My new journal of my experience as a chastity lock man

I laying in bed thinking end of this month I will have went for 90 days with no fluid release. I am honestly at the point were I don't want it. My KEYHOLDER agrees she says a person with that size of dick should never cum. Which is weird because when we started she was worried about the cage causing problems down there. After 6 months she only cares about her sexual satisfaction and me helping her around the house being a more involved husband and father to our two kids.

The chance she gave me recently with the numbing cream was very real on how much she wants the control over me. She was laughing so hard because no mater how fast or hard I stroked it with two fingers all that would fit it would not respond. She wanted to use the permalock from cherry keeper if I was unable to get off but she changed her mind. Due to she might want to see that again. She did add from know on it is my only chance to orgasm and it is the only time I will be free to touch her penis. In a way you are still not touching it there is no sensation. But I would not have it any other way. Every man should be 100% ready to serve there better half and make them happy at all costs. Even if it is never touching your manhood again.

 

Well since we had the locks she had me put one in. It will be removed when she feels like having me use the cream again there will be no set date. I am able to escape this cage but unable to get back in so she will know if I try to cheat. She has hidden the other three locks. If she has me remove the device I will have to drill out the plastic lock but will do so after removing from body. It is very surreal on how much she owns of me. She says she wants a partner not a slave. We share the house hold work which is new I never did that before. As for the chastity what I have learned in the last couple months is helping her more is great. But she has really been being I charge of our sex 100% which i find sexy as hell. I truly do not care if I never get to cum again which I have told her this as long as she is happy and with the size of my penis it would not do the trick anyway and penetration down there still causes discomfort for her.

 

I the end of October i will be orgasm free for 3 months. After the first month I had no issues right up to this last Monday when I was ordered to ise the numbing cream. Know I can't get my head on straight the penis wants to be hard all the time when we go to bed and she gets undress and ready for bed. I don't know if my balls can take any more every thing down there feels like it is going to explode.

 

My love had me take off cage and drill out lock and switch to smaller cage. Put it back on and new permalock.

Before we put the cage on she wanted to play so she had me lay in bed she climbed on top and set on my face hers and my favorite position. We had place a large amount of numbing cream on her penis 1 hour prior. She proceeded to wank on me til I had satisfied her twice when she climbed off she said it never got fully hard and looking at it it was soft and quite red if I could feel it it would of hurt. She was banging on my pubic bone fairly hard.

After locking it back up from now till the end of time her penis will never feel any hand only cage and rubber glove with cream. I was already done with PIV that never gets talked about.

The other thing she mentioned if I ever cheat by any way and have an orgasm or escape cage without permission. Then a PA will be forced then she promises I will not even get the numbing cream play. For the remainder of my time on earth.

 

Just to put this out there.

Not all relationships that are in chastity have anything to do with becoming a sissy. Like mt wife she started and change she wants an equal partnership on the kids and house. Knowvthe bedroom she can't have PIV due to the discomfort. So we talked and decided as partners if she don't need it i don't either that is why for us we want to kill it

 

Well after our last session with the numbing cream I have to ve free for a couple days. She bruised the hell out of her/my penis. have already been told in couple days we will relock and in the near future we will use the cream again. She said she will stroke it how she see fit God I love her

 

Even though she feels bad for the bruises she had me drill little cage free and go back to bigger 9ne and just use the key. So we can check on it. I will stay key locked until well. Then we will continue as normal with the numbing cream she says it is way to funny to quit and if that is what she wants i am all in this stuff is fun.

 

To add a little to this

She also feels someone with that limp.and tiny penis does not deserve to be free.

 

I am so fighting the urge to rip the cage off and jerk off. This morning all I can think about is having an orgasm. It has been 3 months since I have a release. Yes with numbing cream I was allowed to try then a couple days later she gave we a work out. But none of that counts I could not even feel it. I think it made this urge worst I was doing just fine until we used that stuff. I would rather have total denial than that. I know once it is healed down there she will do it again. She said not as hard but she will have fun. We are equals in very part of our life except the bedroom I am totally owned. I know she says I will never feel a warm hand or definitely a warm wet pussy again. For a while I did not believe her but after the last period of time I believe.

After writing this is feel better. I still want to unload a load but if not in the cards I can't do it also I am scared for my dick if I did.

 

Well the wife sent me a message told me to take the key unlock and apply nice coating of cream. She said to we will continue to keep it coated till we go to bed which is usually around 10 pm. Which is 7 hours from now. When you put the stuff on you tend to get hard nut as it works is gets softer and softer. She also told me to apply after it soaked in the first time apply again heavier and wrap in plastic wrap and then put cage on. In a couple hours we will apply more.

 

I think I am in for an interesting night ever since she found this stuff she finds it to much fun to play. She sits on my face while she jerks me not off. I love making her moan only thing that gets me is the laughing last time she could not get it out of flaccid stage.

 

Wanted to add last nite my Wife had me stand naked on the side of the bed. She removed my cage. She started giving me a hand job it had to be less than a minute from soft to hard to explosion. She then said hope you enjoyed that clean up the mess and put the cage back on. I dont get it one second I am told no orgasm for life then in the next week she gives me one. Have to love the life.

 

My KEYHOLDER likes the look of my cherry keeper but she feels that it is to big for me. We have been looking for a couple of weeks . It has come down to a nub with the cost we found a nock off which we ordered and will be arriving early December. Am kind of nervous about the small size but the reviews say it is very comfortable and secure. If the knockoff works we will ordered the good one. What I am scared about is she read a post that the guy wore the device 24/7 removed it for 15 minutes a week for deep clean when she read that she had a scary grin on her face. I think I am screwed.

 

You know after 6 months of lock up you would think you would want it to end but I can not imagine life without the clit in a cage. I know this is sad but since we have started this I have had more sex with my wife in 6 months than in years. No PIV but God I love the taste of her pussy. But I will admit she gives a brutal hand job not for the faint of heart. In the last 6 months I think she has had 3 to 5 a week orgasms were I have had 3 in 6 months but woukd not change it for the world.

 

That is the stuff my wife likes. Her biggest like is the shrinkage treads she loves that idea.

 

Well my new cage came will be in it till the nub comes then my KEYHOLDER says every week we will swap one week vice mini the next week nub. So for now till the 12th of Dec the vice is the new home. Not very sure about the antipullout. After getting the device on I started to get hard it stopped it dead not even an internal. Weird feeling.

 

Well the first night qith the new cage had to remove it at 2 am. The pain from the anti pull out was intense. It will take a little getting use to. Definitely a learning curve. The device is very comfortable when flaccid. For some odd reason it would not stay flaccid. No matter what I did it stayed hard and after 4 hours it came off. Know when I say hard it was not a full blown raging hardon but half attempt. Just enough to feel the pullout squeeze tight. Just enough to feel the heart pushing blood in

 

Well it is official my KEYHOLDER gave me a release a couple days ago. Now that she has seen the new cage the rules changed again when the nub arrives December 12th I will every Sunday trade devices i will only be free long enough to do the trade. Every 3 months she will measure me if it has list length I will be allowed an orgasm if not locked for another three months and so on time the end of time.

 

since I did a good job on some stiff around. The house and have not asked and done what she wanted I was allowed numbing cream time today the picture are after 15 minutes trying as hard as I could. I was so horny today I hoped I could be that stuff. I could not even mange to get hard. I am a poor excuse of a man.

 

Well not much to report. Still locked with no release date.

I guess my only update is I finally had an revaluation. I realized chastity has changed me i no longer think of porn when bored. I really have learned how much I truly adore my WIFE.

Question to who ever reads this when did your nite time erections die. I have been in 24/7 chastity since March and nolonger does it try to get hard at all in the cage.

 

It has been a while since I posted.

My KEYHOLDER/WIFE likes to change her mind to keep me on my toes.

Well the idea she keeps coming back to is staying locked forever. On occasion she likes to use the numbing cream. She says it keeps me humble. So the new rule is this I will be locked 24/7 as normal on Sundays we will change devices (vice mini and HT nub) only time other than that will be in the use of the cream which she really enjoys. We don't have any kind of sex with cream she either gives me a hand or I do it. When she does it she gets rough and I get bruises. When she has me do it she laughed so hard it was very humbling for me. As far as our sex it comes down to my tongue and fingers. She also does her own to. God I love my wife.

 

I also want to add being in the cage I can even fight the cage anymore. I have noticed numerous treads on here saying shrinkage and stuff related is not real. I totally disagree even though I am seldom free but cleaning when it gets hard it is not hard like before and is smaller.

 

Well my wife says my unit is useless. I am told I need to agree with her and refer to is as just a pee hole nothin more.

There is a mistress on here she likes reading. She is getting ideas from. My wife is kicking around the idea of doing an no orgasm 2021. She has been saying if I am really good I may get an O for Christmas. But for the next year only numbing cream play till next Christmas. With weekly cleaning releases under supervision. I hope it comes true.