Unloaded and locked

I'm locked, and not sure for how long this time. I'm not normally much of a writer, but I figured I'd actually try to write some sort of journal about it.

Since I'm not certain I've ever actually posted an introduction on here, here's a little background on us. We have been playing with chastity for about two or three years now, but it's been just play and has had little continuity. The longest time was towards the end of last year where she kept me locked up for 23 days without any release. If I recall correctly, we also were playing our poker chip game during that same period. Let's just say that I made sure I stacked the odds very much in my favor at the end of that round. After that, she let it drop until this recent round.

We've gone through a number of devices (CB6000, Exobelt X1, Locked in Steel, Exobelt V1, Chastity Steel CS-500, and Birdlocked), and each one has has their own share of problems. I still have all of them except the V1, which I sold. One of my biggest challenges is that I've come to realize I have very sensitive skin. To ward off those potential problems, Mistress permits me to be free to do a full cleaning/inspection for my shower every morning, with the promise that I won't take advantage of the situation -- and I don't.

I'm currently in my CS-500, and it's my preferred device since I find it to be both reasonably comfortable and secure. The security is a big factor for me, because if I know I can escape, it pretty much ruins it for me.

Mistress ordered me into lockup out of the blue one evening last week (Tuesday?). Since we hadn't been playing for a while, I was allowed to be free while at work to make sure there weren't any re-adjustment issues. She let me out for a little nookie later Friday night, ordered me back in before I left for work on Monday, let loose for some nookie on Tuesday night, and I've been locked up since.

I asked her if there was any agenda this time other than it would be released when she wanted to play with it, and she said, "no." What's surprised me this time around is that she seems to be following through with it. She's been coming in after the end of my shower to make sure I'm locked back up. This morning she didn't check and was going to let me be free for the work day, but of course, I had re-locked after my shower up since I was assuming she was going to check.

We'll see what life has in store for us in the coming weeks. Maybe I'm really in for it this time around.

 

tollyboyslave: I hear you. I didn't say it was easy, but for me, I can't expect others to keep their promises if I don't keep mine.

Update:

It looks like Mistress is enjoying herself. I was let out again last night for some sex. She still has me a bit confused with the randomness of it all, but either she was serious when she said it would come out when she wanted to play with it, or there's some method to her madness that's still waiting to be discovered. Then again, she's always been the one with the higher libido, so it's entirely likely she's simply using chastity to help keep my libido ramped up to the same level as hers.

She took pity on me and decided I could remain unlocked at least through work today because I had developed some soreness/redness in a few different places. I probably could have lived with it, but things like that obviously heal much faster without any external irritants. I think it's just a short-term consequence of the fact that we really haven't played with chastity at all since the end of the year.

The CS-500 was pinching me a good bit yesterday and that was contributing to some of the soreness. It wasn't the CS-500 itself, but rather my scrotum getting trapped/pinched between the end of the cage and my pants. I was wearing slightly tighter pants from the day before, so I'm thinking that was the cause.

I've again started considering getting a PA and a CB-5000 and/or Lori's. I've thought about this before and mentioned it to Mistress, but she wasn't too keen on me getting pierced, but didn't necessarily rule it out. The engineer in me keeps seeing ways that I could pull out of all of the devices we have, even the LiS belt. To date, I haven't actually tried to pull out of any of them since the effect is completely ruined if I know I can get off or pull out (ignorance is bliss). The Exobelt X1 is probably the only one that I can't pull out of, but it's huge and I can orgasm in it. I've already come up with a way to fix the latter, but size is uncorrectable, and the enclosed nature causes havoc with my skin.

 

No news is, well .. no news. It's hard to believe it's been a month since I posted.

After that last go-round, things just stopped -- some vanilla sex, but that was just about it. Things have been a little crazy the past month, (getting kids ready for school, some heavy landscaping and home repair), so maybe it was for the best not to rush/push it too much with so much else going on. I was thinking of mentioning it if the opportunity presents itself sometime this week.

Part of what may have precipitated chastity dropping out of the picture so suddenly was me mentioning how I thought that something using a piercing was more secure than anything we already had (including my LIS belt), since I felt I could potentially pull out of anything we had. I was looking at either the CB5000 or Lori's site at the time. She's not completely sold on a piercing, although I don't have a problem with it. For me, the feeling that there's no escape (even an inescapable plastic device would work from my perspective) once locked is important. I *know* I can resist, but that's not the point. If that is the case, I really should learn to keep my big mouth shut.

 

It turns out that she's not totally against the idea of a PA. We were browsing through some porn video sites as well as the Extreme Restraints site. We kept coming across the CB-5000 since the landing page for our XR browsing was my wishlist, and it was near the top so she kept seeing it.

She said she didn't understand exactly why I'd want to be pierced "down there." I then asked her why she got her nipples pierced, if that were the case. Now it appears she's all for it, and we're probably going to go and get it done as well as have a date night sometime next week if we can pawn the kids off on their grandparents.

So, it looks like mini-stealth will be out of commission for at least a couple of weeks, and it'll take a while to stretch it up to the 4-5ga for the CB-5K, so maybe by the end of the year we'll have another go at it.

I'm also thinking about getting rid of my glow-in-the-dark Birdlocked and maybe the Exobelt X1 to help buy the rings and CB-5K

 

Despite stealth jr. trying to shrivel up and hide, it's done. I got the PA today and there's currently a 14ga bent barbell semi-permanently attached to me.

It hurt much less than I expected. In fact, I'd say it was more like a pinch than anything else. I think it actually hurt more when she was trying to get the receiving tube in the right place.

Before it started, we talked about jewellery, and decided on a bent barbell instead of a ring. It seems that it's less likely to aggravate the piercing than the ring (moving around, pushed this way and that while doing normal activity like walking), and I can still pee standing up without much risk of getting anything on me. I had already done a lot of research, so I knew about most of the aftercare and whatnot. My questions were limited mostly to:

1) What size jewelry (3/4" bent barbell, 14ga -- The piercer said she doesn't like doing larger gauge piercings since they take out too much skin, leave a bigger hole, and feels they heal slower, so it's currently a 14ga. So, it'll probably be early next year sometime before it's stretched to something usable like a 4ga.)
2) How soon should I wait until considering going up a gauge (minimum, a month, and two weeks for each gauge thereafter, depending on how it feels, slower if it doesn't feel right).

Based on my research, I should probably abstain from sex and take it easy "down there" for about two weeks. After that, sex should be OK, definitely using a condom for the interim (we're strictly monogamous and don't have to worry about kids, so condoms are optional for us)

As far as bleeding, I should have taken some stuff with me (i.e., gauze and medical tape) like I originally considered doing. Despite the fact that it barely bled in the first few minutes, it started a slow trickle which went through my boxers and made a small spot on my pants on the way home. I'm not sure if she really thought it wasn't going to bleed since it showed almost no indication of it after it was done, or if she normally doesn't give the customers stuff to cover the piercing with. Then again, she probably doesn't see most customers again after they're pierced and therefore doesn't get much feedback in those regards. So, we pulled over after a few minutes and I stuffed a wad of paper napkins in my pants that I had in the car until I could get home and replace it with something better.

Now, I just need to order some barbells and tapers to get me up to 4ga, and then determine which device we should order -- probably a PA-5000 to start, then possibly something in steel (i.e., a Lori's or something similar) at some point in the future.

Hopefully, I'll have time to post about my wife's "goodbye" to her toy (for a few weeks) in the next few days.

 

Mike,

It's always good to read other people's experiences. I was beginning to wonder of the amount of blood was appropriate or not, but based on what I'm read from you, at least it's not unusual. I don't remember my wife's nipples bleeding much when she had them done, and that's what I've been basing most of my expectations on.

It was just the original few minutes that it didn't bleed. Once I got out the door, it apparently started bleeding and it's still bleeding a bit (18ish hours later), not enough to really worry me, but just more than expected. It also seems that tight or heavy pants (i.e., jeans) makes a big difference in how much it bleeds, probably due to the pants pushing back on the jewelry and generally making it move around. I learned this when I bled through my gauze dressing, underwear (tighty-whities, since I thought that might be better to hold everything snugly in place) and onto my second pair of jeans for the day. Since then I've been wearing boxers and loose pants with much fewer problems, so it seems they'll be required for at least today and tomorrow. It's a good thing I work from home, so it doesn't really matter what I wear that much.

 

PA update / My wife's "goodbye"

The bleeding all but stopped mid-Monday (about 24 hours after the piercing) with only the very occasional drop here and there until last night. For some reason, just after peeing, it started to bleed a fair bit. I guess between the urine flow and maybe jogging the jewelry slightly it worked a bit of the clot free. It stopped very quickly, though. The piercing itself has been fairly blood-free, so I'm wondering if the piercer didn't scratch me slightly with the receiving tube (my wife said it was somewhat pointed) while she was positioning it. In any event, healing seems to be progressing nicely.

I said I'd post about my wife/KH's "goodbye" to her toy. In order to do that, we need to go back to a text message she sent me while I was away on travel a few weeks back. The message read: "Miss you.. wish you were home... I guess I'll have to get by with my purple friend ". When I got home the following day, she was still pretty worked up. Earlier, while putting the trip's leftover clothes and toiletries away, I had noted that her purple friend (dildo) was sitting in a bedside drawer instead of our bag of toys. She had never used it herself in my presence, and I thought it would be an interesting change of pace, so as things started to move from foreplay towards sex, I pulled out the dildo and gave it to her. A couple of orgasms later, we finished up with some vanilla (but still fun!) sex.

She has only grudgingly admitted to masturbating in the past, which is why that is significant. Now, I told you that to tell you this:

On Saturday night, we had been teasing each other for hours about this being the last sex we'd have for at least a couple of weeks while the PA healed, so we were both worked up a bit. I forget who exactly initiated this particular sequence of events, but I wound up naked, spread-eagle face-up, fist-mitted and blindfolded on the bed. She proceeds to play with me, with her hands, her mouth, as well as sitting on me and rubbing against me. She wasn't intentionally edging me, but that was the effect. I was somewhat expecting that she'd pull out the head harness and put a dildo in it, but she didn't. After a little bit, she pulled out her purple friend again and starts to use it while stroking me, both of which were a again turn-on but wasn't quite enough to get me off. When she got close to an orgasm, being otherwise busy, all stimulation for me stopped. After several (half dozen?) of those cycles, she stopped and hopped on top of me, rubbing on me again, but only rubbing slowly. this goes on for several minutes while she's working both of us up, and finally she moves up and pops me inside. It wasn't too long after that I had what was most definitely probably one of the top-10 orgasms of my life (hard to narrow things down more than that since they're so fleeting). I think she really liked her last one too, but I was honestly a little too preoccupied.

She always says she has problems coming up with things to do when she's in Domme mode (we switch), but then she comes up with things like this and disproves herself.

 

Yay! The PA is doing better than expected. I haven't seen even the slightest trace of blood since my last update and it's not really even tender at all. I may go ahead and switch the jewelry sooner than anticipated, though. I think the bent barbell is too short by about 1/8". It pulls between the piercing and the opening of my urethra with the normal expansion and contraction of that area, making things a little uncomfortable. I've ordered another bent barbell that's 7/8" instead of 3/4". I also ordered a ring and circular barbell to see if those might work better in the event that the bent barbell still causes problems. Hopefully they'll be here by the end of the week.

I had a major case of blue balls late last week for some reason (maybe writing up the "goodbye" story and reading porn had something to do with it). My wife took pity on me, and we managed to have sex on Friday night, being extremely careful of the piercing. The condom held the barbell in place pretty well. It was only slightly painful for me due to pressure on the actual piercing point by the ball and it went better than expected, but it wasn't the best I've ever had, and I think she'd probably say the same. I tried to make sure she plenty of fun in advance, since I was anticipating that.

We received some new toys on Saturday including the CB-5000 that I had ordered the week before. We seem to be out of phase with each other again, so the toys remain examined, but unplayed with (a sin, I know..). She hasn't exactly been ordering or even hinting me into the bedroom (or elsewhere, even). Then again, she has a lot planned this week, so she's probably worried about all of that going off without a hitch.