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    I saw a cage on Amazon and was some kind of attracted to it. So i doesn't think to much about it and ordered it. Some Chinese cheap one.
    I guess my motivation was kind of to stop my masturbation. Some times i masturbate 2 times a day and led to a point where i'm not really interested in Sex with my GF. The reason my by, because by watching porno and masturbate my lust is somewhat satisfied and also because i think with watching porno regularly you become kind of numb for real Sex. And so my GF and I doesn't have much sex, even i know she want's to have. Right now i am selflocked, but i will tell my GF of course and the reasons why. And maybe she agrees to hold the keys.
    After i received it i was quite impressed how short it is and was wondering if i could fit my penis inside. With some kind of pressure i finally made it and the cage got locked. After a few hours of constant exitement i took it of. After that i masturbated and had an orgasmus. That was 2 weeks ago and was the last one i had.
    When i tried to sleep with the cage on, it was a very short night. I couldn't find any sleep. Not because it was hurting, more or less o think the problem was in my mind. The fact that i knew that there is a cage on my penis seemed to make sleeping Impossible.

    Next i planned to wear the cage for some more time. Plan was 4 Days. But after 2 days it became uncomfortable. Not in a physically way, it was more or less in my head. I had the strong feeling i have to get out. After i released my self, i did not have any intention to put the cage back on. Also thought that maybe chastity isn't my kink. But after only 2 days i had the strong desire to put it back on.
    That was on 24th of March. And until now i'm still caged.
    Sleeping also works well, and i didn't need an alarm anymore to wake up, because that is done by my morning wood.
    I open the cage once every 24h for about 20 Minutes to wash penis and cage. Other than that 'm locked all the time.

    And i notices some changes in my overall behavior.
    I try to avoid dispute or try to calm her and me down. Also i 'm less into discussing everything, some thinks i now just accept. I work more in the household, like washing, buying food and so on.
    Last but not least, i noticed my feelings towards my GF somewhat changed. Much more attracted by her and even a kiss is very satisfying. After 7 years i forget about that.

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    Hello and welcome your journey so far sound so familiar. We have all been though it in one way or another. Your relationship to your Girlfriend must be commended and you should continue to respect all Females and continue your re-education.

    Such a heart warming journal - Respect
     
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    So today seems to be a hard day. Not because the cage is uncomfortable. It's because I have the strong feeling to masturbate or in other wards I'm horny as hell. On the other hand I'm kind of proud about the week and 2 days, so I'm afraid to throw that away for a few minutes of masturbation
     
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    You should be very proud of your achievement. Remember your feelings towards your Girlfriend will continue to change and both of you will be the benefactors in the long run.

    All because you are committed to Chastity and the lifestyle you have join.

    Keep ‘up’ the good work
     
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    So today was full of activity and new feelings.
    I registered a few days ago on the Emlalock site. And i made my Session open to female keyholders. After a few days my session was taken by Mistress H. That is all i know except the data on her profile.
    So she changed a few items in my session. Today i was down to only 2 Days and then she disabled the counter for time elapsed and time remaining. There was a warning that i could look up the time remaining but i will be punished when i do so. Of course i looked and was rewarded with 4 days 5 hours and 45 minutes extra time. The moment i read that it send kind of a shockwave through my body. But not a bad one. It went from my head direct to my Penis. I think i like the fact that i didn't know what is next.
    Pretty exciting.
    Also i read here and on other Forums that some say that they are more productive when they are in the cage. For me im not really more productive, but i noticed that when i was sitting in front of my PC in the time before the cage, in fact all was focused on masturbation. The question was only how and when. That isn't a topic anymore for the last two weeks.
    Also i have the feeling that the cage is more and more becoming a part of me. Deep inside me i think i wish to stay caged 24/7 and not unlock every morning under the shower. Also i now realize one of the weaknessis of the plastic one i wear right now. I think more than 24 hours without removing are not the best, at least regarding the smell. So i look forward to get the new steel one.
    Also i purchased today some Accessoires. A Kitchen Safe and a Burg Wächter lock which should fit in the new cage.
    And a corset / Waist Trainer. I wondered all the time how this clothing feels when worn. And i now found out that i like at least like to have my Penis in a cage. Maybe that feeling on the upper Body is also one that i like.
     
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    So how has your gf not noticed the cage? Be careful to not make her feel undesired.
     
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    You lucky Gurl I’ve just added 6hrs.

    Thanks to several of you Gurls, my Wife, who is my keyholder, had been telling me that she will be using Emlalock, to add a bit of jeopardy to our relationship. She is waiting delivery of the lock box, possibly today.

    I must admit that this brings a whole new level of excitement and humiliation, knowing that my keyholder will be you Gurls.
     
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    Hello and welcome. Good luck with your explorations
     
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    Because most of the time we sleep in different bedrooms. Because I snore alot and also have to get up for work really early 4:30 and she gets awake and have a hard time to sleep again.
     
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    So today was a little DIY Time. I found y way to lock the keys, so that I'm not able to unlock me
    Little bit improvised, but i guess it will do the job. So at least 24 hours i will be locked, until the next cleaning window is open.

    Also i found some kind of sweet spot regarding the cage. It's today barely noticeable.
    Until my chastity begun, i didn't know how hard it is to put a pantyliner in the right spot. I nearly every time put it in the wrong place, even the women ones are quite long.
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    So after nearly finishing 2 weeks there are some questions.
    So Exen though i clean penis and cage every morning with antibacterial soup i understand i have to clean the cage once in a while real good. So what are the options for a plastic made one?
    And also i walked today the first time on high Heels with Buttplug insertet. What a feeling. Because on that kind of shoes you have tension all the time in your butt, even when standing still.
    I liked it.
    Today (still caged) i will try to sleep with a buttplug inserted. It is the one in the picture. It is 400gr heavy and i hope i will get a good night sleep
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    So I'm on day 14 and it is maybe halftime. Because of emlalock and the fact that the Mistress that is my key holder there, deactivated that I can view time elapsed and time to go, I can only guess. Every time I want to look I get a random amount of extra time. Also when I didn't finish my cleaning opening in 20 Minutes, I get an extra day. And some other cruel things. It is very strange. On the one hand it is frightening that the time locked is rising. On the other hand it gives my some kind of excitement and arrousel when I get extra time.
    Some other things also changed. The first week I tried to cum in the cage and tried different thinks. After 2 weeks I didn't try any more. But if the Penis tries to get hard in the cage, I enjoy the tight fit around the Penis and balls. So live in the cage seems to normalize.
    From yesterday morning until today (38h) in the evening I wore the cage without removel. But I guess I will stick with 24 hours. Open and clean every morning.
    Also noticed some "sissi" behavior.
    Checking if the Pantie liner is correct in my underwear. Ordered a corset, because the thought of cloth with a really tight fit, is some kind of nice...wearing women's underwear, a few days a week.
    It seems it is a interessting journey.
     
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    So the new cage arrived today. Kind of impressed how small it is. Full of anticipation but there is also a small amount of fear about the fitting of the cage. I think i will not wear it overnight the first days and only daytime. Don't know it the spikes are in fact to "hard" for me. But i normally like a fair amount of pain. And if the penis is without errection there shouldn't be much pain. But i have to wait a few hours, because the key to the old cage is in an lockbox and it won't open before 7 in the evening.
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    The new cage is quite comfortable to wear and the little space it has, seems not really a problem. But one problem I have. Because of the tiny size of the cage, there is so much of my skin that is so to speak surplus. So if I lock me 3 times, only 1 time I find the perfect spot. Maybe needs a little more training.
    The ring 50mm fits perfectly. And also the spikes are not really bad or painful, as long you don't get hard.
     
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