Just a moment ago I experienced something with chastity that I have to share with you right now. It was just indredible and I haven't heard of something similar before. Have you felt something like this? I'm on a new chastity period. I want to go for 88 days, the rest of the summer. Today is day 17 and it's only the secod or third time I managed more then two weeks of orgasm denial. My record is something around 25 days, I don't remember. Anyway, maybe my inexperience with long term denial explains why I was surprised by this 'episode' I had ten minutes ago. I don't use a cage 24/7 this time. I don't have a jailbird or something for longterm wear. I wear my cheap metal cages wehenever I like to wear them now, like jewellry or something, and when feel I'm really horny and need some security for a couple of hours. Going for long term without a device might not be real chastity for you, I don't know. It definetly makes the challenge easier in so far there is no chafing, and everyday moving about gets easier. Anyway, my point is I wasn't locked, when I felt, what I felt, and what I'm trying to get to hear for three paragraphs now. So, here it comes: I was sitting at my desk (home-office, lucky me), dressed en femme, black high heels, black skinny jeans, black turtleneck and a tight rigid corset, which I just love love love... I was just sitting there, back straight and I began to feel wonderful, satisfied, happy. But that's not what was so special I have to tell you. A Mugler fashion show was running on the left-hand monitor and the beat drummed. It drew m attention from my work to the beautiful ladies marching up and down. Of course my horniness spiked. I looked at some porn earlier this morning which is a verys rare thing to me and somehow I knew that this horniness that was creeping up on me was reaching dangerous levels. So instead of putting on a cage, I went to my drawers and got some cloth pins. Pain always helped me diverting my attention from my crotch to my nipples. This time putting them on my nipples, it helped to, but in a different way. I used to of my strongest cloth pins on each nipple, thenpulling my top beack over them. I forgot how strong they gripped. Incredible pain shoot throuch my chest. And this is were my 'episode' set in. The pain was constant and sharp, sticking in my body. I could feel the tightness of my clothes. I had been horny, but not nearly close to the edge, my dick was only semi-hard. But still I felt the urge, the pschological need to take it out and masturbate. It was like an old habit and after 17 days I started to miss the act itself. I told myself: no, i don't masturbate. Orgasms are not for me. I began writing down, that I am now in chastity, a technique that I used like pain to get my attention of cumming. Then I suddenly find myself writing a new sentence: 'My new self demands self respect and life, it is no slave to my sexual desires'. My body began to trembe as the meaning of it set in. Suddenly my whole body trembled and I was moaning. The strong pain made my body conscious of every move. My horniness was high but not as high. My dick was still only semi erect. But my whole body just trembled like Iremember it did one time during sex soe years ago. It was this kind of wholistic tremor, I even moaned! And I kept writing: 'Experienced new climax: hurting nipples, trembling body, glowing feeling of happiness at the thought not to masturbate, whole body shakes. Never experienced anything like it before. Infinte beauty, Infinte satisfaction!' And I added after some deliberation: 'I don't seem to need any effort for control, for saying no to orgasms, to chastity anymore.' Is this what you feel when you settle into the mindset of chastity as foreplay/fantasy to chastity as a long-term lifestyle? After this episode I feel satisfied and exhausted but excited and very happy at the same time. And not a drip of cum left my dick. My horniness was only moderatly high. How is this possible?! Please oh please tell me if ou felt something like this before! TL;DR: After 17 days of orgasm denial, watching a fashion show crossdressed and putting on nipple clamps made my body tremble and blew my mind as if I had the definite orgasm of at least the decade when actually I didn't masturbate and my dick remained semi-hard tucked in skinny jeans. I feel like I don't need any huge effort anymore to keep my chastity for a long time.
It happened again! After a short break I put the cloth pins back on my nipples and whatever it is exploded inside of me and I shook like mad. Am I just a slut for pain now?