Part 4 ~ Putting the "FUN" in DysFUNctional...

Bridget... thank you for your precious comments. I'm always delighted when you post in my Journal. :bigsmile:

curious... lol, you are a horny little devil lately aren't you!

Jimi... As ever, you think too much! Don't worry about the Xboxes, we're all addicts in this house, we have 3. :tongue: If it was interfering with my sex life I would be upset, but it's all part of our R&R.

I fully appreciate what you are saying about needing to lock pet up and whether or not he is masturbating... At the moment he is "all cummed out" so I doubt he will masturbate, especially given that he is not feeling very horny lately :sad:

I do want him locked up from time to time, even if he is seeing to my needs. I want to torment him for my own personal pleasure. I want to tie him up and suck him to the edge of distraction, make love to him with a strap-on and then leave him, frustrated, to calm down and lock him back up again.

Don't ask me why! I didn't used to feel like that!

Last night was a slow night. No sex for poor me. pet is distracted by the thought of starting college today and still isn't feeling particularly horny. I did snuggle and kiss and give my usual "I'm horny" look. He giggled and seemed a bit worried, so I didn't pounce on him. He obviously realised I have been happily seeing to his release and I have had none. I'M SO DARN HORNY! But me being me, when he came over to "deal with matters" I just couldn't.

If I'm going to have sex, or be serviced, I want it done with passion, not with guilt! So last night I was happy to settle down to a good night's sleep, my time will cum!

pet is out of the house today, and one of my adorables is back to school today, so it will be a little quieter. Not sure if my husband plans to grace us with his presence today. I've asked him to let me know his schedule for tomorrow so I can book a test-drive in for the car.

*Sigh* I'm so horny. :sad:

 

curious44.... a gift for you.....





























:sex021: enjoy!!!!

Well I'm off to bed, it's only 8pm and it's not for a good reason! I'm just a bit fed up. Cold is still hanging around and kids were playing up before they went to bed.

I've had a lovely day though. Busy shopping this morning, baking cakes with the girls at lunchtime (do NOT tell the Mummy Mafia!) and generally pottering about.

Hubby and I are going to test drive my dream car tomorrow. He is being very nice and friendly, and it all seems a little bit odd. I'm expecting him to drive it round, say "that's really nice, and no you can't have it". We'll see.

Don't really feel very sexy at the moment. A bath would be nice, but our light needs fixing... although there is candlelight I suppose. *sigh* Maybe I'll get pet to tie me up and do what he wants if he's feeling frisky, that should get me going! :sex023::slut:

 

Only your sense of humour... LOL.

Jimi, I was quite impressed with myself until this evening. Apparently "happy and horny" goes to "miserable and horny" quite rapidly and without warning.

It's 12.30 am here and I've come downstairs to stop a big argument with me saying hurtful things.

I wasn't horny when I went to bed (ok, I was, but... whatever!) pet was on the XBox but I decided not to pester him and waited for myself to fall asleep.

I didn't sleep well, and every time pet moved or got up I knew he had. At no point did he try and cuddle me... probably being understanding that I wanted sleep - my own fault, I agree.

Don't know why I feel so stroppy, and denied, and a bit taken advantage of. I'm feeling very sympathetic towards all of you... I don't know how you do it!

I just need to refocus my horny self tomorrow. I'm probably just tired.

 

Well it's been a pretty rocking day here today! :xd:

I got up early (felt like rubbish, having been up at 1 am unable to sleep!) but was spurred on by the fact that hubby and I were going to test drive the car I have been LUSTING over for the past week or so.

It's a Midnight Black Kia Sedona, 7 seater, proper family car BUT... it's cooooolllll.... electric doors, mummy mirror to keep an eye on the kids, personal air conditioning zones, blacked out windows (I know, this is all probably standard in the US!) so for me it's a sexy mummy cum Mistress type car.

I've not been getting my hopes up because, lets face it, hubby and I are separated, he pays all the bills and gives me a heft maintenance on top.

I thought it was worth the effort of getting dressed up so I did the works... stockings, suspender, clingy jumper and my brand new, red, fuck-me shoes!

Hubby was in a good mood when he arrived, and off we went to the garage.

In my excitement, I jumped in the passenger seat of the new car before the dealer had driven it out to the front, where it's easier to drive from, so he jumped in beside me and said cheekily "hey... shall we make a run for it!". I replied "sure..." and gave him my best smile. He then asked me if I had "worked my magic" on hubby, and I said I hoped so. He jumped out and talked hubby through the boring boy stuff!

You've got to wonder what the guy thinks. He's seen us through 2 cars, so he knows who I'm supposed to be with, but a week ago I turn up with pet and baby, looking at a new car and say "all I need to do is convince my other other-half that I need it", and turn up today with hubby to test drive!

The test drive went well, I was very well behaved and tried not to be overly excited or pushy. When we went back to the garage I fully expected hubby to say he wanted to think about it, but no, straight into the deal!

The dealer got me a coffee and we all chatted about oil, business, war in Georgia, etc, whilst filling in the details of the finance "are you married? single?" "errrrr.... married" we both reply.

Long story short (or not, as usual)

I'M GETTING A ROCKING, PIMPED UP MUMMY-MOBILE!!!!!!!

We pick it up next week and hubby is driving it away for the weekend to take the kids to his parents... I don't care - kinky weekend for me and the car is MINE MINE MINE when he gets back!

I'm in a very good mood, so here's some more peekaboo shots for you.

 

Thank you, I absolutely feel I should make more effort to dress this way more often! That will be easier once I'm back at University and not in mummy-mode!

Well I had a terrible night's sleep.

Also has quite a few nightmares. Pressure dreams, where you have to do something by a certain time and everything that could gets in your way? It's because I have a lot to do and I'm a little bit disorganised. LOL!

Woke up with a thumping headache at 5am, took some fabulous pain killer from America, and overslept!

Now in a bit of a mad panic. Swimming with baby this morning, looking after next door neighbours little boy too. pet has his first proper day at college today, and I need to tidy up MASSES before our guests come over to watch the Big Brother final tonight!

Busy day... not much time for play. :sad:

 

Thanks xcite... we currently have an 03 green one, which was ok, but I wanted a new one. :xd:

Kias are good cars, very reliable... and this one is sooooooo sexy! :tongue:

 

Well, the house is now reasonably tidy! Good enough for company as long as they don't open any doors. LOL :xd:

I need to jump in the shower, find something to wear (which could take hoursss.....) and then enjoy our guests' company with Big Brother!

REX TO WINNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!​

And I'm feeling so darn horny too... really horny... really feel like some fun! Hope I'm not too tired when guests leave. :nerd:

 

Well, bollocks to Big Brother. Seriously... what the fuck was going on there?! (I know you don't know what I'm talking about, but I'm going to ramble anyway!)

How can the most boring, most fake woman on the planet win it? Mary Fucking Poppins. Eugh. Dumb as fuck - this woman is supposed to be a teacher!

Blah.

Even more blah is my reaction to going to bed. I just didn't want to be with pet. He accused me of putting up barriers in the last couple of days and I see his point... but I didn't get here on my own.

I'm now in a resentful stage. I've done my best to please pet, given as much as I could, and he has just taken, taken, taken.

When I questioned this, he said he told me he hadn't been feeling horny lately. (Horny enough for hand-jobs, blow-jobs, quickies, etc, just not horny enough to see to my needs. And on the occasion he has started down that route, it's so obvious that he's doing it "because he has to" that there is just no point.)

Before we entered the D/s and chastity way for doing things (or tried to) our sex life was pretty perfect. Very intimate, lots of cuddling, kissing, kinky sex and vanilla sex. Now there is just nothing at all. I figured if we dropped all the kinkiness, we would go back to how it was.

pet (to my mind) has become the standard male (sorry guys!) Lazy, selfish, taking sex when it's offered but doing nothing in return, and masturbating when it's not offered. This is not the life I signed up to with pet.

Again, the only way I can see this turning round is if I suck it up (for the millionth time) and put myself back into horny, sexy, but willing servant mode.

To be honest, I just don't have the capacity to do this. My energy levels do not allow me to.

He may help around the house and help with the kids, but if my personal and sexual needs are not met, then my battery runs low...

Hope that makes sense. I'm feeling really low, so low I can't even be bothered to throw a wobbly.

 

In some ways it's easier to overcome physical problems rather than psychological ones... you can't "fake" horny in the same way that you can "fake" a hardon by using a strap on... if you see what I mean?

I just need to be more patient and understanding.

I treated pet to a new Xbox game today, and then he persuaded me to get one he knew I would like... so maybe that will help a bit.