Well, You say don't be a "lurker" and to introduce myself here. i'm crazygoat but Mistress calls me fuckup. i'm 42 years old and have a 23 year old girlfriend and a 26 year old online Mistress who have seen fit too "lock that shit up". The first two days, specifically upon waking, were absolutely agonizing. A masochist by nature, i thought i knew what pain was until i faced what i went through the last couple of mornings. So here i am, at TCM, posting i guess in search of a little camaraderie amongst other like minded submissive men. i have questions about "just what i've gotten myself into" for subs, slaves, and Dommes alike. Let me hear from you/You. signed, fuckup
:welcome: crazygoat. Let me be the one to ask the question before everyone else does: How does this work? What are the dynamics? Do they work with each other? Are you locked yet? We're a nosey bunch, don't take it personally. :Locker:
Thank-You for Your Attention! Mistress Watchful, The past few weeks have contained some of the most interesting and rewarding experiences of my life. During a sophomore slump in my relationship with "B", the 23 year old girlfriend (Who also happens to be Black and from quite a different social arena than i), i was contacted by a Mistress online, Who had taken interest in some crappy photos of myself in self-binding and torment. Fascinated by the prospect of online domination and not knowing what to expect, i did whatever She said, and for a week or so never really thought about what would go down once i told my partner in Love. At first pissed and hurt, i was beginning to think that i was screwed. But considering how things had been going, i had to entertain the notion that i would break up with Her to pursue whatever it was i thought i was getting into with this Woman i had never met, seen a photo of, or heard her voice. This was easy, though, for Mistress Queen AvA had done so much for me in such a short time - i knew i couldn't function without Her. To my delight, once i explained this wasn't about me getting my rocks off (Well...) that it was about me reestablishing who i really was, embracing my submissive nature, and that it WAS that important to me, She offered her support 100%. It took a few weeks for them to start communicating, and the initial Queen/slave ideal may have altered slightly, but is essentially the same. Mistress informs me that She is willing to help B discover her Domme within (already manifesting itself in our relationship) while MAKING me a man worthy to be her boyfriend. i still pledge my obedience to Queen AvA, without a doubt. & the future? Well, i have enough to worry about right now. B will be the "long arm of the law" so to speak. Oh yeah, i've been locked up for 3 days now, release scheduled for Friday if i don't fuckup. i "didn't touch" for 132 hrs. two weeks ago. Both the longest periods of chastity in 20 years or so. (i masturbated a lot) Feel free to ask anymore questions as i'm very obedient and love to talk about myself.