Road Map To The Handing Over Of The Key

After sending my lady to a couple of highs with my head down there in between, I asked if she would unlock me. My question was met with silence so I followed up with a “please”.
It’s been more than 2 weeks since our last PIV, and I haven’t got to cum since.
Fondling my nuts with her hand, she looked into my eyes and with a smile on her face she said, “In due time, Baby.”
What followed was my persistent pleadings, to which she quite effectively put a stop to, with a kiss to my lips followed by a firm “Not tonight Baby. Goodnight and we’ll speak in the morning.”

 

This morning, I was roused from my sleep by my lady trying to unlock me. I was a little confused so I asked her what was happening. She grabbed me by my nuts and led me to the bathroom where we had a shower, the whole time she was fondling and stroking my nuts and penis. My penis was throbbing hard but she told me I’m not to touch myself, and made me go down in between. I brought her to a climax and we returned to my bed, when she asked me if I wanted in. My answer to her question was an immediate affirmative. As I was trying to enter her she grabbed my junk and told me, that I’ll to ask her for permission, before shooting my load to which I promised. The pounding was deeply satisfying and I was trying hard to prolong it. Still it did not take too long before I knew I was close to unloading. I slowed down and asked her if I could cum, to which she said yes but only if I would surrender the key to her for the next week. Coming so close to cumming after more than 2 weeks, I was ready to surrender my soul just to be allowed release. I told her yes and with the nod of her head, I shot my load and collapsed on her body. Strangely, I was feeling deeply emotional post orgasm, we cuddled for a long time and I couldn’t help but started crying. My junk has been locked back in where it is supposed to be, and the key will not be returned to me tonight, till the end of the week.

 

Throughout the day after having been allowed access into the “V”, I’ve been feeling a little out of whack, I can’t describe the feeling. I did some gyming in the early evening and it was decided that I did not require unlocking, since I’ll be working my upper body. We decided on a fanciful restaurant and it was in the midst of dinner, my lady asked if there is something bothering me. Since I couldn’t explain exactly how I was feeling, I attributed my general “disinterest” to fatigue.
Then came the words of wisdom from my lady. “Fidelity is about your ability to remain unwavering, it is about your steadfastness in resisting what you desperately need.”
I was feeling a lot better by the time we had to leave, even as I was saying my goodbye to my lady and my key.
This lady never fail to amaze me.

 

It is strange I went from being an overly excited animal during the pounding, bringing me to an orgasmic climax during ejaculation, to an emotional mess followed by a state of disinterest. Too much happening before I could grasp what was happening.

 

5th day of continuous lock up post PIV/orgasm. Hoping to be granted another PIV. What used to be routine now has become a privilege and an uncertainty.

 

She is definitely way ahead of me. It is ironic that I was the one who suggested this. But clearly with little understanding.
I have realised and come to the acceptance that in order for this to work out, I have to trust in her judgment, and try not to resist. Neither should I be trying to influence her decision in the way she manages my chastity (aka topping from the bottom).
I must say tho’ that what we are doing has deviated a little bit from what this was originally meant to be. But I’m kind of fine with it.
Well all is good and easy to say till my horns and desires hit. They hit me hard and changes my thoughts, and whenever this happens, I often find it hard to submit.
One question tho’, would begging be a form of manipulation - a subtle way of trying to “top from the bottom”? I’m still undecided on this.

 

Thanks! I wasn’t too certain about it but was feeling desperate enough to have to attempt begging. Just once I did it, last weekend, quite subtly. Well I never had to use the word “please” in the past (prior to my caging) to secure my dick an entry. Long story short, entry was denied that evening, but was granted the morning after.

 

Well I guess I was fortunate to have been granted access, and was permitted to complete what I was allowed to begin. It was my first PIV/cum after more than 2 weeks of chastity. It has been a mind blowing journey, it is ever evolving, we have a long way to go, and I must say this is a lifestyle I love as much as I hate.

 

I guess it is all about training to wait for the rewards of delayed gratification. When I finally grow up, I might learn to be able to exercise more self control, so as to reap the rewards of my patience.

 

It was a “no go” last night, despite my pleadings and my kisses. My lady has decided that we will be abstaining from all physical intimacy, this Holy Weekend. I must have missed the memo, on us becoming religious. I was hoping for some action over this long weekend, but now it seems even the unlocking of my penis is not going to happen.

 

So the only action I’ve been granted today is nothing more than having my junk unlocked for a good wash. 15 mins in the shower and it is locked back into where it belongs.

 

Fact: Late last night, I did grind my caged junk against my lady’s back. Fact: I did try to “explain” that since it was past midnight, that it was Easter Sunday and that it was no longer the penitential season, that it was now a feast day. She was visibly annoyed and in response, she said she attended catechism classes like I did and she did not need to be receiving catechism lesson from me in bed. Stop and No was her answer which was followed by a rebuke in which she said, that my “pissy attitude” this weekend was neither penitential nor was it festive, and that I should stop trying to play priest, while lying naked in bed trying to ask for sex.

Major burn…

Nothing much happened today. I went to the gym (without asking to be unlocked) in the morning, and we met for lunch and decided to chill at her place after that. Watched some Netflix and then it was dinner she prepared.

During dinner I apologised for my “pissy attitude” this weekend and for what I did last night. Although my apology was accepted with a kiss and the sweetest smile she gave me this weekend, she said it is time for change.

Phase 2 of Road Map

1. I will no longer be unlocked for the night.
2. The key to my lock will remain with her at all times.
3. I will be keeping with me an emergency key, which for now will be sealed in an envelope with her signature taped over on the outside.
4. Permission to be unlocked for sports, certain exercises/workouts or for any other reasons/special circumstances might be granted. Arrangement to facilitate the unlocking and unlocking conditions to be worked out.
5. Consequences for bad attitude, failings and non-compliance will now be in terms of days I be denied.

Massive changes I have agreed to if you ask me. She’s thought it all out.