I feel like the minority here given my age and that I'm still single. That said, I'm necessarily looking to close that gap anytime soon. In fact I can't even imagine a woman gravitating toward me, being the sissy I am. We all have lives that deviate from our fetishes but I feel the spirit of what I am has become ingrained in all aspects of my life. Not to sound cliche but I know where I am in the sexual pecking order and there is no resentment or self pity, it's something that I have come to terms with. I date on and off but how could I possibly go into a relationship with me not being comfortable to tell this person about such a large part of who I am. It's not fair too me but more importantly not fair to them. Sometimes I rationalize it as a potential opportunity later in life built off of trust in the bedroom. Afterall, even with accepting the sissy side of me, my sexuality does not soley define me. I would like to think that even the sissy part of me has developed beyond just being horny at the time. I'm sure like many of you have. I have separated fantasy from reality. It's not fair to use any woman I may be interested in just to fulfill certain fetishes. On the other side of the coin. I couldn't see a relationship growing from mutual fetishes. It doesn't seem genuine to me. I'm in this sexual/social quagmire that when I'm alone with my thoughts I have no idea what to do. May god strike me down if I ever make a post demanding things to be done to me disguised as an offering of a LTR. I know there is some truth to it all. I whole-heartedly believe in FLRs and there are people "living the dream". The way I conceptualize FLRs is rather than it being about just lowering my place in the world, I feel it's more about celebrating the woman and the gender as a whole. As self proclaimed feminist, there are definitely times when I feel like I'm fetishizing a genuine movement but my intentions, I'd like to think, are authentic. Maybe it's just where I am right now. I'm the last who's still single and without children. That's not to say I even want children. I just hope I'll be able put things together and run with it. FULL DISCLOSURE: this post and all future posts will be a mish mosh of rambling that will most likely make no sense what so ever.