Sub78hiddenKink

In my college years when I was exploring my sexuality, I learned about chastity (from this site), as well as crossdressing/ sissification and bondage, and quickly became hooked on the idea of being caged up. I learned after exploring those areas that deep down I am a true submissive and really enjoy the feeling of being controlled by someone else and at their complete mercy.

I greatly enjoy the feeling of my penis caged up, especially while teasing myself with a wand vibrator or backdoor play. I love love love riding my dildos and walking around with butt plugs in. Makes me feel so much more submissive, especially if I mix it in with some bondage, like my sensory deprivation hood, harness gag, collar, ankle and wrist restraints. Sometimes even adding in nipple clamps. Right now most of that is done via self bondage.

I also really really enjoy crossdressing. I have been wearing panties exclusively for the last 10 years, as they are much prettier, comfortable and much more submissive feeling than men's underwear. Also have quite a selection of bras, stockings, pantyhose, thigh high socks, garters, corsets, dresses and heels. I love the rush of wearing some of those items under "normal" clothes out in public, always on edge if someone will notice, almost secretly hoping someone will.

My wife is the dominate one in our household and I defer to her decisions in most cases. She still however has not fully embraced the idea of being my key holder/domme in the bedroom. She is totally understanding with all of my kinks and very supportive, but does not actively participate currently in the majority of them (bondage being the one exception). I am hoping to slowly convince her and show her the advantages of being my KH/dom and how it would better our relationship. This would allow me to fully embrace my inner submissive/sissy persona.
Until that day though I will continue to self lock, pushing it for longer periods of time to continue to bring out my true inner sissy.