Sissy Kris training diary

End of a short era. I’ve decided to close my e-bloger account. I’m going to put my energy into my mansion diary. Felt a bit exposed on e-bloger as well it’s a bit more commercial and public. :animal0017:

 

I will be putting all of my blogin energy into my mansion diary from now on. I feel more comfortable posting here. As long as people still want to read what I have to say then I’ll keep on posting.

Things seem to be good with Master and I again now. Master had a friend round last night but it didn’t stop him from making use of me when we got to bed, not that I was complaining. Master was fully in charge and I don’t think was going to take no for an answer.

We almost had a moment though, Master was a bit drunk and was getting a bit bitchy which I don’t like. We kissed and made up though and then I was made to put my love eggs in and go in the front room with Master and his friend.

We had sex again this morning, was only vanilla sex but Master was in full control again and there was an element of me being used for Master’s pleasure there also.

I so want to be Master sissy gurl again. This time thought I would love it if I could dress more. I just wish I had more dresses. I would love nothing more than to serve Master in a beautiful frilly dress. I think the lack of sissy clothing doesn’t help though. I only have the once nice dress so far and a few other items of clothing.

I know it all sounds so demanding wanting to be dressed all the time but when I get the desire back to be a sissy it feels so strong. Being forced to dress is great, it reinforces my position and also gives me the motivation to dress more and to keep myself looking fem.

 

Had a bit of shaky start to the weekend. We had a little bit of bounce on Friday night, not quite sure why but we’re both so head strong it could of easily turned into an argument.
After my friends had gone home at 3:30am Master and I went to bed, when we woke up some time this afternoon we had great make up sex.

Whilst Master was penetrating my sissy pussy I asked him if he would like me to be a 24/7 sissy, I said that I would do what ever he said when we we’re out with friends and that I would submit completely. I don’t want to be in situations where we argue. I would prefer to submit fully.

I added that I would like to be treated more like a gurl and I wish to be trained in feminine ways. After I had said that master agreed and then added that he wanted me to get my nipples pierced today.

I agreed and said I could afford it so off we went to get my nipples pierced. We got to the piercing shop and the piercer said I was gluten for punishment but I said I’ve had PA so would be fine.

I think I was a bit overly confident, once he had done the first one I almost copped out of the second but before I had chance to the clamp was on and the piercer had done it. I’m so glad that I did. Master said he was proud of me and it showed that I wanted to submit.

It hurt like hell I would be lying if I said it didn’t but the guy that did it said I was really good most people squeal when they have it done and usually only have one done. I can’t wait to get rings in them and then I chain so Master can pull me round.

 

Things have been a bit quiet recently. I think this the longest Ive gone without posting since I joined the site. I see there are a lot of new active users which is good.

Havent really got much to report, we havent had much play time mostly due to me being too tired and having my nipples out of action. My nipples are still tender but I think they will heal quite nicely. I cant wait to have rings put in them and then Master can play with them.

Had my first psychosexual appointment in the week to discus my gender identity. The lady gave me a lot to thing about. I was quite open but stopped short of saying that I liked to be forced to dress up. I have another session in a couple of weeks and I hope that by talking about my feeling Ill be able to understand them better.

I will try and keep on top of my diary as best I can but with winter setting in its hard for me to find the energy. I already have my first cold of the session, I dont think Ive been getting enough vitamins.

Wish I had something a bit more exciting to write but I guess by keeping a record of everyday life people can get a better sense of the ups and downs of being in a sub dom relationship. Even when going about vanilla life I will always see myself as a submissive and therefore property of my Master.

 

MW, the counseling went well I thought. I felt as if she was a bit judgmental to begin with, questioning why it is that I feel that I need counseling but the session seemed to get better as time went on.

I think we’re both feeling better now, we even managed to tidy our bedroom which had gotten really messy over the past few weeks. I did have a little sulk though, I began to feel a bit down and felt Master and I we’re very distant and seemed to be bouncing at each other a lot but we managed to sort things out.

As usual when we sort things out I could feel the passion come back to us, I was quiet horny to begin with yesterday and I offered myself up to Master, we kissed a little and then I climbed on top of him then the kissing got a bit more passionate. After some kissing I decided to strip naked and get on all fours, Master wasted no time in lubing us both up and using my sissy pussy for his pleasure.

After that we did some more tidying and then we went to see a fireworks display with some friends. It was good fun, I enjoyed myself. More importantly we got to my friends house in time to see the new series of Top Gear, not a very sissy like program but it’s hilarious at times and great TV.

When we got home we watched a bit of TV and then headed to bed, where Master decided he wanted to play with some rope. We’ve had some rope sitting around for ages but hadn’t used it. Master had a little practice and I think he’s slowly getting the hang of it, we just need more rope now. When Master had tied me up in a way that he thought looked good he took some pictures and then used the opportunity to use my sissy pussy before we went to bed.

All in all the weekend was good. I think having a good rest on Friday and Saturday helped. I’m not used to having bad colds so it knocked me out a bit. The weather really hasn’t helped, stupid British weather has gone from relatively nice and sunny to bellow freezing and at times snowing.

 

As you will know if you’ve read Master’s diary, things have gone quite again, but we seem closer this time around. I’m making more of an effort not to sit on the PC and spend more time with Master.

I think for now play time will be only on weekends but if we can remain close in the week I don’t mind too much. I need to try and put out more but I’m always so tired when it’s time for bed and we have so little time together before bed we don’t get any time to play.

I wouldn’t mind a little play before bed but as soon as I start getting into sleep mode I become very tired and all I want to do is sleep.

I’m trying to make smoothies to have each day, often containing 3 or 4 portions of fruit. I hope this will help to boost my energy levels over the dark period and my immune system also, can’t afford to be getting colds every week.

As long as we don’t become distant again I’m quite content at the moment. There’s no point being made to be dressed up as a sissy if hearts aren’t completely in it. It’s better when we can put all of our energy into play time and training.

Quick update on my nipples. They’re still quite sensitive and sore but they don’t hurt all that much. I’ve only had them pierced for a week and a half so I’m not expecting much. The healing process is at least 2 months.

 

Looks like any play will have to be put on hold for the foreseeable future. Master has said that he feels as if he has very low self esteem at the moment and it would seem our sub dom relationship isn’t helping.

Master would prefer it if I made more of an effort to initiate sex, and also feels that I don’t enjoy sex anymore. It is true that sometimes my arse doesn’t feel as sensitive as it did some time but I still get pleasure from serving his sexual needs. I do enjoy sex and being penetrated but it would appear that Master would prefer it if I showed my enjoyment a lot more.

I initiated sex this morning and it was good for both of us. The mood just took hold of me and we had good passionate sex. The problem is I don’t often get in the mood by myself so Master then feels unattractive. It’s easier for me to become aroused when we’re playing but this seems to make master feel worse.

All this only came to light yesterday so I’m not quite sure what to think or do. I can’t force myself to be horny but at the same time I do love Master, I find him attractive and sexy but it doesn’t seem to be enough for me simply to say it.

He doesn’t know I’m writing this and not sure what he’ll think when he reads it but I just had to let it out. I’m sure we’ll sort something out but I feel in limbo at the moment.

I love being submissive and would love to be a proper full time sissy but if Master’s heart isn’t 100% in it then there is no point carrying on. I could adjust to not being a submissive I guess but it wouldn’t be easy. It’s all I’ve known and craved for the best part of 2 years.

 

My first fist.

Well after a very shaky week, today has turned out better than expected. The day started pretty normally. I did some work in the morning and then went to visit the parents for a while. When I got home we both played on the computers for a while, Master on the PS3 and me sat on my antiquated PC (Keeps me quite for a while though).

I made some home made (of sorts) bbq sausage and quorn pizzas but cheated and used frozen bases, I then walked the dog whilst Master went to get some chololate.

I had been tweaking Master nipples most of the night, Ive been feeling quite horny and have been dying for some play time. I often play with his nipples to try and get him in the mood, hell usually tell me to heel or hell let me off but keep me guessing weather or not well have play.

Well, tonight we had some play. Master ordered me to put on a dress and some make up, so I slipped into my sissy dress that I love wearing. I was then ordered to get out the large butt plug and then to put on a show the show being me trying to get as much of it in as I could. I managed quite a lot but not all of it.

That wasnt the end of the play though. Master wanted to inspect my wide sissy pussy so I got on all fours in front of him and displayed my pussy for him. He then began playing with it, inserting his fingers, 1, 2... 3 and eventually all of them. He then started to try and ease his fist in. He tried a couple of times but at the point were his knuckle started to enter it got a bit much. But on the 3rd time his entire fist entered my wide sissy pussy.

It was amazing, Master was describing how he could feel deep inside me. It hurt a bit but it felt great also, my adrenalin was running so I just wanted more and more.

After a while it all got a bit much so I asked Master if he could take his fist out. He did so but replaced his fist with his cock and used my sissy pussy for his pleasure.

The whole experience was intense and when Master was done I just felt as if I wanted to cum, it felt almost painful like Id been hit in the balls. Master soon had me in check though.

So all is good, Master let me keep the dress on and ordered me to update my blog. I hope Ill be able to wear my dress more often and I hope for a lot more play.

 

Well I’ve calmed down after last nights upset. I must say the comments regarding my spelling got to me a little more than they ought to. This doesn’t mean that I will be picking over my diary entries from now on. When you have problems with spelling no amount of proof reading will help. So people will have to put up with my crappie spelling. As many of you do and I haven’t had any complaints yet.

I will continue my diary for the sake of myself and other readers. Anyone who has a problem can do one. This site is about like minded people getting together to discuses chastity and all fun it brings.

As a last word in my defense I’m a fairly successful business man/woman and my lack of good English hasn’t stopped me from growing a business from scratch, including accounts, advertising and all the literature involved in starting up a company. I’m sure the people that upset me in the first place wont even get round to reading this but I just wanted to make my thoughts known.

Thank you to anyone that reads and enjoys my diary for you’re support.

Now that’s the last word. Any posts from now onward must be about chastity or fun forms of tutor only :smilies_xxx22:

ps I have note proof reed these

 

It would seem that Master feels he is letting me down judging from his last post. I couldn’t disagree more. I know how tired he has been of late, getting home so late really doesn’t help. I may be a little disappointed on the inside but I that’s just my selfish side.

I’m quite happy to wait until Master feels he is 100 percent ready. I wouldn’t want to push that wouldn’t do any good at all.

I have tried to do things off of my own back, I do chores and do as much as I can, but I sometimes feel tried too and am still struggling to get up in the mornings. For me submission and servitude realise very much on having the constant knowledge that if Master isn’t happy that I will be in for it and if I do good I will be rewarded.

I will try my best to make Master’s life easier until he feels good again. I’m quite happy for play to be on the weekend. My days of topping from the bottom and being a pushy bitch are over.

I still really really want to be a 24/7 sissy sub on day though. :bondage:

 

Bcc , Thanks for all your help. Sub like me could learn a lot from your loyalty and devotion :innocent0002:

Mistress Watchful, you’re not so bad yourself :tongue:. I’m not sure our sex life is inspiring but if people are interested and get something from my blog then I shall keep on writing :character0028:.

 

I did it, I actually got up roughly when I was supposed to. Got a bit more work done and felt a lot better for it. :happy0030:It was mostly down to Master that I managed to get up though.

Master wasn’t feeling particularly horny last night and was tired but I decided that out of the blue I was going to give him a hand job and then swallow his cum, which I did and I didn’t hear Master complaining. What I did do thought was get myself all worked up, it didn’t help that Master had a little play with my sissy clit.

When it got around to bed time, I was still horny and Master seemed to be getting a bit worked up himself. I really wanted to cum but Master wasn’t going to let me. But then he asked me if I wanted to cum, I was really confused and not sure what to say, I didn’t know if he was still Master and that I should just cum.

We talked for a while and Master said he would let me cum but and that I would be his slave again on Tuesday. He began to stroke my clitty and I could feel myself getting close and then I asked him to stop. I didn’t want to cum, I wanted to be a slave more than anything.

So, it would seem as if I am Master’s slave once more. I asked him to promise that I would be his 24/7 slave and he asked me to promise that I wanted to serve. After that Master decided he was going to use my sissy pussy for his pleasure which he did. :sex016:

After he was done I was still so horny, I had that horrible feeling around my clit I could feel the fluid building up so I asked Master if I could have a ruined orgasm. He said I could along as I begged, so I did. It was only a matter of seconds until I was close so I asked Master to stop and the cum just dribbled out, Master went on to feed it to me. Good thing that I was still horny and could feel that I still want to serve more than anything. :cumbuddy:

So back to this morning, I was ordered to get up and I did, he didn’t have to ask twice. Master also picked out my panties some hello kitty ones with pink hearts all over them. I was quite surprised he normally picks understated once out for me when I’m going out to work.

 

Things seem to be going really well. I thing I’m slowly becoming the 24/7 sissy that I’ve always wanted to be.

We did have a bit of a hiccup last night but that was more my fault. We we’re going to be having a night in but I had a last minuet change of heart and wanted to go out with friends for a drink. What I didn’t know was that Master had arranged some play time.

By the time Master had shown me the toys he was going to use I’d already agreed to going out with friends, I so wanted to change my mind but Master said it was too late to change our minds.

Far from being the end of any 24/7 lifestyle Master took the opportunity to reinforce my status. He wasn’t happy that I’d arranged for us to go out so he decided he was going to punish me by flogging me and then making me wear my love eggs whilst we we’re out.

I loved the punishment I felt so submissive and I could feel that I was truly sorry for disappointing Master. He has become so controlling and dominant and I love it. I seem to be a lot more motivated to serve and a lot more submissive.

Today we picked up a couch from Master’s gran’s and then we did some shopping. Master had another littler surprise for me before we went shopping. I was ordered to put on stocking and suspenders under my jeans before we left for the shops. It was strange feeling, paranoia crossed with excitement, it was great.

I love being Master’s sissy slave and can only see Master getting more dominant and controlling from now on. arty0042: