susieq's life...good and bad ;)

Twins ya know

 

:blink: Things that make you wonder? on the local news a guy whom i refer to as idiot over a drug deal is doing a drive by shooting "on a bicycle",shot at 3 people missed them all as they sat in their car then they procieded to run him over and killed him ,not sure what he was smoking but i think i'll pass on it ..i mean duh ya know lol ,Curtseys to the Goddess Michelle <_<
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:sex020: i need that really bad,don't ya just wish you could go back a few years and regroup ,well hell that ain't gonna happen sooooo keep on truckin on.Been thinking about so many things lately and so damn confused
What i want
What i need
Things that touch my heart
The stuff so special
Ones that rip it apart

The craziest part i suppose is that i'm at a place in time where i can really do anything i like and the only thing stopping me is myself :sex020: i miss my son so very much and have the red carpet rolled out ,Mistress Michelle and pet no doubt....crossroads i guess ,which one to take

The one that gleems
The shinning star
All in reach
But seem so far

Well enough of this rant just needed to say it i guess and now off my chest ..loves everyone on the mansion ,curtseys to the Goddess Michelle ,Mistress Emma for providing such a lovely place ...the world doesn't seem that bad when you have a place such as this to take a seat and breathe for a minute ,hugssssssssssss :sad0123:

 

:anim_32: You are correct Mistress as always,and after very careful CORNsideration and talking to raymond lastnite,my friends in west palm beach (whom love me to death)the choice is becoming very clear to me

Tired of freezing to death
nothing up here for me but people with their hands out
And thats just not what i'm all about
i'll give a person my gizzard if ya need one i got 2 hmmm don't think i even have one unless i turned into a mother clucker ??..soooooo i think i'll bust a move and get myself a tan while i still got a few clucks (no pun intended )well maybe one or two lol i'm sure you'll be well taken care of by a live in and or sweet rachel whom holds her heart in your hands and it doesn't get much better than that :anim_37: i feel i've done all i can and time to put it to rest ,your in very capable hands now my Goddess :beatdeadhorse: this is not a goodbye thing or anything my friends just time for susie ,she's tired :manga_bath: I love you my Goddess and you know it's so ,Giant curtsey :heart:

 

:blink: Strange what an evening may bring,was having a chat with Mistress and knew rachel was on her way and about an hour away so i didn't want to hold her up and had told my sister inlaw i would come over and spend a lil time.As hindsight would have it i should've stayed and talked with Mistress but i go over and she's watching the news so i cracked a beer,well their trying to pass the gay marrage law in delaware and maryland which i'm 100 percent all for but guess who is not lol,she pipes in those people make me sick hmmmmm if she only knew lol but right after that theirs a cop killer,child molester,violence and i say those are the folks you should be worried about not the gays,lesbians or transgendered people whom are not harming anyone.I soooo want to introduce susie at this point as she thinks i'm the cats meow but held back for now but when the conversation comes up again(and i know it will)i guess i will give her a lil lesson in life and things are not always as they appear the strange part i guess stemmed from rachels new journal and what her daughter said to rachel and probably the only level headed person in that situation and a young person verses a 66 year old idiots ideas ...go figure lol but anyways i love you Mistress and everyone,enjoy your life and live it as you see fit it'll be short enough :chores004:

 

Have been thinking about alot of things lately and would like to share abit. Mistress Michelle,rick,rachel and half the farm are at the beach right now and i'm sure they are enjoying it as the ocean is a strange and mystical place if your lucky enough to live near one or visit one at times,ive sat at the beach many times by myself and in the dark totaly vunerable to anything with no fear at all armed only with a 6pk and faith but to be there and listen to the sounds that surround you,the waves breaking,reeds rustling in the wind,how the moon makes it look so beautiful unlike daytime and just a complete different place all together.It's a great place in those moments to cleanse your mind and soul much better than a doctor or a bottle of pills and realize your nothing more than a grain of sand that you stand on among millions of the same knowing i'll blow away just like the rest but provided a safe plattform at one time for a person such as myself to stand or sit upon and gaze at the heavens and know that things will be ok for i'm blessed,loved and needed.I'm not a super religious person but i do believe in my God what i percieve of it's being whom i will serve first above anyone for i feel he/she brought me into this life and will take it back from me as no Mistress or Master would and the choice we make to submit to one is a choice to serve and make that life better for those and ourselves which brings me to a point i would like to make when a person says they are owned,how in the world can you be seeing that you really are already so i suppose it's a nice title and a show of submission ,i mean no offence to anyone and not directed as such only one opinion and maybe just my own.Mine is of love and respect not who owns me and i have alot of that for Mistress Michelle,rick,rachel and all that share that with me and everyone on this wonderful site...i hope everyone takes that walk and moment at the beach,Mistress has the chance tonite,love hugs and curtseys Ps what i mean about ownership is that anyone can get up and walk away from it at anytime so whats the meaning ? love

 

Thank you sis,we had that lastweek here ughhhhhh but i think i want to elaborate abit on what i meant by ownership,it's a lovely term and in Mistress Michelles profile it states i own rachel,missy and myself and i love that,lord knows she owns my heart but what can we truly own that cannot be taken away from us
A wife or husband can leave
Children can be taken away from us if abused
A car,home or any material thing can be reposeded
So what the heck is left?? and in the worst case senerio we die and can't take any of those with us anyways so i wasn't trying to really say anything or appear to be defiant was just something to ponder is all ..I love you very much Mistress Michelle ,your entire world and everyone that is conected to it ,Your always good friend,sissy and servant Susie :wub:

 

This ones for rachel
My always friend
Til the end of time
Loves all i got
And always send

You know how i feel
I'm pretty sure
Such an ugly man
But a beautiful gurl

Inside and out
The sun shone thru
The person inside
The one that is
The one that is true

|After the sun
And all the rain
One child of God
Some consider abit
Insane

Not in my mind

We share the same depth
Some of the things we had been thru
My Goddesss My Rick
My friends
The farm
mmmmmmmmm
Such wonderful times

Can only smile when i think of those
Whippin ass
Wearing womens clothes
Such a blissful place
The look in their eyes
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm :heart:

 

:unsure: Hanging the delicates to dry ?? pretty sure thats the wrong anwser but thought i'd give it a shot lol ,not laughing out loud but lots of love ,i'm sooooooo happy all of our lives crossed paths ,pretty amazing to me ,curtseys and lol

 

Thanks all but probably need to elaborate on this abit,the only wooden spoon that would hold up to Mistress will have to be made of petrified wood as a matter of fact i doubt she even ever used one, the first thing i was introduced to was one called stubbie and a good 1 inch thick and looks like a cutting board.Mr.Gee i highly doubt wearing a slip afterwards will help much,feels nice but the pain Mistress can inflict hmmmmm sitting on a block of ice may help but a slip isin't gonna quite get it,and my dear tanya i'm sure there will be plenty of hooks to go around for lots of uses and after a few videos Mistress had me watch yesterday involving canning hmmmm got a funny feeling ,love ya'llll and curtseys :spankwhip:

 

Well bin Ladens dead
What a fitting fate
Shot in the head
A shame not sooner
But never to late

Would love to be there
Watch him on his knees
Explain to his God
His actions under his name
Pretty sure he will not care

You'll have to excuse me
I'm not shedding a tear
I lost a friend in 911
At 1:50 am
Im having a beer

BTW this is not a poke at at anyone or anybodys faith of choice but the ones that hide behind that veil and kill and murder and say this is what God wants,please gag me with a spoon ,i wish i'd shot that m'fin son of a bitch myself but that would have been to kind for the likes of him ,sorry bout the rant ..cheers and a curtsey :anim_04: :anim_32:

 

You got it Mr Gee :anim_32:

 

:blink: The Ten Comandments of crap not to do

Have family members that are still alive
Have an unloaded gun
Have a yardsale and give their money back if i can kill ya
Have a sign that reads ,yardsale and death,same price
Realilize your the dumbest bastard on the planet and your still smarter than them
Moneys green don't rip out their spleen
Thank God everyday cause your one braincell above
The ones alive share your love
hmmmm unloaded gun hmmmmmm
Have to get back to you on that one
A horse named trigger not your finger on one
Count your blessings
Thats what the exit sign read at susies yardsale
Anyways love ya'll