We have played around with a Female led relationship for years now, always for a short time though. The same with being locked up, after a few short days I would be allowed a release and then we would be back to life as normal. My record was 15 days of being locked in a CB-3000, and it was one of the toughest things I have ever done. I have been cruising this site for a few weeks now. It has helped me realize more and more, just what I am. Last week we started talking again about putting myself back in Her control. On the 28th of November I freely and willingly gave myself up to Her, and was locked again. My wife is exceptional. She knows what it is I need and want, and what buttons to push. And lets be real here a moment, a slave like me craves this stuff. I have made it a personal challange that I will not complain or whine or beg for release. She made it very clear last week, and I readily agreed, She dictates the terms and conditions. I asked for more control and direction from Her. I have a new set of rules I must adhere to. My online time is restricted, and I cannot clear "History" from the computer. I have a bedtime. I will remain locked for much longer than my 2 week "record". I will not orgasm without Her permission, including when I am unlocked and allowed to make Love to Her. I have asked for more, and harder, corporal punishments from Her, and She has since delivered. Nicely. Last night, after a pretty good paddling that left me screaming and in tears, I was permitted to please Her with my fingers and mouth. She came so hard that She wondered if it was because the beating She gave me earlier helped Her to orgasm much more intensely than She would have normally. Those words just made me melt a little deeper into Her world. She also told me that I am becoming a better slave for Her. She led me to believe that She might enjoy giving me good beating just to enhance Her pleasure. Just freaking WOW! I am more than just commited to Her. She knows damn good and well that this is truly what I need, and desperately want, to live a happier and more fulfilling life. It's not about my needs, I know. But. I need to suffer for Her. I need the agony of the cane, and Her vicious little rubber paddle. I need the helplessness of being strictly bound from the ceiling and whipped mercilessly. I need the slaps to my aching and swollen balls. I need the control. I need to serve Her, and Her needs and wants. It really does feel right, giving up my pleasure for Her. I need Her. I am still allowed my own personal time. I usually sit back and reflect on my circumstance, and where we are heading. I fully expect Her (if I may) to deepen and broaden my slavery to Her in the future. I am not a sissy, but She has put me in panty's in the past. She has hinted that that may be a become a fixture in my life, and it does intrique me. She does routinely check up on me here, and I know She will be reading this. She knows that these words are not the words of a desperately horny slave who needs a release. These are words of Love and commitment, To Her. I love you honey, and I cant wait to see what you come up with next. WW.