The lifestyle I asked for

Wow.... that sounds hot. Lol. I am no equestrian, and will defer to you on terminology. Dressage whip was the term on the website I was shopping for new devices on. But it wasn't an equestrian site either. Thanks for sharing.

 

I bet! Oh.... I have become addicted to pain. Oh my my my I am hooked. Here is me, admitting to being a shameless dirty little pain slut.

 

Mistress was sensing how much the lack of attention lately was dampening my sprit. So today while the kids napped we showered together. She still let me wash her body as usual, but then she washed mine. It was wonderful to feel her hands exploring my naked body. After the shower, I was expecting to have my attitude enhanced with the riding crop. Instead she let me kiss her feet while begging for her to show mercy. The she blindfolded me and had me lay down. She massaged me head to toe in a strange role reversal for us. She spent a good deal of time nibbling and licking my nipples, balls, the inside of my thighs, and licking my caged penis through the bars. Finally she allowed me to lick her slowly to orgasm. It was amazing to be the recipient of so much pampering. I'm not used to that. But it was incredible. Can't wait to cuddle up and watch Walking Dead later.

 

Things are calming down for me psychologically. The jealously is subsiding when my wife goes to see her lovers and I am starting to enjoy the whole experience a lot more. After the initial onslaught of dates and lovers she took when she first cuckolded me, she has settled down to three (for now) who please her well. I still only know thier nickname she uses for them, and have seen pictures of their cocks. I know nothing else about them. They are her toys. They are all married and cheating in secret. This makes them discrete, and unlovable because of thier disloyalty. This makes them less threatening to me. They are unworthy of my beautiful wife, save for one use. For that purpose they were specifically chosen by her. All three have unbelievable cockss. Just huge... All three can hold off thier orgasm and fuck my wife for a long time, to many orgasms before they cum. So this is not to say there will never be others certainly. But the bar has been set and there is a high standard and specific profile for any new candidate.

Last night she went to see the biggest and best of her boy toys breifly in the evening, late, after the kids were in bed alseep. His nickname is Bruiser for the large dark hickies he leaves on my wife's big natural breasts. He is fascinated with her spectacular breasts and I think he gets off on leaving visible evidence for me. I get off on it too. While she was gone I felt only excitement for her to come home and sexual arousal thinking about what sge was getting. His cock is a freak show. It's impossibly long and thick. I am glad she is getting it because I know what it does to her.

She was aggressive when she came home, ordering me to lie on my back on our bed. Wearing only the fishnet thigh highs she left in she straddled my head and roughly face fucked me to orgasm while telling me about the experience. We both came buckets. Oh lord I am hooked. ..

 

My wife is on a date with a new guy tonight. That always excites me very much. I have been instructed to tidy up our bedroom, await her text that she is on the way home, and then tie myself to the bed (except for the last handcuff which she will assumably attach) . I like to take a shower first and be clean and fresh and presentable when I am about to recieve punishment. My mistress deserves a nice presentation of my submissive and immobilized ass to spank. She is a natural sadist and really enjoys giving me heavy doses of pain and humiliation after a date. I can't wait to beg for, and be denied mercy before she gags me and goes to work painting my ass with pretty welts. Maybe if I suffer well and please her, she will reward me with the task of cleaning her new lover out of her freshly fucked pussy.

 

If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty except for the memory of how they were answered by you

 

How should a cuckold deal with jealousy? Feeling too needy? Wanting more attention? I try to be good. I try to be grateful. But my mistress can tell when I don't feel relieved and reconnected fully when she stays the night with a boyfriend and comes home for some brief, groggy intimacy I'm the morning. She asks me if I am OK and I don't tell lies to her. It is making her feel guilty and me feel bad for making her feel guilty. I just want her to be happy. I have to find a way to ... accept less attention, affection.

 

We talk. I probably shouldn't have posted this. I guess I want to know if any other cuckolded men feel like me. I am very turned on by the whole institution of cuckolding. I just want more dirty time after her dates to feel reconnected. She says she is giving me enough and I need to be grateful. Maybe she's right. How can I tell if I am being a selfish greedy bitch, or asking for something I really need?

 

Well.... it's difficult in our case. She doesn't bring them home. I am only allowed to know a nick name she creates for them, and what their cocks look like. She won't or at least hasn't given me pictures, video, or audio of any of it. At first, she wouldn't even tell me any details about what they did. Now I at least get a quick review of the high points. Most of the time she stays all night, and I get about a half hour to reconnect to her. Most of the time I get to go down on her. Most of the time this is when she tells me things about what happened. Usually it gets me so worked up I cum. But she thinks I am having too many orgasms and that it may be the problem, so this morning I didn't get to hear any details until after I was done licking her so I wouldn't get so worked up. I am telling her it's not enough, and that I need more. This angers her. She is not a person who deals with rules or obligation well, so asking for more is not tolerated or acceptable. I really just need a way to cope without annoying her.

 

I agree that it is too late to change. I would say though that I am over the moon for her all the time. But that's why it hurts my feelings when I am not getting the attention I crave and I know someone else is. It gets me hot that someone else is. I just feel left out. I just want some too.

Thank you ladies for your perspective. I really hope another cuckold can give me some advice though.

 

I call it the cuckold blues. I wander around pacing the floors unable to get images of her in the passionate scenes I have to imagine about what she does out of my mind and i go crazy for her. Other cuckolded men must feel like this at times. What are you guys doing to cope? Pushups? Jogging? Baking? Serial killing? LSD? How do you cope?

 

Ok, I agree with you. I started this run of questions asking what I should do to cope. I want to be able to accept it when she doesn't have time and energy to be dirty with me after a date. I haven't been trying to get everyone to beat up on what she's doing. I have been asking how to deal with it. I have been wanting a cuckold to tell me what he does when he gets the cuckold blues.

 

Totally agree with you that these relationships take both people working at it to be successful, just like a vanilla relationship. We weren't as happy before we went to the dark side. But we are still figuring out everything. We aren't beginners anymore, but still have much to discover.

 

Thanks. That's the sort of thing I was looking to hear. I'm not crazy for liking this and struggling with it at the same time. And that it gets easier. It must be nice to have friends who are in similar situations to talk to at these fetishes parties. Sounds awesome.