My days since signing our agreement have, for the most part, been positive, and getting better as the time passes. I would say that yesterday was the day that I felt closest to myself. Then I have times like today that have not been the best for me emotionally. This is the first time since our agreement signed and cage in our possession that J has travelled out of town for his job. For a particular reason, we were unable to send him out of town locked into his cage. This has made that whole uneasy feeling quickly flooding back into my brain which I’m sure is very frustrating for J as it is for me. Also with this whole process, I’ve been pretty impatient here at the beginning to see and experience many changes. Right now, patience isn’t one of my strong suits. J may wish I would go back to keeping my thoughts and feelings to myself. Well, that did NOT work for me.