Yet another sub/slave

Hi everyone.
I'm simply a normal guy who happens to be awfully kinky. I am single, but full time dad to 3.
Not too experienced with pain, but keen. And not good with physical sexual acts with other guys, but enjoy cuckold/watching/bringing dinner type things.
Having said that, I would love to find a nice, normal woman for all the normal life stuff, but led by her. Not the psycho 'my way or else' type, but more the one that talking, mutual trust/respect leads to being able to surrender and simply obey.
I do dream of cnc/tpe but new to that level.

Well, hope to talk soon. Thank you for reading!