Real life chastity

How was my day? Well it's 6pm and I am just writing, so it was busy at work! Mistress and i did not play yesterday or this morning, sad face. There go my expectations again. I know I told her that I didnt expect us to play everyday, but part of me wants to. I will say that any affection from her seems huge to me now. If she rubs my chest or even purposefully kisses me or anything really, works for me, it doesn't have to be sexual. Even though I'm constantly thinking about it. Today is the first day I haven't been super horny all day. I think in part to working outside all day and my butt is not being nice to me at the moment. My horny/frustration scale is probably a 3/2. I've been consciously doing tasks specifically so mistress doesnt need to worry. Making sure dinners done, rubbing her feet, coffee, lunches for tomprrow. More on that later I'm sure. I have to get us walking, that's all there is to it. Maybe we should get up early ugh, I don't want to, but I know it's way high on her list and she specifically told me to get us walking. She stopped turned around and made eye contact with me when she told me. It has to happen!!!! Were going on a 3000 mile motorcycle trip and she wants to be in better shape beforehand. The selfish part of me really wants her to use me somehow, a spanking, making out, edging, something, but I know it's not my decision and I have to be good with that. Til tomorrow.