The real feeling of Chastity

M
Your wife now owns your mind. If you don't want to be homosexual, this is your last warning, take a one week break right now.

It's not that she wants you to be gay, but she wants to conquer you and completely own your mind by having you crave to do what you have so adamantly refused.

By Thanksgiving, you will be craving to suck cock and take it in your ass. Trace will be your first of many. Right now she is socializing you to Trace and preparing your ass for being filled by stretching it out with butt plugs. She will progressively increase the size of the plugs to loosen your Sphincter and accustom your ass to the feeling of being filled.

She will begin mind control steaming tapes to have you crave penises.

There's nothing wrong with taking cocks. I enjoy them. They make me feel very submissive.

However, if this is not where you want to go, ask for a one week break RIGHT NOW.
SFD

 

Wow M, you really HAVE crossed the Rubicon! ...and SFD, you may be spot on with your timing...what were those odds we all came up with?! Shoulda placed a bet! Anyway, the plug and gag thing--as I see it, once we have experienced and orgasm with a finger, plug or dildo buried deep inside us pressing against our prostates and stretching us wide open, NO other orgasm can match that feeling. Let me preface this statement with that I in no way find men or the male physical form arousing. That said, knowing how good all of the man-made insertables feel, what guy is not going to figure that a real cock will not feel every bit as good and most likely better? Never done it, but given the order I would eagerly and gladly take it (certainly hoping an orgasm would be part of the deal--although I have taken a strap on without orgasm as part of the deal). Now the gag thing...yes, I think that is all a part of orally fixating you to prep you for performing oral. I have been down the road of riding a suction cup dildo while sucking another dildo to supply my wife with visual fodder for more than a few of her vibrator sessions over the years. I know how good the dildo in back feels, I know how good it feels to receive oral...I tend to feel out of control of the situation while being fellated, yet there is also a power kick knowing that the person doing the deed has definitely submitted by taking a penis in their mouth and sucking it to orgasm and swallowing your ejaculate. During my "dildo at both end sessions" I cannot help but feel empowered to some degree by freeing myself to submit to double penetration...it gets very exciting and yes, tells me that certainly sucking a REAL warm, throbbing cock would have to be much more satisfying than sucking on a man made replica.....SOOOOOOOOOO, where am I going with this? It's over for you M. You are in checkmate. She has won...in 4 short weeks. I agree that Trace will be your first of many. Your wife is SO good at what she is doing that she will know you are ready before you do. Perhaps you cry "uncle" early and offer to suck Trace's cock and let him take you in the ass as an overture to terminate your 1 year sentence early? Either way, its going to happen, but maybe you prevent 10 or 11 months worth of being buttfucked and fellating a slew of men in the process? Just a thought. Who knows, maybe you do have a shred of willpower that you can still say no to your wife...but I don't see it. I look forward to your next chapter. Take care and be safe. :>)
allaboutHer

 

M
You are in denial. You wrote,
"series on "how to act around a woman". Its the same as before, but much more focused on little things, like 'always look down', "never look into a womans eyes unless told to', 'no oogling when she's not looking', etc. I"ve been listening to her 'train' me on this for 9 days now and yes..it does take hold; even at work. In the AM, I actually have to force myself to look into my co-workers eyes - and even walking around the halls, I'm finding myself looking down when women go by - AND: I'm getting excited about it, especially as I feel the device start to bite in. Its one of those, "If You only knew' moments ;-))"

Do you remember the guy in the dog crate who had his mask removed while he sucked his first cock? That's you by Thansgiving.

Last chance. Take a week off.
SFD

 

M
Let me be more clear. Your personal sexual preference is irrelevant to your current situation. You and your wife are getting sexual stimulation from her control over you into deeper and deeper levels of submission, humiliation and degradation. By so clearly stating your aversion to cocks it's like waving a red flag in front of a bull. Your aversion has created the challenge to your wife for further degrading you.

She NOW has achieved you to avert looking at women at your office. If she can achieve that, she can next have you staring at Taces' dildo that she wears in a strap on. Then she can have you suck it. Then ...
SFD

 

M
Did anything special happened at the party?
SFD

 

Mobi, do you think princess has any intentions of pegging you? Maybe she is also stretching you out so she can get a big strapon and peg you once in a while. That would really add to her dominance!

 

M
I've thought about your session before the party. Your wife seems to be reinforcing your slave role in her mind with the 5-weeks of mask and the face slapping. Clearly transforming you from her beloved husband to humiliated slave is not a quick and easy transition for her.
SFD

 

M
Is your wife still having stroking conversation sessions with you, or have those been put on hold? Those seemed to be very intimate sessions for you both.

If you shared my fear of her driving you toward gay, you could openly share your fears during a stroke session. Your open expression of fears and vulnerability, even tears could only help draw you closer to her.
SFD

 

M
This sounds dangerous.
SFD

 

Sorry to hear about your emotional setback. It sucks when you get mad and then get punished, and then you get extra mad but dare not show it for fear of more punishment. It can be hard to control yourself. It really sucks when a potentially good weekend is ruined over, I assume, something fairly mild that you did.

And while its a drag you had open sores, perhaps it's a message to your wife not to do this again. You can only hope.

Oh, well, carry on.

Wish you the best.

 

Nice to see you posting a bit more. Not too smart on your wife's part with the viagra, as dboy said hopefully she'll learn.

What I don't understand and what will probably end up driving you crazy is the sleep deprivation. Having you exhausted all the time is no way to get top notch service

 

I agree with MrsJ about sleep deprivation. It's now well known in the medical community that the number one thing you can do for good health is have a good nights sleep. It's more important than eating properly, getting exercise, and reducing stress. Long term sleep deprivation can cause serious problems. In fact, just look at Mistress Angelique's "It's kind to be cruel" posts on this site. She deprived her husband of sleep for a while and he developed a serious, possibly life threatening, medical condition that will last the rest of his life.

It really shouldn't be on the Dom's list of punishments. Play safe.

 

M
How's your "holiday" going? If you slip, confess immediately. Honesty is what worked with Therisa.
SFD

 

M

It sounds like your wife needs to remember to take better care of her toy! The mask may help her to see you as a slave, but she also needs to remember that you are human underneath. Being a Mistress/Domme/Keyholder is a big responsibility, and, at least for me, monitoring what's going on inside your chastity device and other play-related health issues, is a part of that.

The Other "M" or "MM"

 

As thats Halloween, do you know whether it will be a trick or treat?
Rita

 

I'm glad you're getting some sleep. Furniture, huh, your wife certainly is trying it all. It's great that afterwards, she's praising you and rewarding you. It seems like she's getting the hang of it. However, feeling pain is your body's way of telling you damage is being done. It's one thing for damage on your butt from caning, that heals quickly, but damage to your joints (wrist and knees) can create a more permanent problem so I hope the furniture phase doesn't last too long.

I also wanted to say that your posts are by far the most interesting on this site. I'ts a great story and still enfolding, which make it even more exciting, as I'm sure it is for you. In fact, if it weren't for your posts, I might not even come to this site. So keep up your postings, the more details the better, and I'm sure I'm not the only one who feels this way. The dramatic way that your wife has changed over the last year or so is amazing and gives some of us hope that our wives could also change in a big way.

 

SO True! Although my Butt Plug is lightweight steel (hollow head to house a spring-loaded clanger mechanism) it won't give me a feeling of being "full"... but it's hard to resist the temptation of rocking around a chair (when nobody is watching) and get it to knock my insides... Very Arousing.

Intense! My buttplugg being firm secured on my chastity belt it won't move, no matter what. I can try contracting my muscles, just to discover that now my ass is licking, sliding and rubbing all over a firm steel surface, in a failed attempt to pull it up... Guaranteed to leak in no time.