I was hyperventilating, sweating profusely, and shaking. It was a struggle to speak as my throat felt dry and tight. Muscles cramped; I couldn’t open my hands nor uncurl my toes. The more I tried, the more concerned I became about this loss of control. I was terribly confused and felt as if I had blacked out, because the last 20 minutes of our session were a blur which I still cannot recall. Despite the cramping, my body felt light and tingly, particularly my core and chest, and this “numbness” persisted into the night. I felt so sensitive, physically and emotionally, for the rest of the night. But her sweet words and caring touch soothed me and kept my tears of frustration away. She reassured me and guided me back to safe ground. It was exhausting. I’ve experienced some of these things, albeit to a much lesser degree, in the past with my SO/KH. But last night was something else. I may as well have been on another planet. I’ve never been so deep in sub space. Despite the depth, I feel very well today with no hint of sub drop. I feel refreshed, and my head feels remarkably clear apart from the lingering ringing in my ears. I’m so fortunate to have her to share these experiences with, to put my trust in, and to guide me into such sweet surrender. Very fortunate indeed!