When I started this journey several years ago my life was in chaos and chastity became something I longed for to put things back in order. Corresponding with several passionate and lovely Mistress's helped and I thought indeed I was ready to be locked. The battle within however was knowing that obsession is never a good thing and first I had to deal with the pain and battles within my own life...those things within and without before I could really make that commitment. In a previous post I made mention of some of those battles. There has been so much maturing in my self discovery, growth and healing in my life I know now I can make that commitment with due diligence. For me this is has never been a game, it has been a desire many years in the making, a coming of age. While I would not put myself in the category as a sissy, my thinking as always been one of total servitude and submission to women. I have always hated my naughty thoughts toward women and the reaction to those thoughts. I will be the first to admit that I am very rough around the edges, but these last few years I have actually began to like myself, and see that in a proper setting I have much to offer. Knowing this is an international forum it might seem highly unlikely I could find a local KH (local being within a few hours drive of South Central Pennsylvania). I do find this would most likely be necessary however as I long to have some tangible RT relationship with my Mistress. This may only occasional servitude to her as the relationship grows, but I am open to so much more. Of course I do not want to presume and only through conversations and open communication could it be determined if we would be a good fit. That said I am open for someone willing to hold my key and begin training, knowing that my desire is for a local Mistress. Thank you for reading this.