She made me clean the bathroom today while locked, and in a humbler. And scrub the tub. Then while in the humbler and locked still, she gave my 6 really hard thwacks that actually stirred survival mode, and it was not the flight, the other one. Then while still humbled but unlocked, she had me to on all 4s and began a milking with a steel prostate massager, which had minimal success, then she was "done with me." I was allowed to remain uncaged for 2 hours where I was allowed to edge. Then my new plug arrived at the door - a square peg toys happy hour. Biggest toy I own now. She granted me permission to try and insert it. I had to sit on the thing, but in it went, and I immediately came accidentally. I confessed and she is not upset with me, but will use that to hold leverage over me. After all of this I am feeling rebellious. I expressed this to her and she did immediately told me to put a plug in, and get into lockdown mode, where I attach a strap on harness to my cage to hold it tighter in place. I am in lockdown mode now trying to have this intense energy wash off of me so I can return to being submissive and obedient. Had to get all of that off of my chest.
Very exciting scene the Humbler sounds like it can be a very cruel and effective way of controlling you. I am curios what does survival mode mean
That was quite a session of events and I can see how it would evoke your feeling of intense energy, but your mistress was very wise to immediately relock and plug you after your confession of rebellious feelings , it will help you channel your energy into positive thoughts of submission to her control over you , By doing this she is showing you that she is in control and rebellion of any form is not an option for you . Total submission to a mistress takes time to accept but it sounds as though you have the perfect Lady to show and keep you in your place which is under her guidance and control
"Thank you sissybitch," was my mistress's response to you, after I read your post to her. I thank you too, for your thoughtful and productive insights.
You are both most welcome , and I would like to thank you and your Mistress for sharing your experiences , I find them interesting and exciting to read , good luck and best wishes for your future journey
You seem to think you have no say as a sub. Call 911 and have her arrested. No one is kept or dominated against their will except in fantasy stories. So either you like and permit it, or it is felony sexual assault. After 47 years in what became extreme S&M, I know how it should work in a safe and sane way. You should never be brought to anger because it can cause you to actually attack your domme. Use your safe word and establish limits. No one is a real slave even though many like to pretend they are online. A good domme would not let what you say happened, happen. The sub has all the power, not the domme. A domme cannot do a thing to a sub without their permission and god help any domme who does that to me. I will attack them and call the police and file civil charges. My dommes all played in a safe and sane way with a safeword and discussion of my likes, dislikes and limits.
You are a unique individual. You are cut from a different cloth than anyone I know. Don't get me wrong that's a good thing some people need someone to help protect them.