My journey 2 weeks in after the wife finally “got it”

Agree. A KH’s toy should get hard and stay hard when she wants it as well as soft and limp when she wants it.

 

Sunday was another full day of cooking and chores around the house. I can safely say our home has never been cleaner and my wife didn’t lift a finger.

when I started my day yesterday my wife said, if you complete this list like you did yesterday’s list I’ll think about letting you squirt. My body was aching from cleaning all day Saturday and this was just what I needed to push through another full day of chores.

When I reported back to my wife around 7PM that everything was complete she said, “great job, I’ll think about you cumming tonight before bed” well bedtime rolled around and as we were heading upstairs my wife turned to me and said, “oh about your orgasm, I decided to skip it. Did you really think cleaning the house would get you out of your punishment period? After only 4 days? Hell no. You cleaning the house is your duty, you didn’t do anything extra to deserve a reward.”

Oh my heart sank so deeply. I know it was only day 4 but without access to porn now, I so badly wanted to cum. I put on a little pouty face and my wife shot me a look that quickly got rid of that. I ended up falling asleep horny and frustrated.

Today’s day 5 without cumming… hoping I’ll at least have the opportunity to taste my KH’s sweet pussy tonight.

 

Update: Not having access to porn is driving me crazy! I feel like such a beta, so friggen owned. My cock strains at being denied images of nude women. Every time the content filter denies me access I feel like a little bitch.

I’ve gone from watching girls choke on BBC and getting huge facials to browsing shopping websites to see women in bikinis or panties. Literal clothing ads is what I’ve been reduced to, it makes me feel so pathetic. Worse still is that if the website is selling a bikini that’s too cheeky or the panty is a thong, the content filter blocks that too! It’s humiliating. I’ve started drooling over clothed women… the ultimate beta activity.

At least I did get to taste my wife’s pussy yesterday. Day 6 and counting without release.

 

I hope that I can learn to not miss porn like you. Maybe my wife will provide a few sexy photos for me too. Obviously I couldn’t cum when watching but I think looking at porn was helping my brain to relieve the idea I am a beta sub. Having the choice/ability to see women fucked by real men was allowing my brain to trick me into thinking I was still one of those guys. Right now I’m more frustrated but I think in the long term it will better align my brain with the fact I’m a beta and I don’t get to fuck women or get blowjobs which will ultimately make me more submissive to all women I encounter.

 

Today my wife and I took off work. She’s stayed in bed all morning watching TV and napping like a queen.

She once again made me wear one of her nighties and matching thongs. I love wearing her clothes so this was a real treat for me.

I prepared her coffee the way she likes it and served it to her in bed. Cooked a full breakfast for her with pancakes, eggs, fruit and toast and served it to her in bed. I rubbed her feet while she ate and then I was given permission to make my own food and then clean everything up.

I have a list of items to do today around the house. Tidying up, dusting and cleaning. All to be done in my cute baby blue babydoll nightie. Later on my wife wants me to bath her and then I’ll get the pleasure of licking her to a few orgasms.

This is way better than being at work. I’m so happy I can be of service to my queen. It’s now day 8 without cumming and my punishment period continues. I pray it ends this weekend and I’m given the opportunity to jerk my little dicklet on my knees at my wife’s feet for some release.

 

Not much to report the last couple days. Some general cleaning and prepping meals/drinks for my wife. Nothing too special to report on.

I did get to taste her pussy Thursday. Nothing yesterday and I’m pretty certain their won’t be any licking tonight. Day 10 without cumming but my wife has started letting me see her naked again. That gives me hope my punishment period may be coming to an end.

To be honest it was a treat and an honor to finally see a woman naked again. With porn blocked and my wife punishing me, I’ve really missed seeing my wife in a cute thong, and getting to pull it to the side and see her wet pussy. My cock strained so hard seeing her cute black lace thong and matching black bra on Thursday evening.

I really do hope I can cum tomorrow. I dare not ask but she’s been in a good mood, I think if I can keep her happy tomorrow, with Easter dinner and seeing family tomorrow, I think I may get an opportunity to release all this pent up pressure in my balls.

 

Day 12 without cumming. Nothing happened last night like I anticipated. I’ve officially started to leak precum uncontrollably.

 

WOW! wow wow wow it happened. I’m still basking in the afterglow of not only being allowed to cum but how it all went down.

my wife and I are both working from home today and I took my lunch hour as always to clean the kitchen, run the dishwasher, and make my wife lunch.

As I was cooking, my wife on the couch in the other room said, “you’re a good little hubby”. That perked my ears right up. I asked, “is it because I washed all the dishes, made you lunch and cleaned up and all I hope for in return is the privilege to lick you?” my wife liked that.

I served lunch and we both ate having a nice conversation about the upcoming pay. We went over bills and discussed finances to ensure what needed to be paid by me was taken care of… The rest of my paycheck would be turned over to her like usual ensuring I was financially dependent on her for everything.

After we finished she sat on the couch, told me to strip and crawl over to her. I licked her to three orgasms over the course of 20 minutes or so.

Afterwards she said I had been a good boy and I’d be allowed to cum. (Yes! Yes! Yes!) What came next was so incredibly sexy. My wife said I could continue to kneel in front of her and masturbate. She stuck her foot up on the couch and said, “I want you to keep my toe in your mouth the entire time you jerk off and I want you to say thank you while you cum”

I stuck her toe in my mouth so fast and started stroking my eager cock. My mind started to fantasize about my predicament. I thought about how I would have cum 25-30 times in 12 days and now this was my first and only one. I also thought about the situation. Previously my wife would be on her knees, sucking me off… not so much anymore. I felt pathetic in that moment, but the more pathetic I felt the closer I got to poping. I wondered if I would ever feel my wife’s warm lips around me again or if I had firmly positioned myself as the one who gets on their knees in this marriage.

I came to that thought. Mumbling thank you over and over with my wife’s toe still in my mouth. Collecting a flood of swimmers in my hand. Most would think this is where my wife tells me to eat it, but since she’s new to this I’m pretty sure that thought never crossed her mind. (Thank god)


I was told to clean up and go back to work. I can’t believe that happened. I feel so relieved by the orgasm.

 

After work I was still riding that high but my wife made sure I knew that I still needed to serve her despite just cumming.

It was grocery night again. Almost identical to last time, I was given a list, her credit card, and told I had 90 minutes to get everything completed… oh and don’t forget the receipt showing all purchases were approved purchases only.

I did as I was told and got back to a happy wife. Afterwards I rubbed my wife’s feet, gave her a nice shoulder and back massage and then tucked her into bed. Hopefully I’m starting off on the right foot and won’t have to wait almost two weeks for my next cum. Finger’s crossed.

 

Chastity captions are very misleading. Instead of a half naked woman telling you how she might let you out one day if you’re “good”, they should replace the naked women with pictures of dirty dishes and a big pile of laundry lol!!

It’s amazing how much my daily routine has changed. When you are submissive in a relationship, it’s not just teasing and kisses but chores, long-never ending chores.

Today when I got home from work, like most nights now, I cleaned up, dusted, did laundry, made dinner, cleaned the table, emptied the dishwasher, took out the trash, fed the dogs etc. all while my wife watched tv on the couch.

The day to day grind is not sexy, it’s not romantic. When you get into that daily routine of chore after chore… that’s where real submission happens. That’s what I’ve learned.

Of course I want to open a beer and flop on the couch or go play video games but I can’t… and out of respect for my wife, and my submission, I push through. I don’t dare complain, I don’t dare ask for help or even seek praise for my work.

And at the end of the night when I’m tired, too tired to even think about those sexy captions I once fantasized about… that’s when they become real. That’s when my wife asks me for a massage and her pus licked to two lady cums.

My reward for doing all the chores… giving a thirty minute massage followed by providing my wife the very thing I crave so badly and she alone controls and denies me. That’s real submission, that’s the day to day grind. For me, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

 

I don’t think many people fantasize about 2 day lock ups when they’re into chastity. Blame it on my beginner wife, but I suspect my wife enjoyed the humiliation during my last cum Monday and wanted to up the ante.

Monday I was commanded to kneel at her feet, put her toe in my mouth and rub one out. Today the exact same thing except this time she pulled out this vibrating plug we bought a long time ago, used twice on her, and left it to collect dust.

Now that our sex life is super charged she told me to insert it in me ol bum before putting her toe in my mouth and mumbling thank you as I cummed kneeling while she watched.

Of course I had secretly used this very toy on myself on a few occasions. My wife never knew that so it was hot to see her come up with the idea all on her own.

It is humiliating letting someone else, even if it is a spouse, watch as you kneel in front of them and masturbate, let alone having their toe in your mouth or your booty plugged at their command.

She told me I was pathetic as she looked me in the eyes… I felt pathetic. She told me if I mention sex or any kind of relief to her in the future she’ll only add more time. I cummed into my hand. Thank you, thank you, thank you I mumbled.

After the session it was back to work, making dinner, cleaning up, more chores, more work. Two cums in two days was a nice surprise but I’m concerned about not being able to beg for some release. I’m allowed to ask her one thing and one thing only… “may I lick your pussy?” You best believe I’ll be asking that every day from now on.

 

Welp my subjugation continues as my wife continues to assert her dominance. This I didn’t see coming and is something I’m conflicted about. My wife just started her period today and she said that for the next 5-6 days while she deals with her monthly, I’m required to wear a pad in my underwear just like her.

On one hand I feel humiliated but on the other hand I feel I shouldn’t be as this will only increase my appreciation for women. My humiliation is rooted in society telling me anything to do with a woman is embarrassing. We all know the stereotypical guy can’t even walk down the tampon aisle at the store let alone wear a pad for a week. With half the global population using these products, I should normalize wearing a pad and see it as an act of solidarity and love vs anything humiliating. Hopefully with time that happens.

Right now all I can hear is the crinkle as I walk and move. I’m scared others will hear it and wonder what that sound is. It’s unlocked a fear I didn’t even know women had. I’m thankful to my wife for demonstrating this to me and deepening my understanding of what women go through. The box says “zero feel” but I guarantee you that’s a lie. I feel and notice this thing constantly in the few short hours I’ve been wearing it.

…only 6 more days to go.