After being without an orgasm for over a month, I started wondering about the expression " blue balls" . Turns out it's very real and can be quite hazardous . I often am very aroused by just the fact I'm caged. I live alone and have my Queen holding the key to my jailbird. I have been visiting her about 5 days a week to carry out errands and chauffeur her around . The one and only orgasm my Queen allowed me was last year on Dec 1st. I remember the date well because she had me cum on the grass by a stream then rub my face in it and lick what was left . We went back to town where I bought a Costco membership, the photo is of me with cum still on my face , but it doesn't show on the photo. Now that I'm forceably caged ( and loving it ),I know it will be a very long time until I'm allowed an orgasm. My Queen used to tell me many times that if she caged me I'd never get an orgasm for the rest of my life. When we were at the locksmiths getting the padlock ,I said I was having second thoughts because I'd need an orgasm at times ,to which she replied that she would consider allowing me one if I had a perfect day. I have scrubbed her toilet ,shower walls, tub, floors and obeyed her every command instantly , but she always finds many things I did wrong. Some amount to not reading her mind, like not turning at the right corner when going to somewhere I haven't been before and following her directions. It has become clear that she very much enjoys having her "useless sissy bitch" in heat and wishing for an orgasm. She enjoys having me remove my cage when cleaning ( naked) and getting an erection, she often has had me jerk myself until I tell her I'm getting close, then she has me stop and resume cleaning . I'm back in my cage when she's done with me for the day, and I'm sent home. Her thrill is the power to control me in everything especially my sex drive. Her greatest thrill is whipping me so fiercely that after one stroke I jump away and beg for no more , she orders me back in position to which I instantly obey ,all the while pleading for no more . The power she loves is watching me in pain return for more whipping at her command despite begging for no more . ( check the whip marks in my avatar) I read the first topic that came up when I googled blue balls, it was enough for me to google prostate massage , and a good thing I did. Today I bought a cheap prostate massage thing, and google told me how to use it . I wont use it ,until I tell my Queen. She said she'd like to use a dildo on me , so maybe I can get her to read what I googled today . I'm thinking I can milk myself while still caged , but so far not sure of anything to do with prostate stuff. Once again I think it will be up to my Queen what happened next .