Last night my keyholder dumped me, returning the items I gave her. I guess I did not meet her expectations. So sad. I'm really depressed this morning. I've had thoughts of unlocking myself and masturbating. But I'm 14 days into current lockup and hoping to make it another 18 days until my birthday. I don't know that I am mentally strong enough to make it without someone else holding the key. I hope I can find someone local to the Baltimore area quickly to keep my key. It's just so hard. I'm so depressed.