Hello everybody. CosmicCandi here. I've been a member of this site for some time, and I thought I'd started a journal here previously, but I wasn't able to find it. So, let me start one now. I found BDSM online at age 13 in the early days of the Internet. I started off as a submissive in a chat room for several years. But, I've always had sadistic tendencies. It wasn't until numerous years later that I figured out Dominance was something I could do, and did actually enjoy. After a lot of soul searching, I've decided I'm a, switch, but here lately, I'm on a major exploration of my submissive side. Over the years, I've dabbled in self-imposed chastity. I started with a Curve for a (dominant) girlfriend years ago. Ultimately it was too big and clunky and I wasn't able to keep it on for any length of time at all. The next device I got was the CB-3000. It was better overall, but it ended up cutting my testes. Next I tried the Birdlocked, but ultimately it was too small for me and ripped. Next came an Exobelt device. I kept getting pinched and ultimately cut by this device as well. I got a Bon-4 and it was my go-to device for quite a while. Most recently I've bought a 3d printed Espresso, and a Chinese device similar to the Looker 02. While this Chinese device isn't without its problems, it's been my most successful device to date. With this Chinese device, I've been able to spend the majority of the last two years locked. It's driven me into a more submissive headspace to the point that I'm now seriously looking at a permanent chastity lifestyle, and for the right Woman to lead me. As of this writing I've been locked for 15 days 4 hours. In speaking with my current Keyholder, I will be let out at 108 days (tying my personal best) in order to get a Prince Albert piercing and order my new device, a custom Looker 01, with a PA Fixing, powder coated in RAL 5005 with the expectation that I will remain chaste during healing. That's the backstory. And it's not entirely complete. It's not covered any of my transition into womanhood or any other portions of my life. It's focused primarily on my chastity journey. And I hope to bring more of the same to this journal space.