In retrospect, I have always been dominant in one way or another. I did not know how I could use this emotion in my daily life. For many reasons, there was no room in my life, or desire to act on this need. However, the longing was always there. Nearly four years ago, I met by chance, the man in my life. In fact it was in an SM club where I had been a member for about 5 months. Here I will describe how our journey, with no destination, has been so far, and my thoughts have been and are.