You Ain't Nothin But A Hound Dog

Thanks MW & Mike, I think a few weekends of no drink are in order, well we'll see :manga_drunk:

So last night I found out that I don't make a good sub, not at all! I don't have submission in me.

I've been given alot more responsibilty in work, it's good but very stressful, Kris decided that maybe a night of being a sub may help, I too at the time did also.

Kris had me change into a collar and a jockstrap when I arrived home, It was a massive turn on but I slowly started to loose interest in submitting, Kris ordered me to cook tea, The last thing I could be bothered to do, I had a bit of a grumble but did it anyway because I was hungry.

Later on in the night Kris put me in the sleepsack, things started going well, until Kris did something with a jelly vibrating cock ring that hurt my cock, not once but twice, I shouted at him for hurting me, I know it was an accident but it hurt and I didn't like it. I ended up getting into a mood over the whole thing, the fact I needed a cigarette wasn't helping.

Kris then decided I should be left alone to cool down, this helped but I kept thinking I'm gonna undo myself and get out, I decided against it, probably now that was a bad idea.

Kris came back in and started to tease me, it was good until Kris wanted to make me beg, this was made worse by the fact that I was to beg to let Kris cum on my face! I was so annoyed by this, I was livid to be honest.

Kris is the sub not me, what was he thinking, I knew this would seriously mess up our normal roles so I refused, I didn't want Kris to cum, I ended up expressing my anger at what Kris was suggesting so he let me out and I threw all the toys from the bed and had a sulk, I then decided I didnt want to be master, It was a stupid spare of the moment thing to say but I was tired and angry.

We eventually made up, there were some tears from me but we're good now.

I've read Kris's blog and I just want to state one thing, I do not thing submission is a bad thing and I do not look down on it or think i'm too good for it. I have always been the dominant in the relationship so the switch was always going to be hard, put that together with my tiredness and everything else thats going on at the moment, it was all just too much for me.

Hopefully things will get back to normal now though, with me in charge. :spankwhip:

 

Things are quiet again, there's been no sex because Kris has a sore bum, he doesn't seem to be feeling that submissive at the moment either so I haven't really felt like giving him an order to sort me out, even though I'm horny as hell.

On that note the hornyness has started some talk of me having a bull, I'm dead against it, but did find myself getting hard over the idea of it last night, I'm like a teenager again at the moment and as they say would 'probably shag a letterbox' at the moment, I think it was just the point we were chatting about sex and stuff that got me the way I was.

I have no interest in getting a bull, but sometimes I think it would take some of the pressure from Kris as I seem to have a much higher want/need for sex.

I know 100% I don't want to bring a third person into the relationship, I would see it as cheating on Kris, I guess I'm just an old romantic at heart and I'm content with him, maybe I just need to become acquainted with a large dildo and some good porn to get through the dry patches.

 

Still going through the 'dry patch' at the moment, it's making me really depressed, it feels like I'm having a massive Dom drop, it's really shit, and to be honest I hate it!

Kris and I have hardly seen each other this week and it will remain like this for the next few days, work commitments suck eh? normally it's my shitty working hours that cause the problem, add Kris's new shitty working hours and you get a massive pile of shit basically.

I'm still horny as hell, having not been anywhere near Kris's arse and being pleasured once by hand in the last 3 weeks, it's not good. I could sort myself out but I want/need the intimacy I get with Kris.

Kris joked the other day that I could fuck him on Christmas day, it's feeling like that probably won't end up being a joke and because of work and other things will be the only chance we get to be close.

I've gone from having someone tell me they want to be my 24/7 sub, planning all the fun and kinky things to a cold vanilla relationship with nothing, things are probably not that bad but in my head I feel unwanted, really unwanted, I've not felt like this the whole of mine and Kris's relationship, I don't feel sexy and I don't feel like the Dom I used to.

I think it's going to take a while for us to get back into the lifestyle, I don't know what Kris is thinking about it as we don't seem to talk as much this week either.

I would love to be waiting for Kris to arrive from work to me dressed up in my master attire, flogger in hand but I don't know how he would react to that, and i'm not sure my confidence could take the rejection.

Hopefully things will iron out and my blog will be fun and kinky again, hopefully.

 

Things are really good at the moment, and its Christmas today! YAY!!! I love Christmas!

I've taken back on my role as a full time master to Kris and I'm really really happy, It's nice that I'm able to write an entry that is not all doom and gloom.

I seem to be a lot more willing to try new things now, Kris has posted about that so I won't double post, but I will say the whole prospect of the bathroom control is a mega turn on.

I can't wait to see how things turn out, Kris is alot more submissive at the moment, this is really helping me, I find that I'm more dominant and ruthless when Kris is like this.

Just a quick post because Kris has just made my Christmas breakfast.

Hope everyone has a fantastic Day!

 

Thank you so much MW, It feels nice, I like it.

So Christmas is out the way, well kinda, we still have new years eve to get through and a few more parties then we can concentrate more on play and training.

Kris is still being really submissive and has taken really well to following orders and carrying out tasks set by myself, he's going to be very busy this week as we have a lot to sort before new years eve. It won't be all doom and gloom though, if he does a good job of finishing off cleaning the kitchen then I may allow him to wear his panties and collar whilst he does the rest of his weekly chores.

I'm back in work now after the shortest Christmas break ever, it sucks! I know people that are off till at least the first week in January. I should just pull a sickie and stay off work till after new year, then the days could be filled with play and fun rather than sales and targets.

Well only a quickie today, I'm really sleepy after my first day back following 4 days of partying. Hope everyone is good and had a fabulous christmas