Pantysexual Dolly's Chaste Conditioning Experiment

week 3--sissysex + sissymaid, last day!

What an amazing last day for pantysexual dollyanne's chaste sissy conditioning experiment! Dolly ended with sissy sex and sissy maid stimuli accompanied by an audio mashup of gender transformation and cock sucking tracks, and, this is what happened:

Dolly was on edge this morning, anticipating a possible cummie finish, but wondering what to do, how to do it, or whether to do it! When dollyanne woke up she began rubbing her nipples right away, and her little clitty engorged it's chastity cage. Miss D's "Reward" stimuli only made things worse as dolly was shaking and having trouble holding her mobile device while viewing it! Sissy sex and sissy maid stimuli were a perfect combination of images as they went from frilly to slutty and back again, just like dolly!

Pantysexual dolly was almost in a state of panic and decided to make her second pass through the images right away after the first pass to speed things up, rather than waiting for the night session! While going through them, dolly's spouse came in! She announced that she was going on an early morning shopping trip to take advantage of a sale and would leave dolly alone to shower and dress!

Being alone with her stimuli and knowing she could take her reward was almost more than pantysexual dolly could bear! She began imagining things, hallucinating really, that she was somewhere else other than her bedroom. Remembering Miss D's advice to choose one stimulus, dolly chose this one:

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This was powerful for pantysexual dolly because she's been in that place, sitting on a filthy bench with cum splattered on the floor, walls, and even on the video monitor! She could easily imagine herself there, dressed as a sissy slut whore, sitting with the door open, her mini-skirt hiked up, her lipstick smeared, and her hose torn!

Dolly was in bed dressed all in pink, with pink ruffled panties, pink top, and pink mini! And, of course, her pink chastity was still intact! Dolly debated whether to remove it or not, but things happened too fast. Dolly's legs wrapped around a body pillow as she rubbed her nipples, then TWO body pillows to simulate a man, then a third and forth pillow to simulate a really BIG man. Dolly's legs were spread in the air, her red toenails glistening in the morning sunlight as she rubbed her nipples furiously and looked at the image imagining what was happening! Then, dolly decided to add another image--she added this:



Now, dolly was going between them, her sissy gurl brain spinning out slutty scenarios of being captured, ravished, and even taken downtown to walk the streets. She would've added the streetwalker image, and a cocksucking image, but things were moving rapidly. Two months of build-up! Dolly felt the stirring in her tessies, her clitty straining the limits of the cage, and goosebumps on her quivering legs, then everything going quiet as she moaned and had a squirtie in her panties through her chastity.

It was just a little squirtie, but a BIG little squirtie, and dolly was wearing her maxipad, though that didn't keep her rufflies from getting wet!

When dolly calmed down she jumped up to see if she could capture a picture of the event! Dolly pulled down her panties and cum was leaking out onto the floor and dolly's rug! Dolly got some on her fingers and licked it off, but wanted to get a picture, so she didn't scoop it up just yet. Dolly's legs were still rubbery, her hands shook as she tried to work the camera, afraid that she was going to get cum on the lens.

Dolly took several pictures which turned out blurry because of her shakiness, but finally got a couple, which aren't the best, but are somewhat clear:



It may not be obvious, but if you look close, you can see some of the dripping!

Even after taking these pictures, dolly was still horny and rubbed her nipples in front of the bathroom mirror! She hadn't removed her chastity, so the squirtie was more like a milking than a full-blown cummie, which always leaves her horny!

So, here dolly sits, still chastised, somewhat, but not fully satisfied, still awash with sissy porn images going through her mind, having had a shower, AND a bubble bath to celebrate! arty-073:

Dolly knows she needs to remove her chastity and clean it thoroughly, but she also knows she must immediately re-attach it to stay chaste and horny. Not being in chastity would definitely be too much temptation for pantysexual dollyanne!

Pantysexual dollyanne hopes that Miss D and the control gurls enjoy this account and the control gurls have had equally stimulating experiences! As soon as she recovers, dolly will write up her report to summarize what she feels she has learned from this experiment, and where things may go from here. Pantysexual dolly wants to thank Miss D for indulging and guiding this sissy to a greater understanding of her destiny! Thank You, Miss D!

Now, what to do with all these sissy porn images? Hmmm...

Curtsies and Huggs,:manga_bath:
pantysexual dollyanne

 

Pantysexual Dolly took a bubble bath, :manga_bath: removed her chastity, cleaned it thoroughly, and re-attached it using a small Master Lock. Dolly put the key on her keyring so she will have it with her in case of emergency.

Dolly also went to a smaller "A" ring--the one she thought she would never be able to use. There is no way dolly will accidentally slip out! It's on tight! She just hopes it isn't too tight to turn her tessies as blue as some of the ones in the images!

Being so tightly locked in and having the last stimuli still swimming around in dolly's mind caused her to start leaking immediately when dolly got out of the bath, totally ruining a fresh pair of panties! Even though dolly had her little squirtie, she is still quite horny! Is this a good sign when she may be locked up for who knows how long?

Dolly created a master file containing all of her top stimuli--about 322 in all! Dolly may add to these to create a file with 360 images! Can anyone say, "sissy porn addiction"!

In addition, dolly re-posted the images from the first week's album 1 session, which got deleted to make room for others prior to the Admin extending dolly's image limit. Pantysexual dolly hopes those control sissy gurls who are still as addicted as dolly will enjoy them! :character0114:

Pantysexual dolly is still recovering from her final session, and she is beginning to calm down enough to make her final report. Hopefully, dolly will be able to post her conclusions tomorrow for Your review, Miss D. If not, then this weekend for sure! Dolly has much to think about!

Tonight, dolly will actually get to bed a little earlier! She's been going to bed around 3am, but it's only 1:40am here now, so for dolly that's early! Dolly thinks that being sleep deprived probably contributed to her delirium, much like a prisoner! Which, in some ways, dollyanne was a prisoner of sissy porn for three weeks! Now, maybe forever! You may have noticed pantysexual dollyanne's new avatar with her hands up in surrender to sissy porn!

Curtsey and Huggs,:butterfly:
pantysexual dollyanne

 

Summary of feelings from experiment!

At times, pantysexual dollyanne felt like she was a prisoner being brainwashed--strapped to a table, eyes forced open, straining in her chastity as she was forced to watch extreme sissy porn stimuli after stimuli accompanied by hypnotic audio that wouldnt stop. Not until dolly begged her captors to turn her into a proper sissy gurl, sissy maid, whore, and cocksucker. And, she would have to do it or it would never stop. She was being bimbotized, sissified, feminized, and whore trained. But, after a while, she didnt want it to stop. She wanted to BE the gurls in the images, sucking cock, getting fucked, worshipping cum, being bound and spanked, and of course, being mercilessly cuckolded and forced to clean-up!

At other times, pantysexual dolly giggled at the fun she was having, watching sissy porn and becoming incredibly stimulated. But it came with a price. For one thing, dollyanne was incredibly horny, staying in chastity far longer than ever before, leaking constantly into her pad, and reaching slut delirium much earlier than she thought. And for another, dolly grossly underestimated the difficulty of the task! Sooo many stimuli to be collected and sifted through! Audio to be found and looped! Then there was the task of making hard selections and deleting stimuli to narrow them down to the favorites. At some point they were ALL dollys favorites and she didnt want to let go of any of them! Even loading the files on the device was harder than dollyanne thought it would be. The program loaded .jpg files, but not .jpeg files, for example, and dolly had to do conversions!

But the technical difficulties were nothing compared to the actual conditioning sessions. Finding the time to stimulate herself for an hour a day, selecting and posting the top stimuli and commenting on them, and reporting her feelings, and even staying awake became problematic! Dolly was kept sleep-deprivedstaying up until three in the morning--and craving relief, much like prisoners are when they are being brainwashed! And, dolly was going longer than ever before in her chastity with no relief! Dolly often woke up rubbing her nipples and straining in her chastity furiously knowing full well that she could only go to the edge and no further! The time it took to do this became shorter and shorter until dolly could stimulate herself to the edge in 30 seconds or less! Still, dolly was becoming more and more addicted to sissy porn and looked forward to it every day and night!

Dolly knows that with addictions like cocaine or heroin you have to keep getting more and more of the addicting stimuli to achieve the same effect. You can never get enough, until finally you reach tolerance and the stimuli no longer have a strong effect. Sissy porn, or any kind of porn, is no doubt similaryou need more and more of it, and more extreme, until you reach the point where it doesnt affect you anymore. Dollyanne didnt get to that point in the 3-week experiment and, in fact, wants to keep exposing herself to the stimuli! Dolly created a master file of her top stimuli and downloaded it for use nightly!

Dolly doesn't know what effect this will have, but the constant barrage of sissy porn exposure during the experiment had a strong effect on dollyanne. Here is a summary of how dolly felt about the various types of stimuli with an example of what turned her on the most:

Cuckolding:

This is such a strong fantasy of dollyannes and cuckold party, wives dressing for their Bulls, wives getting fucked by their Bulls while the cuckold watched or listened, and clean-up afterwards were all powerful stimulants! Pantysexual dolly wanted it all! To be a chastised sissy gurl and to be cuckolded to an extreme was very hot to dollyanne and made her strain the limits of her chastity! Dolly was, and still is, highly stimulated by cuckold porn! It may be because dolly feels that with a small clitty and a desire to be sissified, feminized, and sissy-maided, she is natural cuckold material!

Cum Worship:

At first, this was not a particularly strong fantasy of dollyannes, but as the experiment went on, it became one! Dolly found herself wanting more and more cumcum coated cocks, cum facials, mouthfuls of cum, cum-filled pussies to clean up, just more cum splattered everywhere! Perhaps this was a product of slut delirium, but it still lingers, and dollyanne now finds herself drawn more to cum stimuli than she was before!

Pretty Sissies:
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Dolly has always loved, and still loves, pretty sissies! There is something about pink frills, petticoats, ribbons, and bows that dollyanne finds appealing. There has always been in dollyanne a dichotomy between sissy frilly and sissy slutty, and dolly loves the fact that a sweet demure sissy gurl during the day can become a slutty sissy whore at night!

Hard Cocks:

Dollyanne has always been stimulated by images of big hard cocks, and oncein a very embarrassing momentbought an issue of Black Inches at a newsstand. The clerk smirked when dolly bought it, but dolly got a lot of pleasure from it! So, yes, dolly was quite stimulated by hard cocks! However, since her craving for cum had increased, dolly now wanted big cum-spurting cum-covered hard cocks! And, adding cocks that were cuckolding her with cum loads was even better! Dolly could also imagine herself sucking such cocks, making them hard for cuckolding, cleaning up after them, or bringing them to an explosive finish herself!

T-Gurls:

Dolly has always loved looking at t-gurls and has always wanted to be one! However, the more dollyanne studied the t-gurl stimuli, the more dolly realized that she was not really equipped to be a proper t-gurl. With a small clitty, no boobs, and an inability to take hormones, dolly felt she would fall short. Dolly felt her best place was as a sissy gurl on her knees at the t-gurls feet servicing her big cock! Dolly began to feel inferior to most of the t-gurls, seeing them as being her superior. Still, they could teach dolly a lot about makeup, how to look sexy, how to seduce men and suck cock. Dolly felt she could perhaps be an apprentice to a hot t-gurl, serving her as a sissy in training!

Cocksucking:

Dollyanne is a virgin at this and found herself wanting more and more to loose her cocksucking virginity! Studying the hard cocks, the cum-covered cocks, the shemale cocks, while listening to Cock Worship was definitely turning dolly into a wannabe cocksucker! Dolly found herself sizing up men during the dayIs he the one?, Hmmmhow big is he?, Does he want his cock sucked? It was getting to the point where dolly was becoming quite distracted!

Bondage:

Dolly has always loved bondage too and has engaged in self-bondage in the past, but in more recent years had gotten away from it. What dolly found stimulating about it was the tie-in to cuckoldingbeing bound and forced to watch-or humiliationbeing bound for spanking or milkingor perhaps maid trainingbeing bound to learn how to walk properly, or being chained to the toilet until it was properly cleaned. Of course, the biggest bondage stimulant of all was being bound for use as a fuck-toy!

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Summary of Dollyanne's feelings continued...

Chastity:

Dolly is a relatively new convert to chastity and this experiment has convinced her even more that dollyanne should be in chastity constantly! If dolly is out of chastity she begins to lose her motivation for femming, and finds herself so tempted to touch herself in boy mode, which to dolly, should never happen! Chastity is such a strong motivator for dolly! The cb-2000 is one of the more hygienic devices, but still requires removing periodically for cleaning behind the rings and for shaving the hairy clitty, which a sissy should never have! Dolly is wondering how long she can go without removing for cleaning, and is thinking she can easily go a week, and maybe longer. She is also wondering if she should upgrade her device and possibly get a keyholder!

Sissy Sex:

Initially, dollyanne was more drawn to sex between sissies, especially where dolly was in a passive, chastised mode, or oral sex between the sissy and her Mistress. However, the stimuli moved dolly from that to the realization that she could also be pleasing to men in the form of cock sucking or even as a fuck-toy! To be effective with the later dolly would need to make herself sexier and more attractive to men, something that dolly hasnt been focusing on.

Sissy Maid:

Dolly has long wanted to be a sissy maid with a proper maids uniformsexy of courseand heels and hose. Dolly can cook and clean and keep house, so this is a good role for her. What the stimuli showed dolly though, was that the sissy maid duties could go further into sexually pleasing the Mistress and/or Master of the house! It made dollyanne want to be a sexier, more sexual, sissy maidnot just a cook or a laundress!

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Summary of dollyanne's feelings continued...

So, what has dollyanne learned about herself? Merely this: Dolly is a natural frilly chastised sissy gurl/maid/slut/wannabe cuckold/wannabe cocksucker-cumworshiper!

All of this has also made dollyanne want to revisit her New Years Resolutions to see how much progress she has made, since the year is rapidly coming to a close. This is where dolly stands with her goals and her estimate of how they might be graded on progress:

Dollyanne's Sissy Resolutions for 2009:

1. Wear a bra more often--every day if possible. Dollyanne really likes Your idea, Miss D of the daily bra and panty set! This will also encourage dollyanne to walk, gesture, and talk more feminine! **Dolly got two bras: a sports bra and a regular pink bra, but has not been wearing them very often. Dolly also has fallen short on getting matching bra and panty sets. Grade: D
3. Stay locked in chastity as much as possible! Dollyanne is looking forward to experiencing her first real chastity in the cb-2000 and believes she should only be unlocked when a cummie is granted or to clean and shave! **Dolly has been doing very well on this, staying locked most of the time except when she had to be let out to let a rash heal. Otherwise, dolly has been locked most of the year! Dolly would like to upgrade possibly to a cb-6000s, but they dont make it in pink and dolly isnt sure it would be as hygienic as the cb-2000. Grade: B
5. Lose weight and get a more slender, girlie figure. Dollyanne hopes to accomplish this with a regular exercise program including swimming, and would also like to enroll in a group (girlie!) class like Pilates, as Mistress Watchful suggested. **Dolly had a very successful weight loss program at the beginning of the year by using her Virtual Mistress program combined with walking and diet restrictions, but then gained it all back! Grade: D
7. Get high heels and learn to walk in them. Dollyanne has neglected this part of her sissy training and needs to correct that if possible! **Dolly has tried to find heels that fit her, and even tried several pair on recently at a local store, but so far she has not found ones in her big-foot size she can wear. Dolly will have to go online! Grade: F
9. Get a complete sissy makeover. Dollyanne would like to go someplace (like Carlas) and get a complete sissy makeover, learn how to apply makeup, then go out on the town! **Dolly has not done this, but would certainly like to before the end of the year! Grade: F
11. Spend more time outdoors. Dollyanne believes she should get her first tan lines, and consider spending more girlie time in parks, and maybe even play golf en femme from the lady's tees! **Dolly has made a start on tan lines, but still has more to go. Dolly has not played golf in either boy or gurl mode. Grade: D+
13. Suck first cock(s)--For dollyanne to realize her slut fantasies, she needs to experience her first cock sucking--safely, of course! **The chaste sissy conditioning experiment reminded dollyanne of this goal and the fact that she hasnt yet accomplished it. Dolly did get a dildo to practice on, but it turned out to be too large8 and very thick! Dolly needs to get a practical dildo to practice with! Grade: F
15. Go blonde! Dollyanne would like to dye her hair blonde, which dollyanne feels would be more appropriate for a ditzy bimbo slut like dollyanne! **Dolly is close to this, she bought a blonde hair coloring kit on sale and thinks she has her wifes permission to do this. So there should be nothing holding her back! Grade: D
17. Get a proper maid's uniform! Dollyanne still wants that maid's uniform she almost ordered for Christmas and wants to learn how to become a more proper sissy maid! **Dolly shopped for maid uniforms and found them a bit expensive, but she still wants one! Dolly is concerned, however, that her spouse would not allow it, so this may be difficult to accomplish. Grade: F

Clearly, dollyanne has not been doing well on her resolutions! The only thing she has been good at so far is wearing chastity and making lists. Dolly needs to get back on track and have better follow-through! The chaste sissy conditioning experiment guided by Miss D has shown dolly she can accomplish things when she tries and has given her good direction on where she needs to go! The question is, how to motivate herself and accomplish what she needs to rather than just making a list!

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Summary of dollyanne's feelings continued...


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There is no doubt in dollyanne's bimbo mind that if she'd had a Mistress guiding her, much as Miss D guided and encouraged her in the chaste sissy conditioning experiment (thank You sooo much, Miss D!!), she would've done better on accomplishing her goals. So, the answer for dollyanne seems to be more in identifying the process she needs to follow and the circumstance she needs to be in, rather than making a list. (Although a list certainly needs to be made as one needs to have goals, but maybe that is putting the cart before the horse.)

Dollyanne wants to think about this further and continue this report, but ideas that come to mind immediately are:

1. Get a keyholder.
2. Get a Mistress
3. Find a local sissy friend who can help dolly with femming

Dollyanne is not sure how feasible these are and would like to think about this some more since it is already 2am in the morning here and dolly said she wanted to recover some of her sleep! Any suggestions from You, Miss D, or You, Mistress Watchful, or from any of the control gurls, or any others at this point, would be welcome, as dollyanne tries to sort things out!

Curtsey and Huggs,:butterfly:
pantysexual dollyanne

 

Slut Delirium Aftershocks!!

OMG--Is pantysexual dolly still addicted? Is she losing her mind, becoming bimbotized? Dolly's sooo embarrassed! She went through her master file of top stimuli today with the "cock worship" audio! She felt she HAD to! It was like she had no choice! She was pulled to it by an overwhelming desire, as if in a trance. It was sooo powerful--the images, especially the hard cocks were sooo delicious! And, she wanted a squirtie SOOO bad! But she stopped herself--sooo excruciating--it's only been two days! Two days!! Her squirtie clearly wasn't enough. She needs more! Dolly feels she's under a spell. Has she been brainwashed? Is she still in slut delirium? Please, Miss D, Mistress Watchful, anybody, tell dollyanne it's OK to have another little squirtie! Dolly's been a very good gurl! She needs it sooo bad!

Pantysexual dolly immediately dug out her pink sports bra from her secret hiding place and put it on! It was as if she HAD too! A sissy gurl must wear a bra! And dolly is a sissy gurl and she wants to wear it every day! She even VOWED to herself to wear it every day. Does she dare? Will the pink straps show? Dollyanne thinks she can see them in the mirror if she looks close--she is worried. What trouble will she get into?

Pantysexual dollyanne is thinking risky thoughts! She wanted to put her last numbered lock on her chastity so she would stay locked for a long time! She got out her "Dream Blonde" L'Oreal hair coloring system--number 10 lightest blonde, because sissy slave jamie is coloring HER hair blonde and dolly wants to do it too! Does she dare do it? What will her spouse say? How will dolly explain it? OMG! Where is this going? Dollyanne is still shaking--she needs to calm down! Take a shower, a bubble bath, anything! Think rational thoughts again!

Deep Curtsy,:sex021:
pantysexual dollyanne

 

Back to rationality!

Pantysexual dollyanne apologizes for her earlier lack of lucidity. It must have been a slut delirium aftershock for sure! Dolly took a relaxing bubble bath :manga_bath: with bubblegum bath liquid and is back among the rational! Dolly's chastity is still tightly intact and she also slipped her pink sport's bra back on. Dolly will be sleeping in it tonight, in all pink, of course!

Thank you, cindy, for your kind words! Dolly's going to try to get through the night and then see what happens in the morning. If dolly uses the stimuli again--and at this point it is sooo hard not too!--she may suffer yet another slut delirium aftershock!:anim_39:

Dollyanne feels that she needs to digest this experience and figure out what it means regarding her future. Must she, should she, be in constant slut delirium? Dolly would be transformed into a blithering bimbotized dolly for sure!

But, at this point, dollyanne feels relaxed, refreshed, and ready for a good night's sleep in her sports bra and pink lipstick!:manga_snooze:

Curtsey and Huggs,:butterfly:
pantysexual dollyanne

P.S. Dolly also added a brief update to her blog and a little poll on cock/peenie/clitty size if you care to take a look and participate!