I thought I would move this topic from my normal thread to one specifically for my physical changes. My journal thread "uh oh she likes it" I would like to keep about our relationship and sexual fun/or no fun as the case sometimes is. So to recap on my condition, I was born a bit different. It's technically called partial androgen insensitivity, but most call it intersex. I was born with both boy and girl parts as a result. My testicles were where ovaries would have been, and instead of a scrotem, I had a labia and small pseudo vagina opening. And a small penis with a clitoral hood, and later developed breast tissue. I was surgically changed to the sex of procreation...testicles, so labeled boy. Labia and pouch was sewn into a scrotem, clitoral hood was removed with a very tight circumcision(my guess was to make it look larger). As a toddler I had another surgery to move the testicles down to the sack, and was given male hormones to jump start male pattern growth. Was a big success physically, looks pretty normal, and except for the circumcision scarring, a small scar from moving my testicles, and some breast tissue showing up during puberty, would never know I was born different. After experiencing some issues, I went to the doctor. My breasts had gotten bigger and more sensitive, harder to achieve orgasm. After tests and scans and two specialists, good news bad news. Good...I don't have a tumor on my glands or have cancer. Bad...my body's hormone receptors has started being unable to convert androgen to testosterone. Excess testosterone converts to estrogen...so, eventually I will be estrogen dominant. There is a drug that would eliminate excess estrogen, but was deemed too hard on my liver. It would need to be taken forever and he said I was too young to take it for that long of time. That diagnosis was last summer. He said there was no way to judge how fast or slow this would escalate, and that more than likely would take years for secondary sexual traits to become pronounced enough to notice, more than likely be gradual enough that even I wouldn't notice. When the time came, I might need some ED drugs, but most other physical changes would be gradual. After some changes in the last couple months have had a small come to terms with it moment and decided to move forward on a positive note and be the best me I can be, whatever I am. My breasts have started growing again, I know for sure because they feel just like they did during puberty. Sensitive, itchy, sore, and have noticed I've gained some weight, but fat isn't where it normally is, hips, thighs, and butt. Yuck I have cellulite! So after my soul searching, and discussions with my wonderful mistress and key holder, I have decided to just be me. If I look feminine, I look feminine. I am never just going to try to be a woman, but am going to be comfortable in an androgynous look and state of mind. After all I was born as both, it seems silly to be hung up about it now. So I'm growing my hair out, and will pick and choose my attire as the moment strikes me. If it seems a little feminine, who cares it fits. I can be me and my mistress has assured me that she will love me no matter what I looked like. Last summer I was very worried about it, and now that some changes have started I was worried again. But our relationship is even stronger now, and I wasn't nearly as upset. I've come to terms with my manly man days being somewhat over, at least looks wise. On to new experiences new looks and new attitude going forward as me. Whoever that turns out to be, I'm so glad that I won't be alone, thank you @Mistress Amanté i adore you. Funny part about all this, is I finally opened up sexually, and have a keyholder, and I might not be able to get an erection! Finally cock locked and now it might not work?! Ahhh life you bitch, funny sense of humor. Although maybe chastity was just what the doctor ordered, I haven't had any erection or orgasm problems since we started doing this seriously. This is an intro to this thread and quite long, my next posts on the subject matter will be much shorter!