I had talked with my KH after our last weekly punishment spanking that I felt confused by what seemed like a light punishment in light of my actions. She agreed and said she was often confused by this and usually ended up punishing me based on her mood. So when she was angry about something that just happened on a week where I was good, I might get punished thoroughly, but on a week where I was naughty I got off easy if she just wasn't in the mood. I suggested in addition to keeping a list that I should assign a number of strokes for common mistakes (i.e. not doing a chore) and she give me number of strokes for the odd occurrence. We started with 5 strokes for simple mistakes and got as high as 30 strokes if I was naughty enough to give myself an orgasm. This last week I snuck up behind her in the garage and goosed her. Scared the crap out of her and that added 10 strokes. So today I tallied my list and had hit 55. Keep in mind my prior high was 30. I was scared. She had me prepare our bedroom against sound and prying eyes, layout her spanking implements and even put on a gag which was new for us. Just before I put the gag on I told her I was scared and she replied "you better be". With the gag in place she ordered me to bend over the bed and picked up her favorite wooden spoon. She went after me in series of 10. The first 10 were on the left cheek and I was able to count them. The next 10 were on the right cheek and I was still enough in control to keep track. When she went back to the left cheek the pain became intense enough that I started to lose track of where she was in her cadence. Back to the right and I was a drooling, squealing mess. She paused at 40 and for a moment I thought she might be done and then she did the final 15 in one solid run switching back and forth from cheek to cheek. I'm not even sure how I weathered the last 15. When she was done she threw her spoon on the bed and said "Look what you did to my spoon". It's a flat spoon. more of a spatula and the head was cracked clean in half. I removed my gag and kissed her feet apologizing to her and thanking her. She told me to put everything away, tidy up the room and go to work. For those not into punishment I'm sure this seems odd. I hate and fear the punishments at the time of punishment, however the post punishment submissive high is astounding. Right now I would do anything she told me to do, no questions asked. When she is strong the way she was today, I feel loved and looked after. Thank you so much Mistress for all that you do all the time and especially what you did today.