Last night my keyholder dumped me, returning the items I gave her. I guess I did not meet her expectations. So sad. I'm really depressed this morning. I've had thoughts of unlocking myself and masturbating. But I'm 14 days into current lockup and hoping to make it another 18 days until my birthday. I don't know that I am mentally strong enough to make it without someone else holding the key. I hope I can find someone local to the Baltimore area quickly to keep my key. It's just so hard. I'm so depressed.
lockedweewee, I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. I know it's hard and I'm glad to hear that you want to remain chaste until your birthday. I see that you're from Baltimore so you're in a great area to meet people in the BDSM lifestyle. I know that there is a munch in Laurel that is pretty well attended, so if you can get over there it would be worth your time as you'll meet some great people. I know in the city Baltimore has a great club as well as a really strong BDSM community so there are lots of folks there. If you can make it down to DC there are several munches as well as the Black Rose group which has regular meetings. And finally there is the Crucible club that is a popular BDSM place to meet people and play. I mention this as maybe the loss of your keyholder can be a way for you to have the best birthday of your life. Go make new friends, and maybe celebrate at one of the clubs or at a party and who knows maybe you'll find a keyholder who is right for you.
Sorry to hear that. Is there a reason you need your Keyholder to live in Baltimore? Just curious, Mistress Michelle :sex020:
Thanks for asking Mistress Michelle Keyholder doesn't necessarily have to be in Baltimore. But that would be much more convenient. I do occasionally have to travel for work on short notice, and the ability to have the metal lock replaced with a plastic lock is important. I also like the idea of someone close by so I can serve more easily, thereby being able to earn release on occasion. But, of course I will remain flexible.
Sorry to hear that. Best wishes on finding someone to hold your key. sincerely, maid madeleine x :sad0125:
In the iterim, you could hide the keys in two different locations? Say hide one under your work desk and maybe another at a relative's house. That's what I did.
Thanks for all the support and ideas. I've done the leaving the keys at work thing and timelock would work. However, nothing beats having a real person who will tease me, make me give her regular orgasms while I get none, and make me earn release and relief. Hence my being bummed out. But I will persevere.
I'm sorry lockedweewee... that's awful. :sad0123: A separation is never easy, but in D/s and chastity the relationships are so intense it can make it more difficult. I'm sure you'll find another KH soon.... good luck.
It's a shame that you lost your KH, lockedweewee. I am sorry for you sweety. But don't despair, I'm sure that it's only a matter of time before you will be on to new and better things.
i'm sorry to hear that also and hope you'll recover quickly. speaking of ClubFem, one can go to the web site and get connected rather quickly in both Va and MD (where we are).
Okay I'm new here and well, I have to say this, you have the internet and your whole life ahead of you. Patience is the best advise I can give you too.