In the Shadows

Hello Everyone,

I’ve been lurking around in the shadows of the chastity community since I was a kid. I feel it is time I step out and interduce myself.


I’m a male in my mid 40’s. I gained my first insight of chastity when I was a kid hitting puberty. As many others, I would sneak through my parents’ stuff. Especially my fathers in the hunt for porn. This would have been the late 80’s, early 90’s when internet porn was in its beginning phases. I quickly learned how to browse through my father’s computer to find his saved gif/picture files. Many of them were of the BDSM nature. That got me started in the interest of dominance and submission.


In my father’s office was a dresser. Of course, I noticed the top dresser draw had a lock installed on it. It wasn’t long before I was learned how to access the draw. I would remove the draw below it and reach up and around into the locked draw. I would feel around and pull out the magazines and VHS tapes. I was sure to remember the placement for when I returned them. Usually this was done on day I would skip school. That allowed me a few hours of self-sexual satisfaction in an empty house. The one day there was something new. A few Centurians Forced Womanhood magazines. Scrolling through these got me so excited. I could not believe the concept of forced chastity. I’m not into the female dress up, but having sexual pleasure taken away to feed another’s sexual pleasure blew my mind. Still does! I could not get enough. It was during one of these skipped high school day when I self-pierced my frenum. I somehow had the intuition this was my future.


Over the next 20 years, through my high school and college, I continued to read the erotic stories I found online. I even purchased a few chastity devices. These included the self-made home depot devices, CB 2000 & a steel Lori’s chastity tube. I would lock myself up for one to seven days, but I never had a keyholder to enforce my chastity.

Jump forward to 2009. I get married. Shortly after while redoing our closet, my wife notices my box of chastity devices. She’s not repulsed, yet I could since confusion. To make things easier, I through them out (mistake).


10 years go by. The marriage is still great. Love between both her and I. And we’re raising our two sons’. I decide I need to fulfill my desire and bring chastity into our marriage. I planned to first purchase a device and then somehow expose her to it. The device I chose was the Bijou from Evotion Chastity. I like this style because it does not have the ball ring which allows for comfort and eliminates bulge in pants. The gland portion is upgraded to overlapping and the tube portion is upgraded to a length of 2.75 inches and sold with only a design along the left and right side. The design is to allow air help to dry the shaft, but overall, it is designed to encapsulate the entire penis with just a hole at tip to pee. I am thinking about eliminating the left and right-side design in the future.

The truth is, I forget exactly how I introduced it to her. Currently, I would describe her as a vanilla wife who is open to the idea of controlling me in chastity. However, she did not grasp it quickly and I have been slowly guiding from the bottom for the past 3 years. We agreed on the idea that I will stay in chastity and am only to be out during the few days just after her period when I can release inside her without the threat of her getting pregnant. We practiced this method through the span of our marriage before chastity was introduced. Finally, we are now really getting into some duration. The most progress started in December of 2021. I served my first two months of chastity. I would like to say “enforced” chastity, but unfortunately, I feel I could get the key from her if I persuaded enough. I will be working on that. It was supposed to be one month, but I purposely pissed her off and did some binge drinking (I know she hates) to pass up the 3 days after her period. The unlocking of two months granted me 2 times of PIV withing 36 hours before resubmission of chastity. Next, we did an amazing 3 months. I’m still surprised that happened. On May 23rd, 2022, I was released and once again enjoyed two moments of PIV and one self-gratification before resubmission. She certainly notices how much keeping me locked makes me want to please her and constantly give her massages (with happy endings). Also, It was great because I noticed that she noticed how worthless my penis has become. She verbally mentioned that it was just one pump and done. How easy it is now for her. Because of this, I realized I could train her unknowingly to rather not have the need for me. (In the past she mentioned she sometimes needed the real thing to feel the thrusting.) I purchased a dildo harness w/ dildo. I know she does not like long. In the past she would tell me not to push deep inside as it hurt her. So, I went with a 5” long & 1.75” thick dong. That is about double mine after it has been compressed for weeks on end. Anyway, she absolutely loves this. So now anytime I massage I end with her getting railed by this and a little rabbit on her clit. She doesn’t realize it, but soon she won’t ever have the need for the real thing. She will be asking to be stretched by her new stud which can also gets to feel the thrusting I provide. “Even Better Than The Real Thing!”


Thanks for taking the time to read my story. It is 100% non-fictional. I tend to be a bit brain scattered, especially when writing, so I’m sure there are a few confusing points & loop holes. Feel free to ask questions about them as I am happy to go into details about the points you are interested in.

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