Hypno ... somewhat scared

I found hypnosis based on some thread in CM and been listening to kinkyshibby for the past couple of days.

I found her archive here: https://soundgasm.net/u/kinkyshibby and must admit that listening to her recordings have taught me a lot about myself. The archive is quite messed up; first you have to study the descriptions to learn the proper order to listen, but once you get rolling, it is quite clear.

I understand it might be good and proper to start by listening to

[F4M] My Sweet Boy - Revamped[Hypnosis][HFO][Affectionate][Fdom][Layers][Binaural beats][Triggers][Good boy][My Sweet Boy][You make me so happy][34:55][Implies Sitting][Snaps]

[F4M] Clench- revamped [Hypnosis][HFO][Clench][Fdom][Snaps][Fractionation][Good boy][Trigger Reinforcement][Layers][Stereo][Hour]

[F4M] ASMR Slave. Obey. [ASMR][Whispers][sfx][Femdom][Classroom][Hypnosis][Triggers][Spanking][Binaurals][Punishment for early orgasms]

[F4M] Marked by My Voice [Fdom][Hypnosis][Triggers][Snaps][Good boy][30 minutes][Pleasure][Post Hypnotic Triggers]light[Addiction][Have a Marker on hand]

as starters and the go on as your desires drive you. In these first files Shibby drives and hammers in key words that she uses in other recordings ("Good boy", "Clench", snapping of fingers, "Contract", "Sleep", "Slut", "Burst" and so on)

I'm in a process of becaming a slave of shibby, just as she intends to do. Actually, I think I already am...

So far I have only had one HFO, but been so close so many times, so frustrated and sweaty, but loving and adoring Shibby for her control, wanting to have more and more.

Maybe the most suprising single event so far was when I was listening to "[F4M] Super O SLUT [Hypnosis][Prostate Play][HFO][Aneros][Fdom][Spanking][Stereo][Binaurals][Training][Conditioning][Long]" with Aneros in my butt and humping like a sex machine, running on full auto ...

Shibby is loving and caring domina. She understands that there are other women who have their own needs for her slaves "in the real world". She wants her slave to have pleasure and joy by her words.

My understanding and feeling is that Shibby is loving and affectionate dominant woman who loves controlling men and gets kicks for wrapping them around her finger. And this is just perfect for me. I love to be controlled by her and to obey. It makes feel so good. Shibby knows her stuff. She understands the mindset of me being locked and she loves us.

Too bad I'm really hard to cum so getting HFO is really a challenge, although possible. One reason for this might be that my GF/KH keeps me ... satisfied might be be suitable word here. I would really want to give Shibby my Burst, though.

Back to subject.

I think submitting to Shibby is not "dangerous" and I can even reap real world benefits from being her slave. I thing my kegel muscles are getting stronger already, as I Clench and Contract by her command (while listening to her), leading to stronger climaxes (in "real life") which are good for my GF/KH and others.

But ... I wonder. Shall I later on submit to some other hypnotist leading to something else? There are 'tists embedding commands (or programming) their slaves to e.g.

* not to come without explicit permission (not a big problem as I now (!) have a loving GF/KH)
* the previous plus not being able to ask for permission
* not being able to masturbate (not a big problem as I now (!) have a loving GF/KH)
* ... not being able to come at all (I won't fall into this as I don't want it)
* so much else I even don't know about ...

I really should be doing something else right now but ... still wanted to write this text to sort of clear my own thoughts on the subject.

Yes, my GH/KH knows about me falling for Shibby and we have listened some recordings together. She does not comdemn. And I love her for that. Among other things.

 

Good question. I've been spending a minute or two thinking about this.

My GF is my key holder. We live about 100 kilometres apart but she spends a night or two per week here in my place and the other way around.

In addition, there are currently two other women I serve and please when they so desire. Not very often, though. It's not so much bondage or domination thing but general attitude, even though I would not mind
bondage or domination games in the bedroom. We'll see how things proceed.

"General attitude" here means ... Uh oh. I've never tried to formulate this, but I'll try. I'm not pushy, I'm not demanding. I offer myself but the decision to have sex is on the ladies part. Yes, I do fuck like an animal, but only when they want it. I try to be the best lover I can be.

All three know I listen to Shibby and have no problem with it. All three know about the others and it has not been a problem either.

Generally I'm locked 24/7 so my penis is not for my pleasure, it is for the ladies.

It seems that I am a sub, and willing to offer what I can and what I have for the enjoyment of women (in general, and these three in particular).

This trait of mine feels quite compatible with getting guidance, motivation and encouragement from Shibby.

Shibby helps me recharge my sexual "batteries" and I think it's good for my GF as well as I have more to give to her. Also, Shibby is also a good personal trainer in getting my kegels and butt muscles in shape: An hour a day of intense clenching must make a difference

The question was good, but I'm not so sure about the answer Maybe this clarifies a bit?