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    HenryFlower Owned by Ymmxqueen

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    My mistress, keyholder, fiancée (yay!) and soulmate @Ymmxqueen asked me to post something of an appreciation post and blog here on the mansion.

    The truth is, I'm not quite sure where to begin.

    We met around three years ago online, and what was intended to be something of a casual arrangement for us both very quickly turned into much more.

    And I am so glad it did.

    We spent our early days playing, experimenting and veering from one dynamic to the next as the mood took us. And whether we played at Goddess and devotee, mommy and little or mistress and sissy, chastity has been the common thread throughout.

    I'm proud to say I haven't self-pleasured since before the evening of our first date, and the time I've been allowed to touch her property in the time we've been together have been few and brief.

    My Tattoo
    There have been many thrilling milestones along the way. The first that springs to mind was when my mistress wrote her name on me with a tattoo gun. I was strapped to the bed, probably after a long play session, when my Mistress started gathering bits from cupboards here and there. I could tell by the grin on her face she had something special planned and as I'd already long ago made up my mind that she was THE ONE for me, I didn't fight or squirm a bit as she methodically shaved my pubis and began to tattoo in plain writing: Property of Ymmxqueen.

    My tattoo is far from the professional dolly in a cage or ornate script we'd talked about, but I love this simple statement of ownership more than anything any tattoo artist could create since it came from my mistress' own hand.

    My Proposal
    Another milestone I've written about briefly here on the mansion was the Christmas morning I went down on one knee to propose. I was shaking with nerves. I took out the ring. We locked eyes and I asked. My mistress grasped me by the hair and pulling me close, whispered: "Beg me, bitch..."

    I knew long before my proposal I'd found my one, now I was in no doubt at all.

    A Punishment
    I try hard to please my Mistress, but I haven't always been the best partner. Early on in our relationship, I violated trust by viewing and downloading censored porn. This was a new fetish to me at the time and I reasoned that, since the images were censored, it wasn't technically breaking my Mistress' no-pornography rule.

    Porn has been a lifetime habit - and a difficult one to break. I lapsed again in August this year by downloading and promptly deleting more censored images. When my Mistress discovered these in my computer's recycle bin, I found myself in serious trouble.

    I've been locked permanently since then, for a period that far exceeds anything we've done in the past. I've put pornography behind me, putting everything I have into serving on my Mistress' terms.

    A Cuck Mindf*ck
    Over my extended lockup, we talked lots about cuckolding. I know my Mistress has always liked the idea of FMM play but it's always been a fantasy. That changed a few weeks ago when we decided together to see if chatting online with a bull would live up to the fantasy we'd been whispering of. We met someone fairly local and our three-way chat had Mistress and I feeling like naughty teenagers. It was pretty clear that cuckolding was to be more than just a fantasy...

    And so I found myself on the evening our bull was to arrive, wrapped from head to toe in plastic pallet wrap, unable to move...hearing the knock on the door...voices, soft moaning in the hallway...I hear my mistress come into the room. My mind hears our bull going upstairs.

    It must have taken almost five minutes of lying there, bound tightly in plastic, in silence with my Mistress, to realise this was all a rouse - a deftly planned and executed mindfuck. The voices and moaning were play-acting - the footsteps I'd heard were nothing more than my sensory-deprived imagination filling in the blanks...

    Our bull - in on the scheme of course - was at home, laughing. Wanking, probably. Later that evening, still bound, still locked and untouched by my Mistress' hand, I came in my cage - a numb and desperately frustrating quasi-orgasm that made me want to tear through my plastic cocoon to complete the ruined work.

    My mistress continues to talk to bulls - an old admirer, who I'm assured has a huge cock - something tells me that next time it won't be a mindf*ck but the real thing.

    Finding Power
    I know that the mindf*ck episode, and talking to bulls, was hugely empowering for my Mistress. This, and my extended lockdown when I've been extra attentive, seems to have shown her it's possible to find pleasure on her own terms without 'resetting' the submissive energy she is so deftly weaving and stirring with me.

    There are warnings: "I no longer need to unlock you..." "We do things MY way from now on..." "I'm going to take you so deep into submission, you won't know what's happened..."

    Seeing this discovery of power is undoubtedly the most alluring, amazing, entrancing and deeply, deeply sexy thing I've ever witnessed. Just writing about it is enough to set my heart racing.

    I love feeling the screw tighten.
    I love being in your thrall.
    I love the brand you gave me, marking me as your property.
    I love the rules you put in place to remind me of my servitude.
    I love the humiliation of lisping 'yeth mithtreth' in my sissy voice, as is your wont.
    I love kissing your feet before bed.
    I love the life we've made together, and wondering where our journey may take us.
    I love when you are severe, and I love the relaxed moments when we are lovers, soulmates, and just like any ordinary couple...well...almost...

     
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    Interesting story of your evolution. Continue and enjoy serving her.
     
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    Good luck to you both
     
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    Beautiful
     
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    This was really lovely.

    Your words are poetic in nature and they accurately express the love you have for your Wife.

    Iso.
     
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    Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. I am happy for you both.
     
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