I've posted this in my journal in a few places I'm registered, but as it really documents my journey up to this point and what seriously woke me up to chastity more recently in my life, I thought it would make a good first post in my journal here too. I woke up to my sexual shortcomings very early in life and started to accept that I was incredibly sexually inept compared to most males around me. I discovered femdom, cuck and interracial porn soon after and it all really clicked with me. By my early twenties I'd accepted my deeply submissive nature and came to relish it. I'm 32 now and as a result I've stayed virgin and pussy free. Around 5 years ago I started exploring the idea of being a cuck but didn't have the courage to express it openly. Fast forward to around a few years ago when I plucked up the courage to advertise myself as a cuck looking for a FLR online. I was contacted by a couple from not too far away from where I live in Wales in the UK. They were an older couple in their 50's who had retired early and asked whether I'd consider becoming a domestic servant for them. This wasn't something I'd considered before and wasn't sure what to think at first. They explained that they wanted a younger slave tending to the housework so they had more time to enjoy their retirement with each other. They said it would mean they could also spend more time planning meets with fellow kinksters if I was there keeping their house in order and looking after their pets while they were away. After chatting to them for a a month I was completely sold on the idea. They were such a wonderfully charming couple. It was a role that fulfilled my desire to submit and serve like no other role I'd imagined up to that point. They set out some ground rules, and the husband said he wanted me to remain a virgin for as long as I served them and that permanent chastity would be required, to which I agreed. He explained it would be a mostly non-sexual role and most of the time I'd be carrying out domestic services. He mentioned the potential for some kinky elements now and again, like a scheduled milking for health reasons, and perhaps giving his wife oral service once in a blue moon among a few other kinkier things. They began clearing out a small box room and even put a mattress in there which would be where I would stay when not in use. They had a dog cage in there too, which they mentioned may be used for my training initially, and for punishments potentially which sounded a little scary, but turned me on too if I'm honest. About 6 months ago after a lot of planning, I was about to move in with them when they suddenly suffered a family tragedy. His wife was hit hard by it and I felt incredibly sorry for them. Needless to say I never got a chance to serve after, and I was extremely disappointed. It hit me pretty hard too. Something I'd wanted so long had been snatched away at the last moment and it made me extremely dejected to the point where I lost all interest in everything. It's only the last few months I've started getting some of my mojo back and started started proactively trying to fulfill my desire to serve again. I'm still looking and trying hard advertising online, but not had any luck yet unfortunately. The one good thing that came from this is that I've discovered something I want more than anything. Not just that, they helped me discover the benefits of chastity which hadn't really entered my mind before. I've experimented with orgasm denial before, and even more so since my communicating with the couple, mostly in preparation for the potential of being in long-term chastity. I've not actually been in physical chastity yet, but knowing I can manage my urges is a good start hopefully, and perhaps will be of some use if I ever find a Lady/Owner/Owners who want me caged.