The real feeling of Chastity

Hi everyone; I appreciate all the feedback; and some of it is really cool; while others is a little off?

Stroppy and Seargent; Thanks; And Yes..having her explain why; and more intensly, having her just come down naked in silence then get off, was a major turn-on for me, and changes the whole dynamic of sitting in that basement.

Rschulz00; I know a lot of people seem to think I'm undergoing some sort of hypnosis to accept my predicmant, but it realy isn't like that; or at least, its pretty much on the same level as having to write dedications for hours; but much easier on the hand!!!.

And to many others, Sillyfemdude as well..this whole thing about me going down on a guy is soo way off its crazy..No amount of listening to some wav files is going to change the inborn aversion I have toward doing a man! It is just not going to happen, and I suspect I'd end this thing with my wife if I was put into a strong situation where she insisted I do it. Imagine, infront of everyone, forced, etc; and she tells me to do it; The answer is simply no..I get up and walk out. I'm not owned in that sense; and I have absolutly no interest in doing that. Now to be clear; I have not brought this up wit my princess; I have no interest in putting things into her head or even 'challenging her authority' with the idea..I'm in that sensitive a situation. So no..I'm not sucking on anyone.
As for cuckolding; Not there either; though the difference here is about trust and love. I know we both love eachother, and though she let me get head once, that was based on an agreement we had. If she was going to cuck me, she would be breaking a big trust; and I don't think I'd want to be with her anymore. So no; I've no interest in cucking; though its not my decision; it is hers, and I trust her with my life/wife.

I'm hoping that answered your question regarding trust, Billyboi...

And IS Randy/Dboy; I think you've got it right..

I don't mean to be short; its just coming up to 5 and I have to get out of here soon; Doubt I'll be on the PC tonght.

MEanwhile, quick update on a few things.
First, when I got home on Friday, guess who was there; yup, Ms. Suz. After greeting them both in the proper fashion, she had me go down and lock myself up in the cage and do my mediations..; A little while later, she comes down, and tells me that from now on; I've got to spend 2 hours in the cage a night. If I miss two hours, I need to catch up the next night, and so on. I pushed back a little bit, and then started negotiating for just an hour..Finally she relented, and told me that if I'm good about it, I can move to an hour a night at the beginning of June. So only 2 hours a day is good.

But of course, Saturday comes, and I find out that we are going to the city for the evening; I'm dressed up ; bag packed, and guess who's joining us. Yup. Ms Cathy and hers. So I spent the better part of Sat and Sun in NYC; either following them around, eating in silence; or just sitting in the hotel room. Not a lot of exciting things to tell; but of course, as soon as we get home last night, she says "You owe me 4 hours; do you want wait until tomorrow or do it all tonight". So wimpy me says tomorrow; So now I have 6 hours which I'll probably break out for 3 each night.

I'll tell you; she is having fun with this, and for me its frustrating, but she's teasing me right about it; and keeping it interesting. I'm curious to see what tonight will bring; But I seriously doubt it will be sucking on some guy's dick! ;-)

Thanks everyone, and again, I hope I didn't come off short; just typing fast...

M

 

Just finishing up work; headed home.

I don't know SFD; I'm not really concerned about it. She's sort of like that bad sister you never liked? We've all been around the block a few times with eachother, and seen good and bad. She just doesn't like me, and I don't like her, but we suffer through eachothers presents for the sake of my princess.

Dboy; Yes..The thought has crossed my mind..though I'm unsure if I'll be in the cage or she'll just show the dungeon. I don't know..And I'm not really carying right now ;-)))

But yes, My wife is really being nasty as it comes to this; and nasty, I mean sneaky.

So as soon as I get home yesterday, I'm expecting to put in 3 hours; but instead, I get a 'lets go out to dinner' tonight. So I'm like cool, cause it gets me out of the time for a while; and out we go around 7. Course, we get home around 10, cause we hang out and have drinks...so I'm like ; I'm going to lock in for my 2 hours; (yes..I get a PC down there..Laptop!; but no internet so I'm doing image stuff) But she says; I'm going to sleep, so unless you plan on staying down there for the whole night, you owe me 6 hours.

So yea..this is how it is. She's actually not letting me serve the time; I think she wants me to have the time saved up so that when therisa comes I have lots of time I'm supposed to be in the cage; So the game is afoot; And I'm up for it. Tonight when I get home, I fully expect her to distract me / use me for something, whatever, and build up even more time. Its just her way..LOL

Oh..and KCJack; No way; Im nnot interested in being on display to the world..I'm private and have no interest in anyone finding out who I am. Very embarissing!

M

 

Well..I'm down to 5 hours owed. 3 yesterday and 2 tonight. As expected, tonight I got home and 2 hours in she wanted me up to watch AI with her again. At least on Tue I got through 3.

Hey SFD: The floor has carpet (installed by me), but the cold concreet has a way of seeping up. I have a chair in there, and prop my feet up on the ladder to play with the laptop, its pretty comfy for a limited stay. And no, I would not want to sleep down there, though if forced, my feet would go under the first rung of the ladder.

KCJack; No way; First, I hate wearing the leather hood for an extended time; Its hot, and with the gag, very difficult to breath well. Also, I'm not sure we can record from those cameras; They are a straght feed into the router, and viewable via the software on the pc. I'm not sure there is a record or transmit to internet feature. And no way in hell will I suggest to this woman that we broadcast me to the world. No way. Next thing you know, she'd be charging money and not only taking requests but implementing them. And the internet is not a place to get requests for a slave like me. My life would become miserable!!!

ChastityLocked; I'm a consultant in a large company. I'd rather not go too much into what I do though..;-) I'm sure you understand.

Anway, SFD: It finally happened. She actually tried to hypnotise me; or at least, she gave me pretty blatently obvious suggestions. Before, as I've said, her wave files have pretty much been encouraging and thankful. But tonight, she slipped one in that couldn't go un-noticed! She led up with how she wanted me to act when Therisa is around. like no arguments, be as respectful as I'd be to her, etc. But toward the end, she said 'If Therisa asks you nicely, and uses the word 'please', you MUST do as she asks." At first it seemed to flow in together with what she was saying; but she started repeating it several times, and I was like 'brainwash'!.

And tonight, while I was being milked again to a wonderful O (by hand) I called her on it. She played dumb; but I know her. Tomorrow I'm going to listen for it again, and call her out if its in any of her new waves.

She's arriving on the 24th. Arg..

M

 

Ha Dboy. I sat through a full hour tonight of meditations/brainwashing; She really just repeated last nights wav files in the play list like a hundred times. The freaking phrase has been running around my head all ngiht and will not go away.

"If Therisa asks you nicely to do something, and says the word please, you will do it"
"If Therisa asks you nicely to do something, and says the word please, you will do it"
"If Therisa asks you nicely to do something, and says the word please, you will do it"
"If Therisa asks you nicely to do something, and says the word please, you will do it"
"If Therisa asks you nicely to do something, and says the word please, you will do it"

Over and over. This is a direct response to my question last night. She's showing who's boss.

When I came back upstairs (I'm actually not locked in; I just have to be in the cage - I guess this is easier for her as she doesn't have to unlock me;
Anyway, when I came back upstairs, she looked up from her TV show; and said ""If Therisa asks you to do something...."
And I'm like "and says please, I will do it". then she smiles a grin, said 'good'.

But honestly I wasn't finished, so I pushed it a little, and told her I didn't need to hear that a hundred times, and she asked me if 'would you rather write it down a hundred times?" and I got the message.

So tonight, we talked some more; about why. She said she is very concerned that I'll diss Therisa while she's here...that she's built me up as someone whos caring and thoughtful, and if I start to do my normal behaviours around Therisa, she'll be embarised; so, why not take advantage of the wav files to emphasis how I should treat her.

I told her that I wouldn't disrespect her, and I'd do my very best to be respectful, kind and nice. I still don't think she believes me, and honestly, I don't believe it either.

So for the remaining week, my montra is "If Therisa asks you nicely to do something, and says the word please, you will do it"

sigh

M

 

SFD ; hand. often times breath; sometimes mouth. But when I O, she just holds my tip and I fill the container. Its over 1/2 full now

LockedUP: Negotiate..<Giggle> No ..she has her maze, and Im just a mouse being led around by my horneyness.. I'm pretty sure she wants me to owe her days and days so that when Therisa's here, I have to sit downstairs. Thats what I expect anyway.

M

 

Hi.. Ths is becoming quite the thing for her. Friday she pulled the meditation waves on me again; so I had some words for her afterwards. I told her that I got the message, and that there was no need to try and brainwash me.
At which point, she lost it totally; She went balistic, telling me to "Brainwashed? Look at you down there, groveling, naked on your knees! Your already brainwashed. You'll do whatever the fuck I say!! Your nothing more than a fucking servant, and the quicker you understand that, the better!" I've never seen her like this, but she was fuming red, and yelling at the top of her lungs. After a few more really hurtful statements, she told me she was through looking at me, and I was to lock myself up downstairs. I didn't know what to say or do, but when I started to get up, she yelled "crawl", so I crawled, felling very hurt and locked myself up.
It really shook me up hearing what she said; but she came down about 20 mins later, and stood in front of the cage for a few mins; then without really apologizing, told me that she was very afraid that I would disrespect Therisa while she was here, and to make sure I didn't, she needed to make sure I understood how important this was to her. She then unlocked the cage and told me I could come up to bed at 11.

Saturday, I was set to talk to her about this, but as usual with women, her whole demeaner changed; She actually was very nice to me, and it was almost a normal day; though I did have to sit in the cage for 4 hours. Additionally, there was no more '"If Therisa asks you nicely to do something, and says the word please, you will do it"; ...So I put this all down to stress.

Sunday came more of the same, with yardwork and house cleaning most of the day, and again, no mention of the Friday night blow up. I figured I would not talk to her about it, even as I got my orgasm in a cup, no words.

Today was a different story; When I got home, Ms. Suz was there with her. I felt like it was an intervention; that I had done something wrong. My 'owner' spoke first, and explained that Ms. Suz was going to take the keys over the next week. And that if I did anything to disrespect Therisa while she was there, Even if she wanted me to lick her boots, and I didn't do it, Ms. Suz was going hold onto my keys, and to get them back, I would be punished in the most severe fashion.

Ms. Suz spoke afterwards, though I was in a complete daze that this was happening. She said something along the lines that any misbehaviour on my part would reflect poorly on my Mistress, and there was concern about the past relationship between me and Therisa that I would embarise my princess, which must not happen.

My princess then told me to go down and lock up again., which I did.

About an hour later, my wife came down and gave herself an orgasm infront of me again, then unlocked me for the night.

So; now I'm locked in, and scared shitleess about this entire event.

M