Well, i don't know really where to start, but i need to start somewhere! I'll start out with a little about myself and add to my journal a bit at a time. i was married for 17 years. The last year or so our sex life seemed to disappear! i guess that is when i started to "enjoy myself" more and more. i eventually come to find my ex was having an affair with an office co-worker. i just bid-ed my time and did catch them together. We had it out and got a mutual divorce. me keeping the house and giving her all the old furniture. This was fine with me as i didn't have to nor pay her any alimony. We never had any kids so it made things a lot easier on me, especially. While living alone, i got into self bondage and chastity. The chastity was to try and control my excessive masturbating. The bondage was a fantasy of mine for a long time, but the ex was very vanilla in that department. So the SB was fun and a good way of unwinding after a hard days work at the steel mill. i also am into some medical bondage too. This was something i could do in public while being chaste and not have people think about it much. I also had fantasized about cross dressing. I acquired a few bras and breast forms over the net, along with panty hose and regular hosiery. i occasionally wear these things at home only. Tho in the winter i would wear a bra and breast forms out in public under the winter clothes. The only thing that i do now full time is chastity. i found it to be addicting after i wore my CB longer and longer. i'm now at a new record for myself and going for New Years Eve to release and have a really good O. :yes1: I have learned to give myself a milking with my ET312 (forgot to mention the E-Stim thing!) about once a month or so,as it is said to be good for the prostate. So that's a beginning for my journal. i'm sure there will be more to add as i go along. i'm learning here as i read day to day. :CMrocks: Thank you all for such a friendly place to get comfortable with my many so called kinks. C'ya around the boards! Later! kenny.