sunny, deep breaths.

 

Look for the cause of your depression, on the other side, what you will going to do after release?
You will lose sexual feelings for a long time.
Now you have no choice, because for a good cum, you must be horny.
But you know what it means to "horny" for you, and how you can get it...

 

I hope You will eventually fall in love with the feeling of constant arousal... It is so giving. But I praise the lord- If I had been a believer - that she craves penetrative sex. My struggle is not to touch ( she took the device from me and replaced it with a pierced permanent cock ring), and sometimes I have to fight demons, -but over time I have learned a trick or two to keep them at a distance....

 

@Sunny are you telling the forum that no teasing or contact ever takes place ?

 

@Sunny Hi

Not sure but are you one of a very few if not the only one to have their lock permanently sealed .

Xx Wendy

 

At least three users (Lori 5) from this forum, locked permanently. Two sealed with epoxy.

 

Apart from all other questions this hread might rise there IS one place much better suited to share your feelings: At your home with your wife. Even if you might live in a flr it's still a relationship and as such those kind of problems are meant to be solved by you and your wife together ! Although solivng this problem doesn't necessarily mean being released or teased on a regular basis, but rather seeing everyone happy again - however you might achive it.

Because even a flr won't work inte long-term if one partner is unhappy...

 

Hi Sunny.
We all have our crosses to bear and they all weigh upon us heavily. Hang in there, nothing is "permanent" with the right tools and care. As submissives we allow ourselves to be put upon--part of the thrill of submission. My lifestyle prohibits being in my device every minute of the week and the things that are going on when I am not prohibit "cheating". Much like Blue Eyes I fight the demons that want me to touch in the fleeting moments when I am free...I have touched myself to the point of arousal less than 10 times in over 3 years but thankfully stopped before violating my orgasm denial and the tenets of chastity. I have felt guilty after the fact when I have done this and felt abject relief as I snapped the lock closed. I still feel the depression you do though I think. The things I really want which so many here (but not all) seem to partake in I do not get...frequent teasing, oral service to their Wife/Mistress/Keyholder, passionate kissing, receiving and giving strap on sex, being milked BY their Wife/Mistress/Keyholder (as opposed to self milking), corporal punishment, contracts and the like. God, I miss locking lips with my Wife/Mistress/Keyholder and we finally just discussed it in depth and she finally explained she sees passionate kissing on the lips with exchange of tongue as a very sexual thing and that she feels it goes hand
in hand with foreplay to intercourse, and well, there is no intercourse so she is perfectly happy with me showering her body (sans pussy or ass--only through panties) instead. I do get very depressed sometimes. I feel ignored sometimes. She puts all of her attention to the kids and her career before considering me. Again like Blue Eyes I do love the constant simmer and desire. It helps me through the depressing moments. Would I accept being glued in if my life was different? Mmmmmmm...probably. The absolute submission is an arousing double edged sword. Feeling my rock hard erection pulsing deep inside the warm, wet depths of my wife is something I do miss, but after over 3 years I think the lack of near constant, simmering arousal and constant thoughts about my Wife/Mistress/Keyholder would be even more depressing. ANYWAY, as I said, "permanent" is only as absolute as you want and allow...as much as it takes 2 to have intercourse to orgasm, I have come to realize it takes 2 for enforced chastity to be real. If one party in either case loses interest, it cannot happen. If you REALLY don't like it, end the permanence tell your loved one why and let the chips fall where they may. Perhaps you can work out a more suitable agreement for the both of you. At our restart over 3 years ago it was I who had ended chastity, felt miserable for 6 months and suggested we try again to my Wife/Mistress/Keyholder's quick delight...however it was I who had to promise to allow HER to have absolute control...quid pro quo comes into play and and she is happy and embracing and growing into the lifestyle at her pace and I get more (LESS) than I bargained for...ever so slowly my underwear drawer has become half filled with pantyhose, thigh highs, unitards and body shapers, I crave my plug and plug harness, I sleep in pantyhose and nightshirts on average 3X per week get NO hint of penile stimulation yet the passion and physicality between us is deeper than ever and when I am able to hold her while she climaxes it is as if I came as well...I feel the same endorphin rush as I hold her tightly, leaking in my device (likely dampening another pair of pantyhose) kissing her sweaty neck and telling her over and over how much I love her. It is different things for different people. I hope my long, blathering response gives you pause and food for thought. Take care!

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