You Ain't Nothin But A Hound Dog

I'm sorry guys neglected my blog again, I've just been so busy, with work, I've had my birthday to deal with :anim_63: Just lots of stuff!

There has been so much happen since my last post, how do you fit 2weeks worth into one post? Hmmm, I don't think i'm gonna even try. So i'll just get the main things off my chest.

The first thing that i'll do is start off with a rant, Kris showed me a forum that was ranting at Mistress Watchfull and her review of Ess & Em (Which is a great review) and actually has made me think about taking Kris there. It's really wound me up, actually pissed me off something chronic! but then it's also made me think about the mansion, there are a few select individuals who I have seen making bitchy comments on others posts.

I know I havn't been part of the community that long and I don't post as often as I would like but thats the thing it's a community! Why can't people embrace each others views without having to get all fucking Tony Soprano and be like 'thats shit' 'I've been following this lifestyle since forever in actual fact I started it' and that kinda bollocks! Mistress Watchfull I know your a strong person and probably already think it but the people who ranted and slated you are dicks and just let it go over your head.

Right got that outta my system :whip:

Now onto the good stuff.

Kris has built a horse, it's the best thing in the world ever! Its' got hooks so I can restrain his legs, wrists and even his collar if I choose to.
So far i've fucked him a couple of times whilst he's been restrained, but we have not had the time to have a full on play session with some tease, maybe a bit of spanking, the good stuff hehe!

I've also made a little purchase as well which should be here by the end of the week so i'll post about that then so it's a surprise for Kris.

 

Hey all.

The play session with the horse was amazing, I changed into my new jock (which was the suprise for Kris) He seemed to aprove and said he liked it.

I ordered him to strip naked and position himself on the horse, once locked in I teased him, playing with his nipples and cock, he came close many times but I was having none of it, I wasn't going to let him cum.

Whilst Kris was tied to the horse I also used the flogger, I positioned myself so I was sat on his back facing his arse so i could give him a good whipping. Kris was loving it, I asked him what was so good and he replied that I was being really dominant, That made me feel great.

I untied Kris and we had a play around on the bed, we were both really horny so when it came down to sex I was a bit like a jack hammer, it was really intense and ended with Kris and I cumming at exactly the same time (very hot)

Afterwards we had a little talk and have both decided we wanna try 24/7 play again, we'll see how we get on and keep everyone updated.

Oh and Kris and I both have new pics from the evening, Me in my new Jock and Kris on the Horse.

 

My pics are in my main album

 

Just checkin in and letting everyone know i'm still alive.

Become a bit of a lurker recently. Kris and I went through a bit of a rough patch, we've come out of it stronger than ever though.

We had a good, intense play session last night so I won't double blog as Kris has already posted about it.

And seeing as Kris is posting links for future purchases, here's mine but I want them in red!

 

Thank you, I've found loads of stuff from a really cool site. Like you said in your blog theres a ressession but balls to it! needs must.

Deffo gonna get this jock

And maybe this outfit as Kris has said a couple of times he'd like me to have a full one.

So last night Kris dropped the 24/7 bomb, he wants me to see him as my slave, this made me really horny at the thought of it, but i've got a niggle at the back of my mind, where does this leave the couply stuff? Is it up to me to make the first move, demand a hug and a kiss, then am I gonna get back to my old self conscious ways of 'Kris doesn't want me because he doesn't hug me'

It's a bloody minefield, yeah it's an exciting prospect, I know it would be amazing, If that is I can get over my hang ups.

I know outside of our sub/dom lifestyle Kris loves me to bits, just bein silly I guess but I really can't help it.

Think I need to start loving me for me alot more, than trying to be something I want to be.

 

I shouldn't be allowed to look online at stuff when I'm broke, It's just saddened me that I want to buy everything but can't afford it. Kris even has a list now of goodies, best get saving the pennies I think.

So anyway, Saturday was interesting, I've taken my own advice and started to find a bit more time for me, Kris was at work so I had the evening to myself, I decided I would dress up and have some me time.

I've always had hang ups about 'sorting myself out' but for some reason I was determined it was going to happen, I port some porn on and decided to play with a selection of the toys. If i'm honest it was great and I came lots.

I also managed to take some photo's which I have posted in my album so Kris could see how much fun I'd had on my own.

Things haven't been as playful since then, but we're back to our normally weekly routines of work and sleep. Hopefully things will perk up soon.

 

Kris hasn't been feeling too well recently, meaning i'm back in my stupid mindset that i'm the reason Kris doesn't want me, I wish I could get over it! It's becoming a nightmare now.

It's upsetting Kris because he feels bad that he's not 'putting out' and it's upsetting me because i'm upsetting Kris, but I just need the closeness we get from sex and the feeling of being wanted. Stupid vicious circles eh?

I think the 24/7 discussion has only reinforced my feelings, I got super horny from Kris saying that he wanted that and it would mean I could have whatever I wanted. This is no attack on Kris and I don't want it to read like one, Kris is my world, it's just my stupid emotions and I need to get them out, it's easier for me to do it here than face to face because then it just turns into a massive rant which I don't want.

Last night Kris and I had sex, I was a bit put back by the fact it was Kris that was topping me, this added to my massive confusion, It didn't feel right, I wanted it but I didn't want it that way (I'm not making any sense I know) Kris said that he knows I love it when i'm being penetrated, This is true, I do, but at the same time I felt like I should be the top because of recent discussions.

It feels like everything is up in the air at the moment, I don't like the as an article I just read in Cosmopolitan Magazine has just put it the 'after 9pm sex rutt' that we seem to be in. I don't think porn is helping either as now I feel like we should be having amazing spontaneous marathon sex sessions and I feel all fat now because of it too, i don't have a toned body, I'm not exactly thin either, I guess I didn't like riding Kris last night because he could see me in all my lumpy bumpy glory.

I just want things to be good again, I don't mean that in terms of our relationship (although that seems to be taking a bit of a knock) I mean the sex, I want to be in charge again, I want to loose weight and I want to get over my stupid feelings.

 

Things are good again, not amazing, but good so i'm feeling content.

I'm kinda master again, and we are enjoying some play, but I want more!

I think work is the big thing that seems to put a downer on our sub/dom relationship, it seems to tire us both out and mean theres little time for play. We seem to be having all our play at weekends now.

Thats getting me down a little. For me playtime is great for escaping and releasing my stains from work, it's just that when it comes down to it neither Kris nor I feel up to it.

Put that with the fact it's now getting darker early, it's pretty much a recipe for disaster, I don't like it at all!

I hope Kris and I can at least find some momentum to have a good play and keep things fresh.

 

I know what you mean MW, Hope your having an amazing time in the US.

Things are on the quiet side again, it isn't a bad thing though, I think the dry patch meant that Kris and I got alot of our chests, We both know where we stand now and are not expecting averything to be amazing all of the time, just some of the time. :sex024:

I think thats helping us both alot as we aint feeling all the stress to be 100% consistent as we know life will get in the way.

Kris has come to an agreement with me now that he will be butch some of the time, rather than a full time sissy, thats made me happy because I do get off alot on visuals and Kris in a jockstrap is a massive turn on, he makes a pretty sissy too but now I get the best of both.

On Friday, I did Kris's hair and makeup, he then changed into his favourite dress, he looked really beautiful, just a shame we didn't get any pics, I'm sure there will be many more opportunities though.

 

I'm in a strange mindset again now, Kris and I have had yet another bout of no play and no sex, it wasn't all Kris' fault, I had been ill and some other stuff had happened. I started getting my stupid feelings of unattractiveness and that kinda crap again.

If you have read Kris' blog then you will know things are on the up again.

I'm in two minds now, my master side wants to do what Kris has talked about, having a 24/7 slave who I can fuck at my will to just get off, I don't think in all the time we have been together I have been able to give him a 100% selfish fuck. The idea of it really turns me on.

But then my vanilla side keeps saying that I should care about sex with Kris, that I should make sure he's enjoying it and getting off. From what Kris has said though he probably would get off on it alot more if I just threw aside my inhibitions and just went wild.

I just need to pick the right moment I think, yesterday was good but I needed Kris to tell me to fuck him before I started, I guess I am a little scared of hurting him, I know that in the heat of the moment I could get a bit carried away.

Hopefully i'll be able to post soon about how it goes, hopefully I can put my worries and reservations aside and just let go for once.

 

Things are going amazingly well at the moment, Kris has already posted about events so I wont double post.

Instead I'm just gonna write down my feelings and such.

I'm so happy and content right now, I have not felt this way for ages. I feel all content with Kris and how things are going.

I've noticed aswell we seem to be a lot closer than we have ever been, I think that shows with the kinda play we've been having, the breath play being the biggest part of that. We have gone from never doing it, to it becoming a frequent part of play, the level of trust and such is huge, it seems to bring us really close afterwards.

I've noticed my orgasms seem to be alot stronger now also which is great for me, they seem to be more explosive and I seem to cum alot more, Always good.

I think i've finally managed to get my head round my confidence issues too, and started to think this is what I look like, deal with it and do things to help get the way I want to be, this I guess has made me alot more sexually confident and more at ease with the way I look, which helps me be more of a confident master to Kris.

Hope things carry on this well, will keep updating.

 

Having a downer day at the moment, not feeling too dominant and it sucks.

I need to get my shit together again, take stock and get myself back to normal. Things have been a little anti-climatic from the really intense play session we had and it seems we're getting a bit vanilla again, I don't want this but I don't feel like I want to initiate any play, I just want cuddles and to feel special.

Kris and I had a stupid drunken row last night which hasn't helped things, I got a little snappy and Kris told me to 'shut up' this has completely thrown me off guard I think, Here's me supposed to be the dom and I let him get away with it, instead of chaining him up and flogging his arse until he realised that kind of behaviour is unacceptable I just snapped back and went into a mood.

I think a little online outfit shopping is needed, that normally puts me back into perspective and if I'm happy with the way I look then i'm normally more willing to dominate.

 

Thanks MW,

I think the problem is I do like the vodka, I like it alot! arty0036: lol!

So anyways, I've finally got round to putting a new rule in place, Kris now has to make the first move when it comes to pleasuring me, that way Kris feels the control that is desired so much and I get to feel wanted (I know Kris wants me but thats the only word I can think of) Kris will be conditioned to worship my cock as soon as I get hard, it's gonna take alot of work but it should be fun.

Last night Kris asked if I wanted a t-girl or a sissy, It's alot to take in and not a decision I feel I can make too quickly, gonna take some time to think things through I think, the conversation was super hot, made hotter by the fact Kris was riding me at the time.

Part of me is worried about it, I am partial to Kris in a jockstrap and don't want to loose that as it's a massive turn on for me, Kris has come up with a compromise that the jocks should now be pink.

I'm sure i'll work out what I want soon though, just gonna take things as they come now.