My March (and hopefully April) Journal

Yes, I know exactly what you mean... Last month, I was doing my weekly cock cleaning and I just started throbbing after taking it off and I just burst in the shower. Happened so fast I didn't have time to react and try to stop myself. One of the most frustrating orgasms I ever had.

 

Accident or intentional?

 

Bad boy, but I totally get it... 2 months of nothing but ruins & accidents pushed me to the point of desperation and I pulled out my handheld massager and made myself cum in my cage. I had a week-long drop from the caged orgasm, but it was better than literally losing my mind.

 

Were you around 15 days ago when I made myself cum in that Dome cage as an experiment?

 

Then you remember how that ended… I told myself no more Dome cages without a tether spout or catheter but my urine hole isn’t wide enough for one. I tried it but it just wouldn’t go in.

 

I mentioned this in a friend’s journal, but I’ll post here for sake if having done so…

I realized today while at work then I best not give myself release until after July 4, otherwise I risk getting The Drop during the summer retail rush. That would be BAD!

So, it looks like I’m going to have to at least tie my previous longest time without orgasm… 6 full weeks!

Part of me is kinda freaking out but I’m siding with the part of me that’s turned on and excited over it. It’s kinda like this: I don’t know a better way to describe it.

I guess this is my chance to find a way to stop those spontaneous orgasms and hopefully last even longer. But whatever happens, happens… The important part is that I avoid The Drop before July 4.

 

2 and a half weeks post-orgasm... I woke up with a boner again and started leaking immediately after it went down. Thinking of a way to further motivate myself not to get release until after July 4, A friend here in CM suggested I reward myself in some way for going a full month without cumming, so I think I'll reward myself by buying something I want but have to save up for a few weeks first. It'll take around that time, so I think it's perfect. But I gotta be a good boy and deny myself release until then... Hope I don't get a spontaneous orgasm in the mean time. I know I keep saying that like a broken record, but I REALLY REALLY want those to stop. I can't help it if I'm horny AF and always thinking of sex/kink. It's just part of who I am.

 

Well, bugger me! The very thought of going at least another 3 weeks without cumming just triggered a serious urge and it's making me wanna jerk off so badly! This is gonna be a long day... I hope there's plenty to do at work today to keep my mind off of it. Ughhh... I'm seriously aching right now!

 

I got up this morning leaking and very horny... It's staring to get a little difficult to focus on things outside of chastity. I've already decided that I must hold off any orgasm until after July 4. I've done 6 full weeks without any orgasm before, so I know I can do it again... I just hope I don't literally lose my mind from it like I did last time. If I do, then perhaps going longer than a month without orgasm is too much for me, but I won't know until I try again. God, I feel so loaded right now!

 

Nice Pun!

I feel like I'm constantly on the edge and could blow any day... One thing that's not helping is my cage has a wide gap in front and the tip of my cock head can poke through. I have another cage on its way to arrive any day now, with a much narrower gap in the front that should fix that issue. It's a much smaller cage, so I'll have to see how comfortable (or uncomfortable) it is to sleep in it at night. If it's bearable enough then it'll be my new long-term cage. If not, then I'll add to my novelty cages. Will post here as things progress going forward.

 

Well, I want the gap to be just wide enough so that I don't need to sit down when I pee... My "Keyholder's Prize" cage has such a gap, but it's longer and allows a partial erection, which I don't like. Then it's also got a non-rounded oval ring which causes chaffing.

The new cage has the same narrow gap as the KHP cage. but has a rounded ergonomic ring that shouldn't cause chaffing. And since it's even shorter than my current "Cock Cage of Shame", it'll be like I don't even have a cock once it's on. Only a pair of swelling achy balls.

 

I’m gonna have to wait until “cleaning day” to put it on, because I’m so horny and physically sensitive that swapping cages mid-day will risk me getting an accidental orgasm. That’s what I’m trying to avoid and my cock head poking out makes it that much more difficult.

 

Sounds great, have fun!

 

19 days post-orgasm... Had a very naughty dream where a HOT keyholder and her lesbian lover were sharing my cock out of the cage, but I couldn't cum no matter how much they sucked, stroked and played with it. When I woke up, I was swelling and leaking all over. I wanna jerk off and get relief VERY badly right now.

It seems that even if I omit the porn from my normal activity, my body still finds a way to try to coax me into getting release. I got a feeling the next 3 weeks are gonna be some of the longest weeks of my life...

 

3 weeks post-orgasm... I'm starting to climb the walls! I'm getting very fidgety, particularly when I see an attractive lady (in porn or irl - it doesn't matter) and I'm constantly moaning in frustration. I know this is what asked for, but I'm starting to wonder if I bit off more than I can chew by committing to another another 6-week orgasm-free session. Just 10 more days and it'll be a full month without orgasm. I've only made it beyond that just once that I can remember...

My balls are very plump and sore after 3 weeks of not cumming and taking 50mg of zinc every day. When I sit down, I can feel them resting on the chair. When I move around, I can feel them swinging back and forth like pendulum. My balls feel like a pair of completely full bladders that need emptied VERY BADLY!

If I can endure the entire 6 week session without cumming, then I'll try it again. The 2nd attempt will end on my Birthday, which is also my 1-year chastity anniversary, so there's a bit of additional motivation to keep going. If I can do 3 consecutive 6-week orgasm-free sessions, then I'll move myself up to 2 full months. The first 2-month session will begin with Locktober and end after NNN. A fitting test of my endurance. I don't see myself going beyond 2 full months without cumming... My purpose for trying 2 full months is to last from Locktober up through to the end of NNN. If 2 months proves to be too much for me, then I will adjust myself accordingly, but I'll cross that bridge when I get to it.

I have a question for my friends however...
I'd like to make my chastity permanent for 2 reasons...
1) I cannot trust myself to stay unlocked outside of weekly cock cleaning because I really cannot keep my hands away from my cock. I often catch myself rubbing my cage or my crotch with my drawers still on.
2) Since I'm able to cum in my cage then there's really no reason to unlock myself anyway.

But, can I really say my chastity is permanent if some misfortune befalls me and I'm forced to end it? Or does that even matter? Please answer and be brutally honest with me. I'd really appreciate it.

 

Interesting point of view... Yes, even those here in CM who say they're in permanent chastity say they must occasionally unlock for hygiene purposes and then they're back in the cage immediately after cleaning (that's what I do as well). As for never cumming again, I don't think that's even possible for me since I have a history of spontaneous/accidental orgasms. But if I'm always in the cage anyway, then technically I'm still locked up.

What's your take on that last part?