Uncumfortable2

I was originally on here as notsomuch, but got locked out due to my security settings and decided to create a new profile, so I can get back on.

I have been a major participant in the local bdsm scene many years ago. At that time I did a lot of cross dressing and was semi passable. I actually felt I was possibly transsexual but now feel I am more of a cross dresser that feels I am past my prime and don't want to dress like a grandma.

A long time fantasy of mine tease and real denial and chastity at the control of my Mistress and wife. Soon I will be purchasing a new good long term chastity device. Likely a HTv3

This time my Mistress seems to understand the ways to make my suffering worse like psychological things like planting wicked thoughts.

I know some here feel many are not who they say they are in this world of denial and feminization, but trust me, I am what I say I am.

Things I have experienced in real life are:

• feminization
• forced bisexuality
• going to a gay sex club
• going to many bdsm parties both private and public
• having a girls night out with tg friends and Mistress
• taking part in a bdsm show with 100 or so people viewing it
• going to a lingerie shop as a man and getting help to pick out sissy clothes
• some fairly heavy bondage and pain play iE caning
• been to a leading professional dominatrix in area a few times
• worked in sex trade in an online game for several years as a pretty hot shemale. Sorry I know shemale is an offensive term to many real tg's but I was in a role of being a stripper and prostitute

These days I am just happy to explore the world of being locked up and maybe some sissification. Having the control of my sexual release given to others.

The though of this machine being used on me drives me crazy
http://pornado.co/video?id=1_5937150