Kinky Nerf Herder

Hello, I'm David.

My situation is a little unusual.

Nothing about how it started is unusual, like many I've been into femdom and BDSM my whole life, more specifically chastity from about 15+ years ago.
For about 7 or 8 years my keyholder was a wonderful Woman/Dominatrix I saw weekly, but when she retired I stopped doing chastity for a few years.
About 5 years ago I started playing around with self chastity but although I could go months and months without succumbing to temptation, it wasn't really fulfilling for me.

For lengthy reasons I won't go into I more and more became interested in the idea of permanent chastity. I don't mean the unrealistic fantasy you often see of having a cage locked on forever, I mean making a genuine commitment to never masturbate or have sex again.
I had practically been doing this for years anyway and was always sorry when very long periods of denial ended. Sorry because of genuine beliefs I hold about Female superiority and how I view my role as a submissive and masturbating simply for my own pleasure. It basically didn't feel right when I did orgasm.

I have a very good female friend, she isn't into me sexually or the chastity fetish in the slightest, but she knows all about my sexual kinks. So in October 2021 I asked her, and she agreed, to simply make me promise her I would never masturbate or have any sexual stimulation again, and promise to permanently wear my chastity device (aside from weekly cleaning and for any unforseen medical reasons). I also had to promise never to raise the subject of our arrangement with her and never to ask her to free me from the promise.

It may sound silly but I am not someone who breaks promises, the key part being I am not someone who breaks promises made to people I dearly care about. And I deeply care about my friend and love her. This is why I wanted my promise to be made to her. She has not mentioned it once since, but despite being tempted to many, many times and even moments when I regret the arrangement, I've found I'm simply unable to break this promise and I have not touched myself at all. And with all the inconveniences that come with it I also wear my chastity device 24/7, removing it only as agreed.

So I consider myself to be in forced, permanent chastity. I have the keys, and am not being monitored, but the last 2+ years I've felt more unable to break or free myself from chastity than I ever have, even when someone else held the keys and control.

It's just a little lonely doing this entirely by myself, so whilst I will not do anything to break my promise, I'm really hoping I can meet like minded people on here to talk to, and it would be wonderful to talk to any dominant women who are into male chastity.