We have been together for 17 years, married for 12 and to my astonishment I feel almost as if I never truly loved or appreciated my wife until now. Actually love doesnt describe the deep sense of devotion and servitude I now feel I OWE my Queen. Since discovering BDSM, Female Superiority, Tao Sex and other related topics I am a new person with a very different perspective of marriage, women & sex. As a former womanizer its hard to believe I have these new feelings, so much so it caused me to reflect deeply within myself for some sort of understanding & rationalization. Honestly after reflecting upon my life and reading about the lifestyle it blew me away, for a few days I was in a daze trying to hash it all out. But how could I ignore the truth? My wife was ALREADY the leader of our home even though I made all the money. The kids know it too, Mommy rules our home & family. It was just a matter of me realizing & accepting this and move forward. So I did. As I accepted that fact I suddenly began to see my wife differently. I have always been attracted to my wife, even when she was pregnant. She is a TALL GORGEOUS BLONDE BOMBSHELL and she is funny too. The kind of woman everybody likes to hang out with and be near, she is adored by all. Sexually she is an orgasmic machine, she even ejaculates (more like GUSH!) when she comes. She's a sexual DYNAMO willingly to do whatever to please me. I honestly feel she has given me all she could....and I ????? I realized I could/should do better by and for her regardless of how great her life already is. So...I have assumed ALL daily chores and handling of the children in the evenings. I dont want her to lift a finger...unless she likes. She is a queen and it is my duty to insure her comfort and pleasure. My new sense of devotion & servitude has led me to offer my wife complete control of our lives. I now realize her kind gentle loving nature should never be questioned and that her maternal instincts are always right. She should always be allowed any and every liberty without me questioning anything. Due to my lust (I like porn) and bad habits (daily masturbation) I did what I thought I SHOULD do. I presented my wife the ULTIMATE CONTROL of chastity. I explained to her my rationale but she has yet to enforce it. I think its important SHE believes in her heart chastity is best for me and that she intiate the act. If its in her heart it will become the law of our home, and if its the law of our home it wont just fade away. It will be a real and permanent part of our lives. She did make mention that if we do this (chastity) its for life...and she gave me that look that tells me she f'n means it. Its probably only a matter of time...stay tuned.