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    "Hopefully April" lasts much longer already.
    Interesting read. You are cumming occasionally in your cage, you are self-holding and if I understood correctly, it helps against wanking a dozen times daily.
    So in general, how do you consider your current state, do you feel better?
     
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    Yes, I feel much better... When I was jerking off multiple times every day it kept me in a constant state of "whatever... i'm just gonna sit here and not worry or do anything!" I think it was the constant dopamine flow always being fed to my brain... I actually enjoy the constant horniness and frustration of not being able to jerk off when I really REALLY want to. It gives me constant pleasure vs the momentary pleasure of an orgasm. 6 days ago, I made myself cum in my cage to test a new "toy" and it ended in disaster so I threw it out and I got "The Drop" almost immediately after and it only recently started to wear off.

    But feeling pent up and frustrated all the time not only feels great to me, but I can channel the unused energy into doing more productive things... My work performance at my job has improved and I can have conversations with the ladies without feeling like I might get rejected. Since I'm not trying to get laid in the first place, there's nothing to feel nervous about. It's just a friendly convo. :cool:

    I will say that 9 months of playing with chastity has made me hyper-sensitive... The spontaneous orgasms I get on occasion are from being super horny, and very easily aroused & excited to the point of my cock pushing against the bars of my cage. It's just enough physical stimulation to push me over the edge and give me a ruined orgasm... The difference is, I have very little (if any) control over when this happens. When it does, the "Drop" is only for a day or 2 at most and only part of my load makes it out and alot of it is still inside of me. A few days later, the urges for a "real" orgasm multiply and get more serious. It's very enjoyable for a while but has on occasion lead to desperation. Previously, I went 2 months with only ruins and spontaneous O's and I was literally losing my mind, so I pulled out my hand-held massager and fired up the porn and got a full orgasm inside my cage... It ended the desperation and put my mind at ease, but unfortunately it made me very tired (and slightly grumpy) for several days and folks noticed it.

    I found that if I allow my body to spontaneously orgasm when it wants to, instead of fighting it, then I can (for the most part) stay locked up for as long as I want and not lose my sanity over it... If I try to fight off an orgasm, chances are I'll lose and it'll only lead to the bad frustration, as opposed to the good frustration I constantly crave. To be honest, I don't like it when my body triggers a Spontaneous O, but fighting it is more trouble than it's worth, so I might as well let it fly. I hope it's just another phase I'm going through and that it'll pass with time, because I love feeling "Loaded" and these spontaneous O's don't let me stay loaded for more than a few weeks (2 to 3 weeks average).
     
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    7 days after my caged orgasm and I've been taking a zinc supplement every day for several days and I think it's ramping up my load replenishment... I feel full already and I normally don't until after 2 or 3 weeks. I woke up at my usual time but with an erection in my cage and I've been swelling in it since... Had some difficulty using the bathroom this morning because of it, but I managed. :+1:

    I'm taking my daily zinc supplement now along with my Vitamin C regiment. I'm horny AF and really wanna jerk off... But I won't. I'll just relish the ache & frustration. My balls are going to get so full & blue this month, I can't wait! :D
     
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    Today was pretty uneventful... Off work, so I'm just sitting here horny AF, wanting to jerk off and can't... Missing my cock, but at the same time am really enjoying the frustration and constant ache in my balls today. I told myself that it's good to be aching and frustrated, because that's the whole point in staying locked up. Reminding myself that this is what I chose and was my decision alone.

    Instead of looking at next month or even next week, I'll just tell myself "Not today!" every time I really want to cum. Really hoping I can go the whole month without a spontaneous orgasm, but one day at a time.
     
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    It's now 9 days post-orgasm and a whole week of taking 50mg of Zinc every morning. My balls are so full, I feel like I haven't cum in over a month! They've turned a lovely shade of purple and they are so tender and sensitive, that I had an itch down there and went to scratch it, they felt like a pair of water balloons ready to burst. I did my weekly cock cleaning & shave today and I almost couldn't get the ring off... I had to soap it up.

    My balls are so plump and full, I cannot put my knees together and it makes me wanna jerk off for releif even more. I'm loving this so much, words cannot describe it.

    Anyone who's interested in trying this, should check out this post:
    Increasing Zinc intake for a hopefully bigger load to hold...
     
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    Day 10 post-orgasm, day 8 on the zinc supplement:

    I just took my daily dose of zinc again... I didn't sleep too well last night because I was really horny and wanted to jerk off the whole night. Work might be a bit of a challenge for me today, since I'm gonna go in tired. One of the managers I work with is my type, but her personality totally sucks. It's really frustrating that someone who's so "eye candy", is a very toxic person in the end.

    I spoke to others in CM about it on this thread: A Frustrating situation at work...
    I'm not going to risk it... The right girl will come to me on her own. I just hope she loves guys in chastity with shrunken cocks. LOL.
     
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    I’m having urges behind the sales counter again… I wanna jerk off so bad right now. It’s good thing I leave my keys at home locked in the safe. I really wanna take a “restroom break” right now.
     
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    Does it make a desirable option to you to wank at a company's toilet both and to drop your semen to flush it?
     
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    #159 PornAddict103, Jun 7, 2024
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    That’s the problem… I’m trying to go as long as I can without cumming and if I let myself out of the cage even for just a minute then I’ll end my streak and I won’t feel good about it.
     
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    Does "restroom break" sounds desirable to you?
     
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    Yes, but if I do that then I’ll break my streak. That’s why I leave my keys locked in the safe at home.
     
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    Sounds reasonable.
     
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    I think I’m in trouble! My body is now threatening me with a spontaneous orgasm and I’m still at work. :eek:
     
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    Day 11 post orgasm:

    It's always on the 11th day after any kind of orgasm that I get some of the most serious urges... This morning is certainly no exception! I woke up swelling in my cage, leaking and even throbbed a couple of times without doing anything at all. This gonna be a long day... :(
     
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    Day 12 post orgasm & 10 days of 50mg of zinc daily

    I'm starting to feel mighty full... Just another 2 days and I'm officially in the "Danger Zone" of between 2 and 3 weeks without orgasm. I was taking measurements of my cage and browsing other ones online (also looking at custom cage websites) for possible future orders and it was a total turn-on to envision myself trapped in those micro cages. I had to stop browsing because it was seriously arousing me and my cock started twitching... I don't wanna risk a spontaneous orgasm. I wanna hold my load for as long as I can stand it, so I'm going to have to be careful what I look at on my PC. That also includes watching porn on my space time, which I'm honestly trying to cut down on, because I've linked that as the main cause of me bursting in my cage against my will.

    Every day, I wanna jerk off so badly and I can't... I'm so fucking horny because of it... I LOVE IT! :D The urges are getting more intense every day... Even now, my body is saying "Hey! I need to cum!" and I'm saying "No, you don't!"

    I best call it good here... I got about an hour before I have to leave for work and I'm panting like a dog. LOL.
     
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    2 weeks since my last orgasm and 12 days of taking the zinc supplement... My balls are starting to swell up! They're noticeably bigger than they were a week ago and I'm getting more and more horny and very sensitive.

    I'm now in the "Danger Zone" of risking an accidental orgasm. Just thinking kinky thoughts is making me swell in my cage and start twitching. I feel like I could burst at any moment. I have the next 2 days off work but plenty of things to do at home, so I'm hopeful to find some things to distract me from how badly I need to cum. I'm loving how this feels... But it's so disruptive. My mind says "I need to get this task done!" and my body argues "NO! I NEED TO CUM!"

    So tempting to grab my "Hygiene Only!" key and get relief, but I won't do it... If my body wants an orgasm bad enough, then it'll do it itself (spontaneously). I won't fight it, because that's more trouble than it's worth.

    I need to stop talking about it now... I'm starting to twitch again! I may post again later today after things calm down some.
     
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    Well, I avoided temptation by leaving the key in the medicine cabinet when I went in the shower after cutting the grass outside. Tomorrow is my weekly cock cleaning, so I'm gonna hold off until the right time of day when I'm not feeling so damn horny. :+1:
     
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    just cleaning it could be tempting
    at least for me it is
     
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    Yes, I know exactly what you mean... Last month, I was doing my weekly cock cleaning and I just started throbbing after taking it off and I just burst in the shower. Happened so fast I didn't have time to react and try to stop myself. One of the most frustrating orgasms I ever had.
     
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    I have had the same problem. soaping my cock up it gets hard and then I just edge. but so close at times.
    but about a month ago I did take it all the way
     
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    Accident or intentional?
     
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    being bad I just couldn't hold back. I had to do it.
    I need to be watched more LOL
    I have been good since then I just clean and shave
     
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    Bad boy, but I totally get it... 2 months of nothing but ruins & accidents pushed me to the point of desperation and I pulled out my handheld massager and made myself cum in my cage. I had a week-long drop from the caged orgasm, but it was better than literally losing my mind.
     
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    I know how that is. I even used the wand to see if I could cum in my cage.
    It worked and made a mess all over. I need a shower to clean up my cock and cage
     
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