They told me be careful what you wish for (a chastity journal)

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    My fiancé and I have always been very kinky, playing often with bondage, impact toys, CFMN, or just having me in lots of rubber during sex, then we discovered chastity.


    Her and I were always keen on trying it out but with my anatomy, being quite an endowed guy, and the fact that I’m a grower had made finding a cage incredibly difficult. All was fine when I was fully relaxed, but erection attempts were just too painful causing discoloration ect, this lead to about 3 years of trying a dozen or so size combinations between length, width, ring size ect.

    I now have a CS-100 full belt, with the rear cable, which slipped on, locked on without any fuss, and remains very comfortable. Upon first seeing it she loved it, the more intense look of a fully belted chaste male. During a long play session of servicing her there was no bulging, no discolored ball sack, nothing. We’re taking a month for adjustments, seeing how long I can go without cleaning/ shaving ect then the keys will go into her safe. Feels insanely exciting and slightly jarring knowing how much control I’m handing over, that masturbation and semi frequent orgasms may become a thing of the past. Looking forward to seeing what the future brings and sharing my journey into being a full time chaste male
     
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    So, last night we hit our first snag.

    First the good, After 2 days of continuous wear I made some more adjustments to the belt, making it even tighter around the waist, sitting perfectly under my hips it was even more comfortable, the belt did it’s job and prevented erections almost 100%, even during last nights play session there was only some minor swelling of an erection behind the tube. At this point we have not had PIV sex since July 3rd, so I was understandably ferociously pushing against this belt even though all I could muster up was some slight swelling of my penis. This makes me think that this is exactly how the belt needs to sit from here on, very tight, with a medium tight crotch cable.

    The bad: The Test It tube may be a bit small for me, as the very back 1/2” of my penis instead of being in the tube gets pushed back into my body, and created and area that swelled out over the tube between the testie ring and cage. My body pushing as hard of an erection as it could muster caused this skin to get pinched and leave a very small cut.


    I’m going to order a tube 1-2cm longer, with some more additional modifications, though keep my current tube as well since it may end up that after some time I’ll shrink into it. Also considering a new testie ring with dual loops welded on to wear 2 crotch cables, as bathroom time and pegging will be much easier.
     
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    Hope it works for you. Although this may be the only situation where a large cock is a negative. Good luck and enjoy.
     
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    Thank you , it has been a big blessing to be well endowed when I’m with my lady, or another partner, This weekend a new partner actually asked if I sold my soul to the devil for what I’ve got, but it’s been a hassle in the way of chastity, very happy I made the change to a belt and fantasy being reality is now within my grasp.
     
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    New tube is on the way now , went a touch longer, with a couple more modifications including the beveled entrance. Pulling the tube closer into the pelvic bone should help really control my pesky erections during play, thats our hope anyways! Should be here in 2-3 weeks.
     
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    Wearing my belt continuously now has become a bit more normal, going longer and longer each time, she’s getting very into how lusty I get, how passionate I am, and I cant wait to see the day where I’m crying to take the belt off and she says no.



    Pump the brakes.

    The last time I removed the belt, we left it off for a bit, and by god I thoroughly inspected things much more than normal, and I found a lump on the back of a testicle.


    This isn’t good.

    Fast forward to the doctors office, I’m sent to get an ultrasound, from there I find myself in a Cat Scan Machine, getting blood drawn, and sitting in a room with a urologist learning I have testicular cancer, next week my right testicle will be removed, and a prosthetic will be inserted. Testing has showed I am only at stage 1 cancer since I had been checking myself so thoroughly I caught this thing in its infancy. The past few days have moved incredibly fast and slow at the same time, I had a .003% chance of getting this but god damnit my number had been called, what can you do?

    I will be openly discussing with my urologist if this means I’m any more susceptible to prostate cancer, or if it’s totally unrelated, and also bringing up my infrequency of ejaculation. Hopefully it’s not the case, but I honestly don’t know, if it is this fetish will have to be wiped from my brain unfortunately. From here I’ve got about 3 weeks until I’ll be back to normal. I’ll update with any new info.
     
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    homebody In awe of GoddesofHomebody

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    That is scary. I am glad you caught it early. Good luck.
     
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    Good you caught it early. Good luck.
     
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    Thanks everyone! Surgery is Monday at 6 am definitely very scared but all should be OK. Just gonna be about 10-12 days on the couch feeling like I’ve got that stomach ache you get after getting kicked in the nuts, per my surgeon, though he didn't describe it so crudely.
     
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    Surgery went very well! In a lot of pain at the moment and dozing in and out of sleep but things are really looking up. I did ask my urologist if this could have any relation to future prostate cancer and he said no, it’s unrelated, so my lady and I will continue our journey into this lifestyle in a while when I’m all healed up . Laying here with nothing else on my mind all I can think of is I really cant wait to lock the belt back on, and be in my usual harnessed and collared attire around the house, all things in time though.
     
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    Glad it went well and best wishes for fun frustration soon!
     
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    Thank you! Starting to feel much more like myself!
     
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    So a little update, walking mostly normal! Got another nice scar to show off, and just found out I’m officially cleared of cancer. Only thing that sucks is this is healing slow, I’ll likely be out of my belt until minimum october 1st, at which point we’ll *hopefully* be able to start locktober with everyone then go right into NoVember.


    Pics for clicks of my fancy new scar
     

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    Looks like an orchiectomy scar…did they remove the testicle?
     
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    Indeed they did. My right one is now a prosthesis.
     
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    I am glad you are doing better.

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