Rachels Trip

Today i recieved a little package :valentine-present:in the mail from Mistress Michelle. It contained the cutest pair of knee high socks. The kind with a place for each individual toe, they are black with little red and pink hearts going up the legs, pictures to follow at a later date. i was so happy inside i couldn't wait to put them on and show them to Mistress. Mistress had me dress earlier in the day for my day of house cleaning at home. i slected a pleated knee-length skirt and a white turtle neck sweater and my knee high boots. When i put on the socks though they didn't go very well with what i was wearing so i immediately changed into my short denim skirt with 2 petticoats underneath and sticking out the bottom to make it puffier and more sissy like. Then i sent MM an instant message and waited while folding some laundry. It wasn't long till she popped up. i turned on my cam so she could see HER sissy. i was on :character0100:. i felt like a 13 year old kid inside. It is when i feel these feelings that i most realize i should have liberated myself years ago, how much happier i would have been in my life if i had. Then again being 54 and feeling like a 13 year girl ain't half bad. Who am i trying to kid it is freggin GREAT to feel like this :anim_26: Amazing that something so small and inexpensive can make me feel like she spent a million dollars on them.

Thank You Mistress:valentine-heart-loc:valentine-mechanica i picked these just for you:love0063:
YOUR sweetpea
rachel

 

YOUR sissy thinks she would prefer a flogger Mistress besides you already have put a mark on my heart do you really need to put one on my sissy candy ass?

Goddess Jen

i teared up writing it. Us saps have to stick together ya know.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

It's one 1 and 4 days until i leave for MM and ricks. Time is dragging now and the days seem 48 hours long. i am thinking that the ticker below my posts is broken as it is not moving nearly as fast as it should. Ms Emma perhaps you or pet could look into this.

Ms Emma was it really necessary to send Mistress Michelle that new flogger just before my trip? i thought you liked me. Then again maybe you do and that is why it arrived when it did. Thank you, curtsy.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

This is weather girl rachel smith reporting for WCHASTE-TV.

The snow came in later then expected and didn't look like it was gonna amount to much. When i went to bed last night my driveway was barely covered. Low and behold when i woke this morning at 5:30 there was about 15 inches, arggghhhh and we here at WCHASTE-TV are predicting another 5 to come today. The wind is picking up now and we are predicting winds in the neighborhood of 25 to 35 miles/hour. i will have to tie myself to the snowblower so i don't end up in Deleware with my friend susie.

This has been rachel smith in a small town northwest of Philadelphia, PA. reporting for WCHASTE-TV

 

Mistress Michelle had to go to town early today so i didn't get to talk to her this morning. On my days off Mistress usually tells me to dress to do my chores around the house. Since i didn't get to talk to her this morning i thought i would surprise her while she was out running her errands. i needed to get gas for my snowblower. Now i have been out as Rachel at MM's quite a few times but i never do it around home cause this town is just to damn small. Being i thought Mistress could use a nice
:gift-060:from the stress she has been having with bert's trip not going well with the snow storm and all, not getting home till late last night and having to get up early to do her errands i got dressed as she would have me do. i picked out my white turtle neck sweater, my gray pleated skirt, black & white frilly panties, black hose and my black boots. i was feeling like a rincess:. i then started looking through the closets for a coat, rachel doesn't own one, but low and behold i found a nice black winter coat in the closet that my wife can no longer wear but it fit rachel perfect. Then came :gift-060:the part. i sent MM a text message saying RACHEL was out getting gas for the snowblower. While i was getting gas the guy in the booth was looking at me every time i looked in his direction. i thought you go girl, he thinks you are HOT:jumping0039:. So feeling pretty confident i thought i need a couple things from the grocery store that is right next to the gas station. So rachel thought what the hell let's really make Mistress' day and go to the store while we are out. Now you have to understand the way the store is set up i was gonna have to walk the length of it inside either on the way in or the way out. i opted for on the way out. i only needed two things coffee,for me, and a box of cereal for Sherry. The problem is the self check out lanes and the items i needed are at the opposite ends of the store. i always use the self check out lanes when i am dressed so i don't have to talk to anyone as i don't talk like a girl very well. Well wouldn't you know it i rang up the coffee and the machine said please wait for assistance. The girl there said move your purse and gave me a nice smile, i just smiled back not saying a word. On the way out though she thanked me for shopping there and wished me a nice day. i couldn't just ignore her so i looked at her smiled and in my best girl voice said thank you and you have a nice day too. She just smiled at me and i started the long walk across the front of the store. No one really even noticed rachel except for one guy that looked me up and down and smiled at me. On my way home MM rang me up and ask me what cha doin rachel? i could tell from the tone of her voice she had read my text and she knew full well what HER sissy was doing. i think she just wanted to hear it from the horses mouth. So i recounted my trip with her and we made small talk for a bit then she had to go and get back to her errands. She did tell me she was happy with HER sissy and how far i have come since meeting her and rick. They give me so much positive reenforcement that i just enjoy making them happy in return for the happiness they have given me.

So Mistress you and rick have a happy Valentines Day :Love6: :Love3: you both.

YOUR sweetpea
rachel

P.S. rachel is now going for a nice bubble bath with Mistress' permission for giving her a nice surprise.

 

Delay in departure

Due to unforeseen circumstances my trip to MM's has been delayed. i will now be impatiently waiting till the 6th of Mar which is almost another whole month. i was quite :sad0064: when MM gave me the news but now realize it is for the best. MM is not happy about it either but it was out of her control. So i figure it this way, it gives me 19 more days of anticipation and while anticipation is not as good as being there it is still nicer then not knowing when you will get back the next time.

See it's not as bad as i thought as it has gotten quite a bit shorter just since i started writing this. When i started i said it was almost another month but now that i have actually counted the days it is only 19 days, not even 3 whole weeks. See you soon MM and you too rick.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

Ms Rob do you own an eraser? lol.All kidding aside if you do please don't use it.

Well i was looking forward to helping too but it will be better in March.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

Just an update

My wife and i last had sex on Dec, 23. i had been locked up since then being out only a few times for a shave. The last time for that was 25 days ago Jan, 20th. my reason for this was to be in a really submissive mode for MM. In this time there was nothing no teasing, no kitty licking or petting. It seemed she just had no interest at all. Which was fine by me as it seemed my plan was coming together. i was supposed to leave for MM's on Wed, the 17th. Well on Sun. the 15th when i got home from work sherry decided she wanted some penetrative sex from MM's sweetpea. i immediately thought crap and a couple other expletives that i am not supposed to use:mad0054:. Being the creative sissy that i am at times i ask sherry if i could use a black rubber, Trojan extended pleasure, she said yes so i went to get one and the anbesol. i applied a liberal amount and put on the condom. By doing this i thought sherry can have her sex and i can still save myself for MM. All went well and i did not have an orgasm but sherry had her sex, BIG PHEWWWW.

Monday morning before sherry got up i figured all she wanted to do was make me have an orgasm before i went to MM's :mad0235:. i was still out of my 3k so i started first thing putting on anbesol. i got up about 2 hours before sherry and had applied it 3 or 4 times before it was time to wake sherry. Sure enough when i woke her for work she told me straight away she wanted more:anim_43:. She DID NOT WANT more she just wanted to make me cum. i really did not want this and couldn't even get hard, i thought i don't know what that's all about but i am ok with it. Then she sucked on my nipples for a couple minutes as she knows how much i enjoy that. Well that was all it took and i became aroused as usual. She grabbed my sissy dick and inserted it. i thought i hope this anbesol works. Needless to say it didn't and i orgasmed in a couple minutes.:mad0233: CRAP and those other words again. It wasn't a mind blowing orgasm most likely do to the anbesol and has definitely put me more on the edge just wanting another:jumping0046:.

Now the worst part of this is she told me later that night when we were talking about it that yes she just wanted to make me cum before i left for MM's and that she WILL do it again before i leave on the 6th of Mar.:mad0260: Crap yet again. Why does this bother me so you may ask. Here is why. MM always sends me home all horned up and sherry and i always have some mind blowing sex when i return. i feel it would be the least she/i could do for MM to send me there just once the way i return. Not that MM and i have sex that is NOT an option as i have written before here. i just wanted to be in a super submissive mode when i got there. What i found out was quite an interesting tid bit. After not being touched or touching her in any sexual way since before Christmas i was not all that horny anymore and MM's POI's hardly bothered me in the mornings anymore. This morning was a completely different story. i was hard this morning like i had not been in a long time and when i was awakened at 345 by the pain it was 100 times worse then it had been lately. i couldn't go back to sleep, so i just laid there and thought about MM and how i have come to enjoy the pain MM has always told me i would. Anyway i laid there for about 15 minutes till i just couldn't take it any longer and was considering waking sherry to ask her for the key. Then a thought came to mind. i certainly wouldn't wake MM if i was with her so as much as it hurt i got up and hobbled to the living room to have a smoke and get mind mind off of it so things would settle down and i could go back to sleep. That worked and i laid down on the couch and fell back to sleep. Then at 647 it started all over again when i woke up. Once again my thoughts went directly to MM and how much i enjoy my time spent with her and rick:character0100:.

So it looks to me having an orgasm wasn't as bad as i had envisioned as it has got me back to a more submissive mode then i was in before. sherry's plan has backfired and now i can't wait until she does it again before i leave in March. What else this has shown me is though sherry says she likes MM and rick i am beginning to see this is not the case and she is just being vindictive and selfish. It could be so much fun if she really did like MM and she would control, torment, and tease me with MM's help. sherry however wants nothing to do with all this and she showed her true feelings this week.

Done ranting now.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

Sorry Goddess Jen and susie i didn't see either one of these posts till today.

Goddess Jen thank you but as i said the anticipation of going gets me going so at worst i get some more of that.

Sister Susie or hubby not sure which, guess that all depends on what you are wearing,lol. i was all gassed up and ready to go and just so you know the brakes are good and the tires fair but i won't be driving a hot rod lincoln, though i will be taking one along-a hot rod that is,lol. And actually the tires are brand spankin' new.

MM's sweetpea
rachel

 

Thank you Mistress Emma, it only got me down for a day or two then when i realized how on edge it put me again i was happy it happened.

Agreed as i am sure MM will have something up her Mistress skirt ummmmm sleeve, lol.

Yes but not against MM, me yes MM NO.
And thank you for the hug.

i guess i shouldn't complain too much as at least she told me i could go.

MM's sweetpea
Your friend
rachel

 

i knew i could count on you Mistress :anim_37:.

Yes Mistress. The reason i say that is because she makes 3 times what i do so she gets a big say in how it is spent.

i feel the same Mistress. Love you.

YOUR sweetpea
rachel

 

susie q said

susie dear if it was just about having sex i wouldn't have a problem with that. As i said in my post though there was no intimate contact since Dec. and i MEAN NOTHING. Now all of sudden it's 3 days before i was to depart and she all of a sudden wants to get laid, i ain't buyin' that. Then the next day when she told me she would do it again before i left in March i knew that was the one and only reason.

i agree i should do better w/ this and a lot of times think about how i would feel if she was the one to bring this up and i was vanilla.

MM's sweetpea
Your friend
rachel

 

Riki my friend as i said in your thread it wasn't the penetration that bothered me as i do enjoy that and is something i never would want to give up completely, it was the orgasm part. She had 3 orgasms on Sunday night while i had none. What i did have was the happiness and satisfaction of serving her needs while putting mine off. Monday morning was the same she had 2 orgasms before i had mine and she could have stopped me there and sent me to MM's on the "edge" of a cliff as high as the top of Mount Everest which is how MM sends me home.

Now that i think about it maybe this is my need, to give her what she needs in the way of orgasms while not having one myself. That act just makes me so submissive wanting to have an orgasm but it not being allowed i will do almost anything if it means i MIGHT be allowed one.

After no sexual contact since Dec. i was not even horny anymore it was like i was locked and forgotten and getting out wasn't even a possibility. The edge was gone and for the most part so was my submissiveness. Tease and torment me, suck my nipples, have me perform oral, rub your feet when i am at my most submissiveness i will do anything you want but i need some touching in order to keep me there. It's the old carrot on a stick thing but if you take the carrot off the string the horse will not follow blindly. i don't however need this from MM as from day one i knew that was not an option, penetration i mean. The dynamic i have with MM is one of servitude but she does touch me in other ways. Sometimes mentally sometimes physically but it is touch all the same.

i hope this explains why i feel the way i do.

Our time together only got delayed not cancelled. How much fun it would have been to get snowed in with Mistress Michelle and rick and Mistress Rob and yourself. Ahhhh what sissy dreams are made of.

MM's sweetpea
your friend
rachel