I miss freedom

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    On one hand
    My wife constantly has me locked and it’s torture.
    It’s my fault for introducing her to chastity three years ago and this is what it led to
    Locked 24/7
    She teases and plays with me all the time
    Cuddles and intamacty

    She gives me freedom for a day or two here and there but always makes me lock back up and it drives me insane.., I can manage my horniness when I’m free, I can get erections and she allows me to dry hump her

    I’m 6’3/240 and she’s 5’2/120... it makes me feel incredibly submissive when she forces me in the cage, takes away my freedom and then begins to tease
    Or when I step out of line and she demands I strip naked and lay on the bed for a spanking

    Im a horny subby hubby 24/7... I miss freedom though so much, to be in control of my penis and not be a horny mess

    On the other hand
    My wife has taken this chastity fetish I had and has now made it her own with how much she’s fallen in love with control and being my mistress
    When she gives me an orgasm or when we have sex it’s absolutely explosive... the best orgasms of my life have been over the last year however infrequent as they are

    I just miss having more freedom and coming to the realization I gave it away to my wife and this is the way my life is going to be...
    I’m constantly reminded of being owned, I’m a young, attractive, man who spends the time in the gym... the wedding ring on my finger... women flirt with me all the time
    My wife has gotten in the habit of making me keep a hickey on my neck too... says it’s her marking her property
    My wife gets off on other women hitting on me and knowing she controls all my sexual energy with the cage locked around her cock.

    Anyways time to start getting ready for another day... it’s been a month or so since my last orgasm, I’m hoping she gives me one today, I just need to worship her body all day and hope for the best... I don’t want her to delay me another week or two... it’s getting to the point I’m afraid I’ll have a wet dream in my sleep and she’s going to punish me with a spanking like last time... it was intense enough to make me not want another one.
     
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    be careful what you wish for
     
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    Sounds as though everything is just as it should be! Enjoy :)
     
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    Perfect. You're a role model.
     
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    Chastity is a slippery slope.
     
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    How long did it take you to get to this point? You're exactly at the point where I want to be but my wife and I have only been 24/7 for 3 months with a about 2 days out every month and she still seems timid about it!
     
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    It took my wife a year to begin getting really comfortable... we got married at the end of October and sometime in July I traded an orgasm to be locked till the wedding without an orgasm... that trade triggered her really coming into her own and running with it... that trade probably led to her Chastity becoming her fantasy and no longer mine
     
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    You are the perfect example of what we wish here, most of us and like you I tried to play like a kink and when my wife has found some power and pleasure in it she does not gives it back.
    the best thins is to surrender, you have no choice and you have the deepest pleasure with her. Well I guess it is inevitable when you fall in and now it is too late to reverse. No worries, it is just a new life style. learn to enjoy it.
     
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    i know the feeling, i don't desire chastity either i love to be free i am just cooperating for her fetish
     
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    Good story!
    When you say you traded an orgasm:
    "in July I traded an orgasm to be locked till the wedding without an orgasm..."
    How did you offer that, or what did you say?
    Was it in the middle of sex?

    Sounds daring and it worked!
     
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    I offered the deal when i was giving a foot rub... it was a terrible deal with how strict she became after it.

    She gets so bossy and strict
    Last night going to bed she makes me be naked, she lies into me with her hand holding the cage... teasing me... and then she gets mad at me for leaking precum and I get a spanking as punishment followed by more teasing

    It’s absolutely relentless, my need to cum, always being caged and her relentless teasing

    It’s not fair, the dynamics of the relationship is something I’d have never imagined... she literally owns me and has made it absolutely clear this is no longer a game, this is life and she demands the cage around her cock.

    If I could’ve have a week of freedom just to cum as much as I’d like... easily 30+ orgasms in me ... I wish
     
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    Went out for dinner and there was a paper with horoscopes.
    Mine said something about contracts signed now will lead to prosperity later

    My wife took that to mean I have to write her a new subby hubby contract (we had one before we got married, she wants a new one as a wife)
    I have the day off work today and she expects it done when she gets home or I face punishment

    The way she was teasing tonight with how demanding she wants the contract to be... I’m done... I was straining against the cage so badly tonight... I’m going to be a leaking mess all day because of that contract and then my wife’s going to come home and make it even worse
     
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    I’m so much bigger then my wife (the size difference is a turn on when she’s bossy) and she has turned me into a horny; submissive, puppy... I’m so fucked (but not really)

    The way my wife has begun to rev it up... it’s becoming really intense
    The contract she’s making me write along with what she’s going to do to me this weekend... the contract is making me write complete control of myself to her... omg just thinking about it is making me strain... how am I going to write it

    I give up, she wins
    When she was teasing last night, the state of mind, complete horny submissiveness... I gave her way to much power
     
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    She was a teasing menace tonight...
    I’m leaking and smell like pussy so bad, and she told me I can’t wash her juices off... every breath is a tease

    She was thrilled that I have a long weekend and before it even starts she has me turned into her horny puppy

    It’s so bad... I get triggered with sexual thoughts all the time... I see a pretty lady in leggings or a skirt... I’m at the gym or out about and a random lady starts up a conversation with me

    Im about to go back to bed and the rest of my night will be spent dry humping her as we spoon... unless she demands to cuddle into me strandiling my leg and she touches my pelvis and her cage falling asleep... That’s the only two ways I sleep
     
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    I was bugging her to much in the morning cuddling her... I was so horny
    My punishment was I lost clothes today and get bum Spanks when she gets home from work

    She’s stepped up her dominance everyday even more
     
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    She got me the nub which she makes me wear 24/7 and I’m unable to pull out even for some temporary relief

    It’s birthday weekend she made me take a cialus 48hr pill...she kept me locked and teased me to the point of tears, she’s having a nap right now after I licked her to countless orgasms

    I’m just trying to reset before she wakes up... we both have tomorrow off to

    I’m so horny and am absolutely dying for an erection, the nub cage is so damn small, it’s so humiliating

    I’m completely at her mercy right now... I’ve never felt this level of submissiveness
     
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    I was actually struggling this morning feeling depressed about not being able to have erections or penetrate my wife. I go through this periodically, where I will have a few days in a row where I miss it so bad that I feel really depressed and angry. But after a few days it goes away.
     
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    I have experienced many of the same thoughts you've described. I am fairly new to this and have been locked for 84 days with the exception of cleanings by my Gf and a very frustrating ruined orgasm at day 61. Anytime i am unlocked i am cuffed behind my back. I haven't touched my cock unlocked since this began. Days 30 to 60 were by far the worst. I was on an emotional roller coaster trying to process this hell in my mind . My Gf indicated that any protest of my predicament by me would just extend my suffering. I now find myself in a place in submission i never knew existed. It does get a little easier with time. Hang in there my friend.
     
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    I’ve been doing this for three years, so it’s not new to me. However, last February was the last time I had time out for an erection and orgasm. Until February I was out regularly for cleaning, but no erections or orgasms. Then in February we switched from Holy Trainer to Queen’s Keep and it hasn’t been off since.

    I have to travel to Canada at the end of April and am looking forward to a short break as my wife has said it would be okay to be unlocked when I go through TSA and Canadian security. She wants me to lock back up as soon as I get to Canada, but I already find the idea of abusing my freedom very tempting. It’s going to be a hard week when I have to go.
     
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    sounds like a good story ?.
     
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    If that was directed at me, no it’s not really much of a story. Although what I describe sounds quite dramatic, it’s really pretty boring most of the time.

    We don’t do anything against each other’s will. If I REALLY wanted to, I could stop with chastity. I do it for my wife’s enjoyment primarily. There are times when get tired of not being able to have erections or orgasms and think a lot about just calling it quits. But I never do. I know she enjoys it and I am a sucker for pleasing my wife. But if I really just could not stand it anymore, we would stop with it.

    She’s not sadistic about it. She just prefers me locked up and really has no desire for me to be unlocked. And I play along for her enjoyment. I like seeing her happy. I get a sense of validation from seeing her happy.
     
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    Hey shepherdsflock,
    I'm glad to see that you are in a more positive frame of mind than you were.
     
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    Thanks. The last year has been very difficult in many ways.
     
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    Sorry for my nippy comment, I had been consuming alcohol and I think I am a little bit jealous.
     
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    Keep up posting very interesting development in your relationship. Maybe here level of dominances scares you?
     
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