The real feeling of Chastity

M
I agree with Stroppy, this situation seems contrived, which your wife has tried before.
SFD

 

Glad it looks the same to you as well SFD it just all sounds too familiar. I am sure if you were as close to the action
as Mobi is maybe its harder to stand back and look at the bigger picture. I do hope it is not the same thing again.

 

Wow! Ms Suz to the rescue with a last minute reversal of fate. I still don't know why your wife should be angry for you being yourself and about your fantasies. That's part of who you are. She may not like it but that shouldn't be the reason for a punishment. You did nothing wrong and the stuff in question (I assume) is many years old. If she's shocked, it's her problem. It seems she's punishing you because she's angry and that's not 'proper' femdom behavior.

Anyway, I hope it's not too much for you and your wife comes to her senses after it.

I also must agree with MistressMagick about slowly releasing material to your wife and keeping some from her, but that ship has sailed. I just hope it doesn't affect her to the point that she never sees you the same again, as MistressMagick mentioned.

 

Hello All.
This current situation does seem contrived...I think M's wife is bobbing & weaving here and seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and has come to the realization that her gamesmanship is a smashing success and without trying to sound disrespectful, that she has just about completely transformed him into a lump of malleable clay to do with what she wants. A very interesting thought was mentioned that perhaps M's next milestone on his journey will be receiving oral from Trace first...I could see that being "ordered", and I could imagine a feeble protest from M, in his orgasm-starved, somewhat sleep deptived, "brainwashed" state I imagine the protests would quickly melt away into Trace's warm, wet mouth with M's wife possibly verbally commending M on how sexy it is to see him receive oral from a man, what a good slave he has become and how good it must feel to finally being on his way to an orgasm...AND how it won't be too much longer until he will be rewarding Trace in the same way once he sees how much Trace enjoys the empowerment of giving an orgasm...as slaves we all have lost power and control of our sexuality and our lives to some degree and what a reward to be given back some power from the Mistresses we so blindly adore? Oh well, that's my two cents for now...please keep us current M! Good luck!

allaboutHer

 

I honestly can't tell if you guys are just trolling or are serious. Why are you *so* desperate to see some gay action? This is mobico's life, so let him tell his experiences without badgering him about your personal fantasies. Many of the readers here, myself included, are not interested in what you're interested in. And for that matter many doms have no interest in "forcing" 2 guys onto each other.

Also mobico, I finally realized what i meant when I first asked you about adding more descriptions and details to your writing, if possible. I went through the older posts and realized there's a lack of dialogue. The narrative itself is perfect, but dialogue spices up the story and immerses the reader more into the experiences you're trying to convey (especially bed time dialogue). So if you have time or can remember what was said please do add them. With regards to your wife finding your stash, I recommend you go through it with her and point out the stuff you like and the stuff you dislike. She can use it as an opportunity to learn more about you or just to more viciously torture you.

 

Hi sonicmerlin.
Allow me to assure you there is no "trolling" going on here and no "desperation to see gay action" (postings on this site do include their fair share of "gay action" though). Pardon me for thinking this was a fun place where we could escape people that feel the need to police others respectful thoughts, ponderances and discourse. I recoil in horror when I read about many of the things that go on in the journeys of the people who post here and would NEVER partake in them myself. That said, I am not here to judge, I am here to read about a very unique flavor in the "sexual ice cream parlor" that I stumbled into with my wife and enjoy immensely. I have thoroughly enjoyed reading Mobico's dutiful postings and will continue to do so. My comments have been made with all due respect, but because I see and have been predicting a different outcome for M does not mean that I am badgering or putting my own fantasies into his life...you don't know me and you certainly do not know my fantasies ( nor do I know you or yours).

Mobico:
If I have offended you in any way with my postings and ponderances about where I could see you headed on your journey, please accept my apology. I hope you have not felt "badgered", insulted or belittled in any way because that was NEVER my intent. I find your story quite interesting and look forward to your contnued posts. Going forward though, I will keep my thoughts to myself to satisfy those that have a problem with open, sometimes fun and playful discourse.

Respectfully,

allaboutHer

 

It's been I while since I posted quotes -
July 16, 2012. This got us in a discussion around needs, and she pointed out that my primary wants appeared basically phisical / sexual in nature, while her wants were all around mental. That I wanted her to control my body, but she wanted control of my thoughts and mind. I have to admit this, I got instantly horney when she said this!

When she said this, I asked her about the dedications and meditation sessions, and she nodded..She said it was exciting to put together some ideas, says them into a microphone, and the next thing she knows, I'm doing it..this is what lights her fire. When I called her on it.."You want to brainwash me?" She shook her head "no..I want to get into your mind and have you completely dedicated to me".

Obviously this was a longer discussion than I am putting down. Where we netted out on this, and is a good example of how we are coming at this in different ways... She said she would let me look at her all I want (she wouldn't hide her breasts from me and I can look at her naked), but she will try to train (read: brainwash) me to lower my eyes even though there will be no penality. This is a challenge I can take !: -)

August 6, 2012. What is really cool is that we can now talk so openly about sex and fantasies ;-) We really connected, laughed, etc..and had a lot of fun going over the images. She keps saying she can't wait until I'm back in to serve her. "She's got plans for me ))"

We also discussed other limits, including other people. She doesn't want hard fast rules around other people, especially at Ms. Suz parties, but I specifically told her there was no way I was doing, or getting done by some other guy. She promised that she would never demand that I do that, and I told her even if she did demand, it wouldn't happen.

Another thing I let out to her was my interest in rope bondage and CBT. She didn't know the expression, but I explained it as tie me and my penis up, and have at it. I don't think she's completely into that, but she's willnig to do try it.

August 10, 2012 The 4 weeks are going to be planned vacations; like any vacation from a job. and it must be approved by her. As for forced sex with others, yes. she isn't gonig to demand that I have sex with others. In other words, she can say it all she wants, but Its not going to happen, and I don't get punished if I say no.

Sept 16, 2012 Oh..she has talked about me sucking cock. There was male on male at the party and afterwards on the drive home she talked about it, saying something like "one day maybe you'll suck a cock for me'; and a few times this week she's called me her little cock sucker. (she know this is a hard limit; and she's not going to make me; its just that she knows it makes me uncomfortable, and is using it to scare me.)

M
Your wife remembered your desire for CBT.

Sonic Merlin
The words above about gay action aren't mine.
SFD

 

Hi SFD.
Well put. :>)

allaboutHer

 

Mobico69, I’ve been tolling the site for the past few weeks before I signed up as a member today and found your journal one of the most interesting postings here on this site and I’m going to interject a few comments from the female perspective.

First off I do find your relationship a bit on the extreme side, but whatever 2 or more consenting adults do in the privacy of their homes is their business, not mine.

I can relate to your wife freaking out about your porn as when my husband came clean with me about his porn addition I was in complete shock and VERY PISSED OFF!

He too had female bondage and torture videos on his computer and to be honest I slept for weeks with one eye open worrying that he would try tying me to our bed.

I felt betrayed that he was spending of upwards of $500 a month downloading that crap and playing with himself on his computer while our two kids and I were sleeping down the hall.

I’m pleased that you offered Ms. Suz and your wife an apology, as this is a start in the right direction.

And as a next step I would recommend that you make the suggestion to your wife and to Ms. Suz that you would be willing to install spyware onto your computer that will alert them by email if this transgression ever occurs again.

Second I’m pleased that you have drawn a line in the sand making it clear to your wife that having sex with a man is out of bounds.

Even though my man and I have never discussed this as we have a monogamous relationship I know this would be a deal breaker for him too.

However, I do get great joy of teasing him about it saying that he would make a great cocksucker as he licks my feet and sucks each of my toes.

Be safe Mobico69

 

Mobico... I'm not suggesting that you do this - it's entirely your choice - but there are a lot of freeware "undelete" programs out there that will recover your porn stash files. As long as those sectors of your hard drive haven't been overwritten with new data, what you "deleted" was simply removed from your conputer's file directory. That tells the PC that those blocks and sectors are once again available for new data to be stored on. That said, if you did want to undelete, you should do it sooner rather than later.

 

I will PM you the link for the program I use. The program is undetectable unless you know what to look for. Just don't want to take a chance on having Bill figure this one out <grin>

 

Be careful, M. Any program like that would surely reveal your visits to this site, too. I'm sure she'd make your excellent blog here interesting reading.

 

This is true....

 

M
Obviously I was wrong about my prediction of Oct 4, when I wrote,
"Your wife now owns your mind. If you don't want to be homosexual, this is your last warning, take a one week break right now.

It's not that she wants you to be gay, but she wants to conquer you and completely own your mind by having you crave to do what you have so adamantly refused.

By Thanksgiving, you will be craving to suck cock and take it in your ass. Trace will be your first of many. Right now she is socializing you to Trace and preparing your ass for being filled by stretching it out with butt plugs. She will progressively increase the size of the plugs to loosen your Sphincter and accustom your ass to the feeling of being filled.

She will begin mind control steaming tapes to have you crave penises. "

Have any of these elements advanced?
1. Butt plug training
2. Streaming tapes about craving penises
3. Socializing with Trace through activities and games?

SFD

 

M
The reason that your wife asked to see and has been studying your porn, is that she's seeking to understand your fantasies to find your chinks in your mental armor, so she can find paths to further control you.
SFD

 

I think you would have been closer to the actual reason if you had stopped at the end of the first line. She wants to understand his fantasies so she can use them against him in a sexual context. But I don't think mind control is her objective here.

 

ChastityLocked
My statement is entirely consistent with quotation from M

July 16, 2012. "This got us in a discussion around needs, and she pointed out that my primary wants appeared basically phisical / sexual in nature, while her wants were all around mental. That I wanted her to control my body, but she wanted control of my thoughts and mind. I have to admit this, I got instantly horney when she said this!

When she said this, I asked her about the dedications and meditation sessions, and she nodded..She said it was exciting to put together some ideas, says them into a microphone, and the next thing she knows, I'm doing it..this is what lights her fire. When I called her on it.."You want to brainwash me?" She shook her head "no..I want to get into your mind and have you completely dedicated to me".
SFD