While this is not my first post, it is my first attempt at a journal. i guess with the New Year soon upon us, now is as good a time as ever. Back in June of 2008 when i joined this site, i wrote in my profile; my Soul Mate, my Lover. i am living with the most beautiful Woman i have ever met. We are just 4 years into our relationship, but i feel as i have known Her my whole life. She has begun spanking me and She now keeps me in chastity. She is the most beautiful Women i ever met. Well, 1 years later She is still my Soul Mate, my Lover and the most beautiful Woman i have ever met. While we played with chastity on and off over the past year or so, Our relationship has gone through some ups and downs just like most relationships, but there is one issue that keeps us from moving forward. She is divorced, i am separated. We have been together for over 5 years, my ex has made it very hectic for me/Us to begin our life together. I know its my fault for allowing my ex to control the situation and negatively affect our relationship. That is because I hate conflict and will do most anything to avoid it, and now my relationship with my soul mate has suffered. Keyholder and i have lived together for the past 4 years or more. That is until December, 2009, i moved out at Her request so She could get Her thoughts inline and determine what/where She wants to go from here. i in turn am working to correct the past and follow through with the divorce so we can renew our life together. Thats some of our background information, now onto my attempt at a journal. Back in October I bought a CB-6000s locking myself up as She was going to be traveling and away from home, and also hoping She would see my devotion to Her. i understand now how that was ill-advised. i was confusing my/Her love and devotion together with chastity. i remained locked, She knew i was locked and i assume accepted it, as we did not talk much about it. In December when i moved out, my chastity took a new meaning. She has always thought if we broke-up that i was going to run back to my ex. i assured Her, that i did not want or need to return to my ex, that i wanted a life with Her. With me being in chastity, She was comforted in the fact that i would not stray even after i assured Her that She was all i needed and wanted. Jumping forward, on Thursday, December 10th, i went over to our/Her apartment we talked, loved and laughed like we had months earlier. She asked me to stay the night, in bed that night She released me after over 6 weeks of being locked and we made love as if nothing was between us, no issues, no life situations, it was wonderful. We both missed it so much. The next morning She asked me to lock myself back up, I did without hesitation. We have been doing well, even with the stress of the holidays upon us. Again, Saturday night (12/26) She released me, and we made love and again Sunday morning, after which I was locked back-up in our CB-6000s. i use to think Chastity was all about who could be locked up the longest, i now believe that one can be locked 24/7 and still be released when his Keyholder decides She wants intimacy not just sex. Hopefully i did not bore you all, and I will try to update my journal regularly and hope that his_Keyholder reads and adds Her views as well.