Kinkerbell's Korner

Good morning, afternoon, or evening to you and thanks for checking out my Journal.

Who am I? Well around here, I'm Kinkerbell. Anyway, that is a story for another time.

During a period of my life that feels like an eternity ago, my primary fetish interest was chastity. Back then, it was for all those reasons that we, at least from the subbie side, all know and love. I won't detail them here.

I reached a point in my life where I felt that I didn't need chastity anymore, at least for a while. That's life, sometimes, as is the full-circle scenario I now find myself embracing. After a lot of thought, a lot of browsing and a bunch of playing catch-up regarding today's chastity marketplace, I decided that I indeed was going to return to this path and which way I was going to do so.

Yesterday, I ordered a Birdlocked Neo. Based on the options out there today, it is the right one for me. I can already hear you thinking, "his device is on order; lucky fella isn't locked right now". Well, that isn't exactly true. I've had a cheap, piece of junk, porn store job for a while. It's not a long-term, or even a short-term option, really. I've only really ever worn it for hours at a time when in the mood. However, I have reached the point where it has outlived its usefulness.

I have a lot of thoughts swirling in my brain right now...far too many for an initial entry in a Journal, and too many that I haven't finished thinking about. I'll be back again when they're sorted. Stay tuned.

 

About an hour ago, my new Birdlocked Neo arrived.

Photos & such later, at the moment I need to finish dealing with today’s real world to-do’s.

My tentative plan is as follows: Prostate milking on April 20th and May 20th, with a potential ruined orgasm on June 20th.

So far, I’m really happy with it. Obviously need to do a few checks over the next few days to see how my denied little bits are tolerating their new home.

 

As i write this, i have had possession of my Neo for about 21 hours.

About 6 hours in, i did a routine visual inspection, including an unlock, to check that all was well regarding my denied bits. i had planned to repeat the process this morning, but i opted for visual inspection only as everything still feels great. So i am going ahead with my tentative plan: prostate milkings on April and May 20th, along with maybe permitting myself to stroke to a Ruined orgasm on June 20th. A couple points that i feel obligated to mention here, as there isn't a great way to cover them without separate entries ...

• i'm flying solo without a KH and that's okay. If that changes, great. If not, it's okay too.
• i believe in hygiene breaks, although i am not following a strict schedule. When i feel a need to thoroughly clean myself, my device, or need a shave, i get a break for an hour or so. Otherwise, it's a continuous lockup.
• i follow the Safe, Sane & Consensual mantras, so i act accordingly in certain situations. The only thing pertinent at this time is the aspect of not involving unwilling participants in my kink. Anyway, i have an unlock pencilled in during early May due to a medical appointment. Sigh.

Now then, back to my assorted rambling. Regarding the 20th of June ... i just don't know. Part of me wants to say, "it's been 3 months, go ahead and sort of enjoy a ruined orgasm. Partially, i want to set up a game i have to play to earn the ruined orgasm (such as a Scavenger Hunt) i am even considering some sort of randomly generated number style game of chance. Or maybe something else to determine it and possibly just deciding to extend the lockup.

So, everything regarding a proper release is up for internal debate. Thoughts on the subject are welcome, if anybody has any to share.

At this point, i'm clearly winging it and deciding certain things as i go. That's one of the perks of being self-locked. There are only a few things that i do know for certain. So i present Kinkerbell's Rules v1.0:

1. Should i have a Keyholder at some point, all self-imposed Rules are suspended and subject to replacement by the KH's Rules, Wishes or Interests.
2. At most, i permit myself to have Ruined Orgasms. i willingly forfeit any chance at a Full "normal" Orgasm.
3. If it leaks from my penis during playtime, i must swallow it. Includes pre-cum, semen and on some occasions, my own piss.

That's all for now.