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  1. Rectrix
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    You're very very lucky. My wife let me put one-half in her about 6 weeks ago and hasn't unlocked me and permitted an erection in over a month. I still remember how wonderful it felt when she let the head slide in.
     
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    She inspected me when I came home from work... it’s humiliating

    I told her I need a break, she’s killing me with how horny she’s making me all the time... she made it perfectly clear that this is my life now, I don’t get choices like that.

    My wife wants me to be caged and horny... she told me the chastity will never end, it makes her happy, it makes the relationship more intimate, she enjoys the control

    She told me not to whine or complain about it, just accept that this is your life, that she gives me lots of attention and love and she really wants this. Was told not to bring it up again and when I’m a good husband I’ll be rewarded from time to time.

    My wife has made me her slave

    I can’t see a way to end this without significantly damage the relationship and I love her so much to do that

    I brought this into the relationship

    Cultivated it with three years of images and fantasies

    Her keeping me locked as we led up to the marriage made it so hot for her

    Then the nub came out and she got excited by the thought of keeping me in a small cage


    This situation just didn’t happen... when I met my wife to the woman she has become now... the process over the years brought her dominant out.


    The situation I’m in is totally is my fault


    34 years old... 6’3 240 and in shape... attractive young man who women enjoy flirting with... I work with a lot of young attractive ladies, it’s torture and then I come home to my bossy, teasing wife who always wants to cuddle and touch


    I desperately need to masterbate, I have so many images in my head that I need to just rub one out... those images just collect, collect and collect


    I lost the privilege of having orgasms whenever I want... coming to terms with never masturbating again

    My wife owns me
     
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    What a delightful post!
     
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    Relationships need to be a two-way street to be successful. Your posts sound like chastity and denial isn’t much fun for you any longer. If she’s not willing to give you a reasonable break (whether that’s at your hands or hers), just so you can level-set your headspace you may be headed for bigger relationship issues years in the future. Best wishes!
     
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    Yeah, pretty amazing. You have three choices, get out, change or surrender. Maybe you want the third. Allow your mind to relax, and accept something you cannot change.
     
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    I agree with this and what I tried to say... but she was like no

    Today after work when she got home, she got naked and layed on me... she let me rub and molest her naked body for an hour

    For as much as I want to be free, I can’t argue that when I’m locked, the relationship becomes a lot more intimate and she makes sure I feel affection.

    I’m going to give it a shot of not complaining or whining, hopefully that leads to more orgasms
     
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    If you still need relief, if you still want to cum, you need to stay much longer in chastity!
     
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    And there you have it, the core of a chastity relationship and the fundamental paradox. Your relationship is full of "intima[cy]" and "affection," the two things women want most and men are least good at -- she's getting exactly what she wants, and you're getting what most men miss out on.

    So why do you think you'll get more orgasms?
     
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    Agree 100%. Just accept it. You wouldn't get anything better.
     
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    As long as both of you are happy and having fun, that’s the best outcome!
     
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    Finding myself in a very similar situation as @Fuhr84, with one major difference. I am 20 years older.
    Going back 20 years I was married to a different woman, one that also was my dominant key holder. And I must admit that chastity has presented it's challenges on me, I am happier now then I ever been.
    The fantasy of having my dick in bondage by a beautiful woman will never subside. I always revert to wanting to be locked again. The rollercoaster of the last 2 decades of dealing with chastity that either didn't fit right, I could pull out of, could have orgasms inside, or other relationship challenges have brought me to this point now, where I accept who I am and so does my wife. A working PA a chastity cage with no chance of release and a hot kh that teases me relentlessly and enjoys daily orgasms on my face. I can't and I don't want anything else I am her slave and my brain has remapped and I am proud of us.
    I think you are hanging on to something that is already gone. I've gone through so many drastic changes in my life including becoming a father of 2 late in the game, that finally I could let go of my past self image that I was something I am not. I learned only a few months ago that my orgasms are my enemy.
    They don't serve me and are too short and the price is too steep. At the moment I realized and listening to this subliminal video really aided me. https://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?viewkey=ph5809f0ede5471
    Hope this helps.
     
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    Wife compromised a bit

    she gave me the privilege of unlocking for work... it’s a privilege she can take away

    Allows it to stretch out for 30-35hrs a week not being cramped in the cage all the time


    I just have to lock up immediately when I get home

    I can only unlock before I leave

    And I can’t complain about being locked at home anymore you

    Makes me happy
     
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    Wow! Creates real temptation for you to masturbate though, how will she control that?
     
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    if I did that I’d be locked forever lol
     
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    She has been relentless this weekend
    She took away my clothes privileges at home and has been teasing the entire day
    Grabbing me, biting me, teasing me about being locked in a cage

    Even sitting here watching TV she has her foot pressing against the cage

    She’s making fun of me because my penis can only twitch
     
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    Have a week vacation away from work
    I’m going to be begging my wife for sex... She was cupping my balls in bed and teasing me for them being so full

    And then I started to twitch in the cage
    “Aww muffin, can’t get hard in the small cage”

    She touches and rubs me relentlessly and then yells at me for leaking precum which just leads to spanks

    She’s gotten into the habit of not letting me hump her when we spoon... she rubs her bum against the cage and then gets off when it begins to twitch... she loves making the cage twitch
     
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    All the teasing caused me to have a wet dream... and then my wife got mad at me for having one... she gave me a hard spanking and told me it’s going to be a month before I have a chance to cum again
    She told me I better hope to not have another wet dream or the punishment will get worse

    I’m already desperately horny and I did not get any pleasure from the wet dream... my wife is being unreasonable... why does it turn me on so much...

    I have the next 2 1/2 days off work and I’m already in this state of mind... I’m done, I’m going to be a frustrated clingy mess

    The rules of the game have changed... I’m
    coming to terms with that... chastity is more of my wife’s fetish now... she randomly sends me captions sometimes via text that are hot as fuck, just to make me twitch in my cage... which just means she’s been looking at chastity porn getting wet

    I have this one fantasy, handcuffing my wife to the bed and then teasing her relentlessly, bringing her to the brink of orgasm over and over and over until she gives me the key and permission to have sex with her...

    I’ve told her about this in the past... she’s told me the punishments for this would intense... we can play the scenario if I ever want to, but she said the consequences to those actions will make it so I never want to do that again

    The way she’s going, I might need to play this card... I don’t know if the temporary relief in being horny is worth it... I’ll get locked back up and some of the punishments my wife does, I’ll be built back up in no time... she’d make me wear panties all the time for sure...not worth it

    One day though... the sex from the scene in my head, will be mind blowing
     
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    You really start to sound desperate. Very obvious who is in control!
     
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    I still have not figured out if this post is a cautionary tale, a humble brag, or fantasy fiction.
     
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    I’m on the same wave length as the wise owl, on the fence wondering which way to teeter
     
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    I wish this was fiction
    Do you have any idea how many images I have in my head to rub one out to... I work with some very attractive flirty women and I have not been able to cum in ages...Today one lady and this skirt she was wearing was so short, I just want to stop thinking about sex all the time... I’m triggered all the time with horny thoughts

    That’s nothing compared to what my wife puts me through... her only purpose it seems is to make her penis twitch in its cage.., I honestly had it good before we got the nub, it could stretch in the cage and I could create some stimulation

    Now I get nothing

    I remember when my wife did not enforce 24/7 chastity... those were the days, come home from work and forget to lock, sometimes she would just let me stay free. I can’t remember the last time I slept without wearing a cage... before we got the nub

    I’ve created an absolute monster here... I’ve bitten off more then I can chew... my wife is killing me right now telling me I won’t cum for three months because of the wet dream... I told her she can’t be serious, she just smiles... I don’t think she’s serious about the three months but she is tucking with me and teasing me

    All I know is I’m horny 24/7
     
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    She’s actively teasing me relentlessly with the sole goal of making me have a wet dream so she can punish me for cunning without permission

    It’s not even fair right now... my balls are so full... she had me run errands today wearing panties underneath my pants

    How am I supposed to survive spring and summer in this state of mind... a randomwomen chatted me up today waiting for the bus... the leggings omg, squished against the cage so bad...

    The rest of my night I’m going to be so clingy with my wife
     
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    A co worker is getting flirty with me
    Yesterday she tapped me on the bum walking by to say good morning... I was locked at the time

    I told my wife and she started teasing me that the co-worker wants the D and she owns if

    Right now is the most horniest and submissive I’ve ever felt in my entire life... disregard all prior posts ... the situation with the co-worker and my wife owning me, it’s fucking hot
     
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    There was a woman at the bus stop who was wearing a sweater, made eye contact with me, took off the sweater and was wearing a white tank top underneath with nice breasts... glasses... she was hot

    Then again she made eye contact with me and held it, she wanted me to approach and ask for her number... I’m married I can’t do that, and I’m wearing a small tight cage... I even have a good line when I notice women trying to get my attention “not that your not pretty, it’s just I’m married” and away some banter goes ... But being locked made me not even want to chat the lady up

    I’m convinced on some sub conscious Pheromone, biological level, women can sense how full my balls are and want to sleep with me...

    The worst is yet to come as I had a wet dream last night and my wife was waiting for that to happen, she told me I’m going to be punished when she gets home

    I’m afraid she’s going to make me stay locked 30 days straight with no release... it’s something she’s been teasing to do and now she has a reason to make it happen... that’s a path I don’t know if I can handle it, I’m already desperately horny and if she keeps me locked, I’ll have more wet dreams... and then she will punish me more

    I’m constantly horny... my wife owns me

    Sometimes she just gets naked and lays on me... how do you handle that without becoming a submissive mess instantly?

    It’s almost June and I don’t think I’ll hit 20 orgasms on the year
     
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    I think not being available triggers something in our behavior (or physiology?) that is attractive to women. Or something. However it happens, I have way more attention as a married man than I ever did when single.
     
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